Jae-in POV:

"Yu-ji ah, I am feeling hungry and uncomfortable. Could you please get some food and prepare a hot bath?"

"Yes of course Missy Jae!!! I will be right back! Wait for me!"

The moment the doors close, I rest my head against the bed frame. Sigh, I must be really lucky to be given a second chance once again. Closing my eyes to recall the very first life when I first saw Xuan Di.

It all started with just one innocent young teenage girl, who fell in love with a young gentle charming man who came by their house for a visit. At that time, he was known as Xuan Yi. I recalled that I was playing around with my brother in the gardens while father was attending his visitor. As part of the family teachings, a lady cannot reveal herself easily to any men unless he is going to be your husband.

While playing the kite with my brother, the kite got stuck at a tree and I went to retrieve it. That's where I fell in love with the very man that I got so obsessed with. He was dressed with a pearl white inner wear with light blue outerwear, flipping through the pages of a book while seated at the outdoor seats located directly under the tree. Just as he looked up, he saw me stuck on the tree with the kite in my hands. I bet I looked disgraceful and messy at that moment.

Fast-forward, I got to know that his name is Xuan Yi, a visitor from Capital Xuan and accompanied him through his days in my hometown while introducing him to the food, activities and games. I knew I was falling too fast, and the very next moment, I begged father to allow me to propose to Xuan Yi. I want to marry him. He is the one I want to marry.

At first, father strongly disapprove and locked me up in my room and relay a message to never let me out till Xuan Yi returns back to Capital Xuan. Little did he knew, I was very extreme and persistent and threaten to kill myself by attempting to commit suicide in front of him. Father then unwillingly promise me, and approach Xuan Yi to share his intention of marrying me off to him. Xuan Yi gave his answer after 3 days and we set our wedding date to be in 3 months time. At that time, I was only 16. He was 21.

Although I know he doesn't love me, he still gives me the basic respect of a wife. As we head back to the Capital of Xuan, that's where I realised Xuan Yi is Xuan Di, the crown prince of Xuan Yuan. The emperor's son, a crown prince and now I am the crown prince consort.

Ever since I was young, I learnt from brother that our mother has left the world due to illness and father decide to shoulder the pressure and responsibility to raise both of us up alone.

Once, when I was 4 years old, I asked brother why doesn't father remarry so we can have a mother? All he said was that father was too in love with mother that, even if she had passed away, he would never ever be able to fall in love with another woman again.

"But why will we only be in love with 1 person? Isn't it normal for a man to have more than 1 wife?"

Brother looked at me with love and slowly stroke my head with his warm palms.

"You will soon understand when you grow up. But isn't it great to love only 1 person and that 1 person loves you too?" I ponder a little while before responding to this rhetorical question.

"Yes! It sounds great! Alright then, when I grow older, I will only marry and fall in love with 1 person." I smiled with such innocence and it grew to be a belief that I want to make it true.

However, things will never go accordingly what we want, having the responsibilities of being a crown prince consort, I have to learn the imperial palace mannerism. I have to learn how to sew, how to paint, how to write poems, how to play instruments, how to dance and how to impress. These are things that I don't need to do back in my home town, I was so carefree back then and do what I love to do.

I love to do martial arts; I learn how to fight with brother. I learn how to use a sword and an archer for hunting. I learnt how to do military war combat tactic, general knowledge of the world.

Though I don't do what I love to do here in the Capital of Xuan, but for Xuan Di, I am willing to sacrifice and work hard to not disappoint him. I don't regret marrying him.

But, many years passed, I am not even one step into his heart.

He became the Emperor of Xuan, he crowned other daughters of the noble as his consorts. He favoured his childhood lover, Xue Qing, Noble Lady Xue and even had 2 children with her. While they live happily together, I fell really sick and it seems like I can't be pregnant despite the effort for 10 years.

Back then, I was so innocent and unwilling to harm anyone due to moral values. Being the kind and understanding Empress that everyone expects me to be, little did I know I was framed for something that I didn't do at all. Not only that, Xuan Di did not even believe or stood up for me, he did not even bother knowing the truth. The next thing I knew, I was dragged by those Eunuch to the cold palace, one that will never ever come out unless you die.

Yu-ji followed me to the cold palace and due to all the abuse she receive from other palaces servants in order to let me survived, she finally die out of exhaustion. At a mere age of 35, I no longer possess the young youthful face that I once had, I looked wrinkled and boney as if I was 50.