Most of the time I do wonder if physical training is all that matters. Well, in the long run I assume using the brain would be better, I do wonder if solving a problem first in my mind then acting on the problem in physical reality would be better than repeating the same problem again and again.

The mind is lazy and it never leaves a chance to rest. If there is a choice I would lean toward doing some creative work; then why is there resistance, a sort of barrier every time I think of doing a new task?

The situation does not allow me to be lazy. I have a limited number of days but still I feel lazy. Every time I push forward that door I am consuming too much energy in my mind.

'Mirage, do you think there is a solution for it?'

'Why do you feel the mental resistance in the first place'

'I assume, it is because I feel nervous, a kind of burden feeling'

'Why do you feel nervous'

'because I have limited number of days'

'is worrying about it going to solve the problem'

'no, but... even if I do the work for the following days I don't think I could complete the task above passing marks'

'Is it a certainty?'

'well, no..I would go for 50-50 chance'

'Why are you afraid then?'

'because I feel there is higher chance of failure'

'and Why is that so?'

'because I couldn't keep my commitment with myself'

'is it because you failed to keep a number of commitments to yourself?'

'yes'

'Why not try to work six hours then?'

'because I assume it will only lead to failure?'

'Have you tried it?'

'no'

'Why not try it for a week, see the trend and make a decision'

'but usually an outside factor affects my experiments'

'maybe or maybe not, but to know the future is not in your hands, to live with curiosity is the one of the best part of the life, so let's find it out together'

'yes'

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Day 10-

The function in the dungeon is simple, I only see tree branches attacking from all the sides, my hands move to block the attacks even without a second thought. I do wonder if it is a good thing or a bad thing. Well, if my friend is doing a feint attack and i suddenly lash on him, and if he or she die from it, is it my fault or his or her fault?, hm, I wonder...

My clothes have all been turned into rags, surviving daily with bread and an adequate amount of water. I am becoming more and more skinny. I do think that maintaining body shape is a good thing, but if my own body is becoming a skeleton I am against it. i would prefer to be a bear than a skinny monkey, but the trial is specially making me into a monkey. If I have to say in more adequate term, it leans towards more of agility training rather than strength training.

I am wondering if level 2 of this dungeon will have strength training or would it be an advanced version of agility training.

Sometimes I feel blessed that Mirage is with me, though she is an uninvited guest in my mind. I have to say these days would have been unbearable, if there was no one to have a chat with.

It is the same feeling of having a temporary itch. It is good to scratch, but I do wonder if permanent itches are there, like dandruff in the hair, is it good or bad?, well cause scratching does brings pleasure. I can say that even if the crowd says they hate the itch on their head, the heart might be saying otherwise.

IN the same way having Mirage with me, could be a good thing.

The turbulence of emotions is what causes me to feel unstable, remaining in the same room, doing the same work. No matter what I say , it is slowly becoming unbearable.

Problems always exist, if one problem is temporarily down, another problem pops out. I wonder if it is right to think of a problem as a problem. It could just be a nuisance and if ignored the situation could be handled. But the fire in the heart is irritating, I try to ignore the fire in my heart but one way or the other the energy would be released. Why is that so Mirage?

'the fire in your heart is just a coping mechanism, you have the will to go from defensive to attack mode, but the circumstances does not allow it, the circumstances in which the situation occurs could be good or bad for you, but it depends upon your own strength leading to the situation"

'strength could be defined in many ways and depending on the situation it could have different meanings, but basically there is a lack of strength in some areas which leads to the situation'

'consider the present situation, if you are powerful enough you need not to be under Chlea, but you are'

'But, is it necessary to stomach it?'

'no. but the consequences could be dire.'

'Working against the master of the situation would lead to worse consequences, if you can handle it , it is just fine, but acting on your emotion or a stimulus, maybe what the opposite opponent wants. Would you like to fall in a trap or would you rather keep silent about it?'

'hm'

'Working on the raging heart is just as important as working out for your body, it is a necessity to find an outlet for these repressed emotions, make these emotions work for you, not against you.'

'but how?'

'well, some use diversion for releasing, some meditate and some destroy'

'but nothing is satisfactory, the only best method is understanding the situation as an observer, finding the root cause of the problem and solving it, could only release the fire in your heart.'

'yea'

'I understand, I will ponder on it'

A human body core or the navel area is the foundation of martial arts, it is where the equilibrium of the body lies, I am using my whole against these demonic tress attack, but I just feel that my core area is not developing as my arm strength, do I need to do separate exercise for it, or let it be..

I am thinking for now I would focus on completing the first layer of the dungeon and moving forward to the next layer. Someone would say it is best to bring the foundation to the sturdiest level as you can, but I feel in the long run my whole body would be redeveloped, it is better that I focus on the current task, rather than a future hazard.

Will my decision be wrong, maybe, but for now, I will be focusing on the current predicament.