I’m at college sitting alone on the stair-step like I used to do. Strange, I always came here to smoke and did not remember this place to be so jolly. My eyes hurt with this fucking blue sky. It looks like the day I met Sofia. Sofia? She is walking by me now, just like the day we met. This is just a lucid dream, but I want to cry and wake up, and I fucking can’t. I will play this game for now.

“Sofia!?”

“Huh? Have we met before? You look very sad!”

That big heart of hers. Always concerned with strangers. Fuck! She knows we met before; we attended the same boring Philosophy class.

“I’m sad, but I can’t cry. You shouldn’t worry so much with strangers, girl!”

“I’m doing my part; this word is full of sadness. Why don’t you come with me and grab a spoon at the homeless shelter? I have no classes today and you are for sure skipping one. It’s a win-win situation. What do you say about it?”

That smile, the selflessness. Her deep blue eyes staring at me. This is the ultimate form of torture.

“Why worry so much about some strangers? It might kill you someday! This city is rotten to the core!”

“I think if we stop doing our part, the suffering of the world will only get bigger. If I die, I know I did my best.”

No! She is smiling, she is very naïve. She can’t! She can’t be so naïve! What difference it will make anyway? It’s too late now.

“What about the people that care for you? You don’t care about them if you die?”

She smiles again. It hurts to see her again. I longed for her smile, but this is only a dream. It is not real.

“If I die, I hope they move on with their lives. We will all be going to die someday, and I don’t regret the choices I made. It will be sad, but I hope someday they smile again! What are you doin—

Slap!

I hugged her and kissed her. I can cry now. She slapped me, I missed her. I will always miss… How can I move on? She doesn’t know the weight of her words.

“I’m sorry I slapped you. Are you hurt? You are crying!”

“Yes, and it was amazing!”

“You shouldn’t be kissing girls out of the blue. This is harassment. It wasn’t good for me.”

“Why are you smiling, if the kiss wasn’t good?”

She had a huge crush on me, and I knew it from our mutual friend, but she wasn’t good enough for Sofia. If your friend fucks the guy that you have a crush on, it’s a bad friend.

“Your name is Christian, isn’t it? We attend the same class of Philosophy, don’t we?”

“Yes, and you’re the prettiest girl of this college!”

She is blushing and running her hand through her hair like she used to do when I complimented her.

“You are a pretty boy too; however, you should learn to have manners, Christian! Let’s go to the shelter or you’ll be here harassing other girls.”

“Are you jealous, Sofia?”

“What if I am?”

“Then, we have no other option but marriage!”

“You’re crazy! Be a helpful crazy person and come with me!”

She is grabbing me by my hand and taking me along with her. I miss her touch. What? The scene changed! I’m standing in that dark alley she was murdered. Her lifeless body in a corpse bag, her blood everywhere, this annoying rain. That scene again, that rage again, that sadness again. Fuck! FUUUUUK!

“Fuuuuuck!”

“ You’re awake!”

The book is looking at me with that creepy eye and that fucking smile.

“Take me to Grimminir, now!”

“I can take you to the place where we were before, only Abaddon can telepo—

“Shut the fuck up! I don’t give a crap let’s get out of here right now!”

Rage. I can only feel rage now. I want to punch this world until it explodes! We were back at the beach and it was morning. I grab the fucking book and stare it in the fucking eye.

“Leviathan is like a nuclear weapon, isn’t it? I can feel it somehow! ANSWER ME!”

“Let me go! Yes, he has the energy of 87 points out of 100!”

“Leviathan serpentem tenebris nigrum draco flammis. Coniuro vos in terram anathemate!”

A black dragon the size of a small building is before me. It was a shit show of black flames to summon this bastard. The entire beach is on dark flames. Nice!

“What is your wish?”

“Destroy the entire east coast, Leviathan! Spare no one!”

“It will be fun! So it shall be done!”

“Hehehe! Are you crazy? We will be caught in the blast, you idiot!”

“I don’t give a damn! Flee if you want, you floating piece of used toilet paper!”

Leviathan ascended to the skies and is shining with dark energy as loads of dark flames surround him. He takes a deep breath and then fires a gigantic black blast that exploded everything. The huge explosion is deafening and the ground shakes like a fucking earthquake. In the distance, I could see a black mushroom cloud. Nice!

Here comes the explosion! The book is shielding me from the powerful shockwave with the hellish flames. The east coast is gone! You rotten bastards! Burn like the fucking garbage you are!

“Hahahahahaaa!”

It was over. Hundreds of thousands burned to death! I was crying and laughing on my knees. Suddenly, in my mind, I see the face of Sofia. The joy of before was starting to turn into deep regret. My hands are shaking.

“What ha-have… What…What have I done!?”

A blinding light shines. And I see five angels getting closer. What!? It can’t be! One of them is… Sofia!?