SEBIAN

I kissed her, I kissed her hard. I don’t do this because I love her, you can’t really love a girl like Natalie anyways. I do this just to take my mind off of all other nonsense things around me. My father thinks that I should focus on my studies right now instead of modelling so, here I am in this place which starts and ends at a hand’s length and have nothing decent what so ever to do during my stay here. After the death of my grandfather and then my mother, my grandma has started to stay ill these days. I didn’t visit here very frequently before but in her last days my grandma wanted me to spend some time with her.

I don’t like it here though. In the city I had a busy life, fans every here and there but unlike here they were a little more civilized who remained in their boundaries but here it is crazy. These people were seeing somebody in the real life for the first time and hence I get no time to breathe. The best example of that are the kids studying here and to narrow it, Natalie. From the day one that I have joined here she has been stuck to me like a gum. How much hard I tried to ignore her I couldn’t. So, I gave up and instead made her an object of my entertainment. Along with her she brought a few others and now I am also a part of the group of famous kids in this college.

Mostly because of these reasons I don’t attend college frequently. I like staying at home with grandma and helping her around. The time that I get free I paint or listen to music or finish up my college homework. However I may come as I can assure you that I am actually good in studies, the reason that I don’t get into trouble even if I bunk classes.

Me and Natalie walk into the cafeteria for lunch and were greeted by the other three at our usual table. We all get seated with our lunch trays and I can’t avoid noticing the hushed talks, the giggles and eye movements pointed at us in the background. I am used to these now so I dig into my lunch instead. Natalie is irritating me today, she is being too clingy and I feel suffocated. She is sitting beside me with her left hand hooked into my right and her chin rested on my shoulder. I felt her breath on my face which annoyed me.

“What happened Nat? You look so dull today,” Ariana asked, looking genuinely worried about Natalie. Natalie instantly removed her chin off of my shoulder as if she was waiting for someone to ask her about her mood. “What do I do Ana? I don’t think I will ever get that scholarship I want.” She said sulkily, letting out an exasperating sigh. “Why do you say that Nat? You are academically doing well already, with a little more effort you’ll be able to get it,” she said with an assuring smile. “You think that will happen as long as Miss Nerd is in the race,” she pointed at the person sitting at our front table with a subtle movement of her brows. “I really did not expect this peasant to continue her studies. I thought she will just drop it and help her father with earning money for her brother’s studies but she’s just not letting it go. Is this doing this just to miss with me?” I can feel the anger emanating from her in the form of shiver of her body.

Before she loses herself and creates a scene here I thought of calming her. “Why are you worrying about that Nat? I can give you private tuitions if you want” I teased her getting my face near the nook of her neck. She giggled, her anger dissipating a little and said, “Will you baby? That would make me happy but you know what would make me more happy- it’s if you can do something about that girl instead,” she shamelessly pointed her finger at the lone figure sitting with her head down having her lunch. “It’s not like I am bad at studies, I am just bad than her. If she is out of my way I can easily grab the scholarship,” she sighed and pushed me lightly.

I glanced at Joe who was looking at me with a silly smile on his face. He knows my hardships; in fact he is the only one in the group I actually can say is my friend. I averted my eyes from him and looked at the girl who was the topic of our conversation. No, I don’t see anything special in her. She wore a grey sweatshirt that was covering her like a turtle with only her head moving in and out to take in the food. She was eating at an unbelievable speed, looked like she just wanted to get out of here. After a few seconds she suddenly got her head up and looked at me. I barely noticed her dark green eyes when she suddenly chocked on her food. This made me smile at her and within a fragment of second her spoon fell out of her hand on to her tray. Wait! What was happening here? Was she scared of me or was it something else. Hmm... This seems interesting. A sudden surge of excitement ran through my body and a plan started formulating in my head. I think I might have a way for letting Nat get what she wants and in the meanwhile it will be fun for me too.