cut away my great despair

took a long while to get somewhere

your song is in my blood

will I ever drown you out

everything I have ever learned

as I lie by the fire and the flood

of great despair

it covers me with a shroud

bone white like pillars of light

the trees are dying and living

again

cut away my great despair

took a long time to get somewhere

your song is in my blood

will I ever drown you out

I am a monster and I burn

in hatred and in fear

of myself

do not come near, I'll lash out

again

I love myself and I hate too

it takes everything of me I am to do

to not lash out

at you

cut away my great despair

took a long time to get somewhere

I love you

will you love me too

there are three things I must learn

to learn to begin to love

to reach out

to hold you close

to crush you in my chest

to drink you deep into my lungs

until you're in my eyes and in my throat

until you're in my heart and in my soul

until I am you

and you are me too

cut away my great despair

took a long while to learn again

your song, my words

will I ever learn

to let you go

to let you go

to let you go

to let you go

to let you

go

again

will I ever learn

to write you out

to write you out

to drown you out

of me

of me

of me

cut away my great despair

I took you into my lungs again

I should have let you go

a long time ago

it's too hard

to try again

to start again

of me

cut away my great despair

I had to try to start again

love me, hate me

I am a monster

cut away my great despair

I'm starting to love again

look myself in the mirror

lock myself in the fear

again

cut away my

great despair

will I ever learn

to let you go

of me.