Chapter-2

A lonely death–1

‘He is smiling' I am currently at the roof of my school , it is a cloudy day . He is sitting beside me , we both are on the bench. Talking to me , he is happy , those expression are clearly of happiness . It is raining very hard . I don’t know what we are talking about but we both are cheered by talking to each other .He stood up from his position , his smiley face still was right there , no matter what, I only see those expression of joy only on his face , others parts of face are as if they are vanished from there due to which I can’t really tell who am I talking to . Still this person feels like acquainted to me somehow. He started to move away slowly , slowly and slowly , I was only watching his back from my eyes now ,but it still feels like he was still smiling.

He reach the end of the roof , I got that something was not right , so I instantly stood up , and walked my way towards him , but my legs , it can’t be , they are moving but I m not able to move forward . “Why it is not moving ? Why ? Wwwhhhhyyyyyy?” I screamed with all anger and terror which was filling up me. My mind was saying you will regret this for your whole lifetime.

I started punching and slapping my legs and wished dearly them to move today ,more than any day .But my legs didn’t give up , I shouted “Stop it . , don’t move further , I beg you , please , stooooppp iiiittt.”With this , tears started coming from eyes , my throat was hoarse but I constantly screamed these same words for a while . And then he jumped , everything became silent , . And I don’t know how or when ,my body was now able to move and I was looking at the dead remain of him from the roof of the school. Blood was everywhere thrown on the school ground as if it was just a color. The face was smashed directly to the ground , eyes , nose , , full head they were no where discoverable , but still, he was smiling.

This time, I fell from my bed awake. The pain of falling was not much than these nightmares . Even if I said ' Stop it ' these nightmare never ends and now I have gotten too much mentally unstable that I just don’t want to sleep anymore , I did not care what time it was like the last time, I was still lying on the floor , and was just constantly looking to the ceiling fan from the floor , where I had fallen with no intention to get back to my bed .That smile , it was a so sad smile I had ever seen in my life , I really wish I never see that again . Just then , alarm clock started ringing , it was 6:00 am like always , this time I was not in a state to sleep again , after this horrifying nightmare . I stood up and instantly moved my body to washroom . And started getting ready for the school .

As I had wake up somewhat early than my usual , I was ready to go to school at time. I got in the kitchen to have my breakfast where my eyes met with Chemmy . She greeted me “ Good morning” while washing the plates of the last night . I said “ Good morning” trying to smile a little , I can . She wipe off her wet hands with her apron . She served me my plate with the breakfast then a sudden voice ring through my head “He seems down”. I don’t like anyone to worry about me , so I said “ I am fine.” With a fake smile .“huh”She was as if she listened something she did not ask .“was I loud ?” Chemmy said and her face was more red than usual . And then she moved back to the remaining unwashed plates . I ate up whatever was in front of me , my mind was still remembering the nightmare , I hardly noticed the taste of the food Chemmy had prepared for me . I was so sorry for this to her . As I got finished , I put my bag on my back and said “ Bye” to Chemmy in very normal possible way I could .