I had many nightmares. I could sleep but I didn´t get good sleep. I must have suffered from some fever previous and today´s nights. I saw my accident which caused me to loss my voice. I don´t know which really happened or what are figment of imagination. I was traumatized so I might have been seeing things. All blame was placed on apprentice witch of nameless witch.

This witch haven´t taken any major movements. She was judged as innocent and I believe them. I think that apprentice witch was innocent too. I didn´t see either of them where I was taken. I spent two years trapped. I should have seen or heard either of them even once if they had been leaders. Person how was charge of me got away. He forced me to call him ”beautiful”. Normally that wouldn´t be problem but he caused me more pain and trauma than any human before and after. I should be glad that I didn´t make him angry even once. I have seen many prisoners loss their virginity to him. Woman or men didn´t matter to him.

My memory is blocked so I don´t even remember how they looked, but I´m sure those how took the blame where the once how tried to save me. I want to save them all if I can. I´m going to find and trap them before they can do anything to anybody. I´m not going to succeed. I´m not as strong as I used to be. In that case I should become strong. It is time to learn magic.

Many years spent as apprentice witch weren´t for nothing. I have even teached one how became witch. I doesn´t matter that he only got rank 144. Witches are clearly stronger than apprentices by large marking. In my live 7 people got rank witch and three of them were close to me. That says something. Of course witch Merlin was the best teacher word ever had but I got second place. Merlin had died about 50 years ago in the last witch war. My legacy became to be 50 years later than now.

At first I should test how my mana flows in my body. In the past my throat had blocked the most movement. Let´s see how it is now. Unfortunately it isn´t so easy. At first I should figure out what type my mana is. It depend to day to day. What is eaten, drink, sleep, fitness, health and so on depend highly. I was trying to become fire apprentice witch. I was planning to learn both ice and fire magic. I had natural gift for ice so I improved my fire aspect so both would be in balance. That day it was noticed my throat damage had caused damage to manaveins. This cause loss of both fire and ice essences. Of course I gave up on those two but nothing else worked either.

This time no such throat damage but I don´t know which essences are strongest in me now. Ice is for sure in but it is summer now. The worst time to rise ice essence. As for fire it is best time possible but it is night. I can´t try that either. I could wait for better moment but terrorist attack might happen tomorrow or next week. I don´t know. I´m not reliant to either essence anymore so I can choose from others. I have eaten saber-tooth fox today so small amount beast essence is certain but it is least potent one. There is hardly any change to future growth. That is no too.

I could also use wind or mountain essence. Both are common within mountain people. Neither is bad but they aren´t highly good either. If you would ask what is most special part of them then I would say their rarety. Hardly anyone has this essence and people in mountains rarely had access to knowledge to gain this magic. Of course this also means possible unlimited potential. No body knows what is in the end. To my days no one had heard of any witch how used either these essences as main. I´m curious but there isn´t any positive essences at first. The most useful part would be figure out accurately directions in the mountains. These user won´t ever get lost to the mountains That´s all.

More I think more I know how much in trouble I´m. There isn´t any useful essences to gain fast with great strenght here. This is worst place to be in at this time. Even common light and dark magic are in chaos here. How can I find anything without accurate knowledge of my blood essence.

My only choice is to train in neutral essence. Out of all aspect it is most versatile but with big weakness. It is hardest one to use. It is only aspect which can be changed to other essence later. You can also changes its mana to other essences mana.

Of course there is still other negative points. Only essence currently in my body could be used. In other words I can only use magics previously listed. All witches can produce water with their spells but I can never do that. I have gotten used to it long time ago. Also strenght is quite weak but without almost any energy loss. All spell get weaker as further you are. Neutral magic doesn´t have that. Plus my wind essence makes it even stronger with invisible bullets. Perfect sniper isn´t far away. It is also strong at first compared to other essence at starting point. Another negative would be its power limit. It isn´t easy to make it stronger over time. Naturally I would change essences when penetrating or raw power are too weak.

To neutralize other essence best way would be by sleeping while staying conscious in other words meditating. Chaos over my blood essences makes it easy and difficult. It is easy to notice differrent essences but same time it is hard to separate them also you have to talk with them. That is the biggest problem.

”Hello everyone. How have you been?” (Ari)

””You threw me away again!””

”I know and I´m very sorry. Please forgive me fire and ice. I´m not throwing you away.” (Ari)

””How can you assume so? You coming to talk with us is proof of it.”” (Fire and Ice spirit)

How could I forget this negative? Neutral aspect users must speak with their essence spiris. There isn´t no such problem with other magics. This is so unfair. I was over 90 years old. Why should I take care of these over aged spirit babies?

”You were thinking something rude didn´t you.” (Time spirit)

Oh great. That witch tricked me. She put part of her time essence to me as time spirit. Her soul lives inside me. Shivers. That sounded so bad. At least I´m not thinking aloud in here. None can talk to spirit with their mouth. As for talking with one´s mind then I´m master.

”No. What do you mean?” (Ari)

We all had small silence until I got to the business.

”I´m planning to use neutral aspect for now. Are you be willing to cooperate with me?” (Ari)

”No! We are not!” (Fire and Ice spirit)

Oh boy. Those two act like married couple. They are saying same things and then pretent not to notice each others words. They are so meant to each other. Why can´t they work thing out together.

”You should let him a change.” (Wind spirit)

I have heard Wind spirit follows ideas of freedom and change. We are very like-minded. We will get along well for sure.

”I agree. I have good feeling about this. I think we should follow him.” (Beast spirit)

That was unexpected. Beast spirit has short-tempered and aggressive mind. He acts before he thinks. I was sure he would have been the most difficult one to convince. World has plenty of unexpected things. Maybe it is because of beast instinct. Beast essence users are most difficult one´s to get an unaware or cause suprise attacks. It is going to be easy while I´m with him. Thank you sabre-tooth fox. You were very helpful.

”…” (Light and Dark spirit)

Light and dark spirit talk rarely and only the one´s how they recognize. Holy person or evil person are only once how they talk to. Their own initiative is only way to get their help and strenght of their power depends on person´s faith and dedication. They naturally don´t get along well but they will for sure follow other´s ideas.

”You can talk. I will just listen.” (Mountain spirit)

Mountain spirit was quite quiet. Not as much as light and dark but still. Constancy, faithfulness and durability are his ideas. He is very simiral to rock and earth spirit but there is one important difference between them.

Rock is unyielding, earth is ever-changing and finally mountain´s gradual change. Rock doesn´t allow any kind of change. They endure all. Earth accepts change but wants to it return to its original state. Stability is his call. Finally mountain is gradual change. They aren´t changing fast but taking their time they can integrate to anything. He is most likely going to follow me. As long as I move forward then he won´t betray me.

These spirits were decent group. Spirit which small essense couldn´t come out. I´m going to be only with them. Normally neutral essence user would have piled multible essences beforehand or keep only natural element essences. I choosed latter since strenght would be stronger. There is still one spirit behind sealed gate.

”How is behind that gate?” (Ari)

That must be some hidden essence which transmits over relatives. Tyr´s dwarf fire essence is one example of it. I didn´t know that I inherited some bloodline essence from one of my parents. There is high change that my sister has it too. Maybe even my brother if it comes from father. Most of the time these essences are stronger than common essences.

”How knows? There has been plenty of movement but it isn´t taking any changes to talk. I don´t want to deal with it.” (Time spirit)

There must be some bad blood between them. Since it is sealed, we can´t communicate. There must be some conditions to get access to it. By the way it seems they know I came to the past. Throwing away must be summary of it. They all must have seen everything that I have seen but they can´t hear anything that I say.

”I think it is part of beast essence. We two have some contact between us. It was half awakened your past live. Your magic resistance came from it.” (Beast spirit)

What!? There was actually other season than throat damage which resisted magic. Half awakened essences are peculiar. In these cases user can use parts of the essence. Sometimes there are positive results such as with rank 7 witch Golem. Golem has half awakened rock giant essence. He got strong body and magic but without losing reason and intellect. Sometimes there was negative results such as half awakened vampires. Sun light and blood hungerwere present without great strenght from them.

In my case it stopped magic using but I got world´s strongest magic resistance. My high ice essence must be big clue. The first thing which comes to mind is leviathan. Most likely not the case since my family has lived for generations travelling in the mountains. Plus no water essence is huge no. Leviathan is beast how is largest creature to this day. Magic immunity, great regeneration, strong body and power. These creatures used to have ice and water magic but these were lost by the time. Instead their bodies became larger and stronger than before. Not even my master could fight against them and she was rank 3. I don´t know if rank 1 and 2 could have fought them.

I have no idea what is behind that seal but I was capable of unseal some of it in past live. I must find what caused unsealing.

”Let´s forget it for now. I need your help to move away so I can harness neutral essence so we can stay together and help each other.” (Ari)

”No way. You must choose one of us otherwise I won´t cooperate.” (Fire spirit)

He is hot headed for sure. Unlike him ice is cold hearted. She stayed silent but her mind was clear to see from her appearance. These two think alike but they act differently. It is going to be difficult to be with them.

”You two are only one´s against it. I don´t like him either. He is stupid. He doesn´t take into account the feelings of others. He doesn´t negotiate with fair mind. Actually, he is like you Beast spirit.” (Time spirit)

”I´m not as bad as him!” (Beast spirit)

”But you agree that he is dense.” (Time spirit)

”There is no mistaking it.” (Beast spirit)

”Don´t I have any saying about it?” (Ari)

””””””””No!”””””””” (All the spirits)

After debating for many hour spirits were feeling sorry so they let it go for now. I managed to neutralize my mana so I became rookie neutral spirit magician. I didn´t have any time to sleep. My body was rest but my mind wasn´t. Unfortunately I was woken up by song when I was about to sleep.