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DISCLAIMER: This fanfic is set when/after Tar told Tum that he is scared of falling in love and it might also be a bit depressing, so if you're sensitive to topics like please don't read this or read it if you want to.

Tum's POV

"You wanna know what happened right?"Tar began,"You wanna know what happened to me when I was in France?"

I stood there wide-eyed. I had never seen Tar so full of rage and sadness before. It hurt me to look at him in that state. To know I'm the one who caused it,"Tar, you don't need to tell me if you don't want to-"

"No, I'll tell you!"tears were falling down his cheeks as he struggled to let out,"..I..I was raped! I was raped, ok?! I was scared to tell you because I knew you would hate me. You hate now, don't you?! You think I'm disgusting-"

"Tar! I don't hate you, I can never hate you! I love you Tar..and I just want you to realise that. Not like friends. Not like brothers. I love you more than that. I know we're step brothers but I still can't ignore my feelings for you. "

"P'Tum..even if you love me I can't love you back. I have Philophobia(fear of falling in love), P'Tum. I can't be with you. I'll just hurt you if I stay with you."

"It's ok, Tar. I'm not asking you to love me..I'm just asking you to let me love you. I'm asking you to let me take care of you and for you to please not go back to France. Can you do that for me Tar?"I smiled.

"A-alright P'Tum."He stopped crying and slightly hesitated until he agreed to sit on my lap and calm down.

Time Skip

I woke up as the sun hit my eyes and I struggled to open them. I had gone to bed last night after confronting Tar not go back to France and I'm sure he went to bed too, as I couldn't hear anymore noises coming from his room when he left.

After I had gotten dressed and gone to make breakfast, I realised Tar hadn't come down stairs yet."Tar! Tar! Are you coming down?"

No response.

I figured he had gone out already but when I turned my gaze to the kitchen counter I noticed Tar's phone sitting there. Where would he go without his phone? I quickly thought to myself as I realised I was going to be late if I didn't hurry up.

Time Skip

I was walking when someone I recognised as Ae called out,"Hey, Tum."

"Oh, hey...Ae? How is going?"

"It's going fine for me. So, I know we haven't really talked before, but I know that you're friends with some of my friends and they told me you can play the guitar."

"Oh yeah, I go to the bar and play sometimes."

"So I was wondering, could you...teach me how to play?"

Usually I would deny requests like that, but since I didn't really have anything to do recently I decided to agree,"Sure. When are you free?"

He let out a breath and held his chest like he had been relieved,"Thank you, I was a bit sceptical that you were going to say no, but now I'm really glad."

I had been aimlessly glancing around, while I was walking and my eyes suddenly stumbled upon someone I was confused about being here."So I'm free on Saturdays, but we can do it on Fridays if you want..,"Ae continued. Was that Tar? I was intensely stared at the figure that really reminded me of Tar."Hey, Tum, are you listening to me?" Ae questioned.

The supposedly 'Tar' was talking to someone who was most definitely Type. They looked like they were having a great time with all the smiles that were being passed back and forth between them.

Did Tar lie to me? He lie about not being able to fall in love? Did he say all of that because he did feel the same way and he didn't want to hurt my feelings? All of these questions were running in my head as I tried really hard not to think of the worst possible answers.

"Tum!"Ae brought me back to reality.

"Yeah?" "What are you staring at? Is that Type? Oh. Wait. I just remembered, I have something to tell him. Alright, bye Tum we can talk the lessons out another time." "Yeah..."

I felt like I really needed to be alone. I started sprinting towards the nearest exit and when I was outside I headed in a random direction.

I found myself walking on a bridge. The sound of the traffic would usually be stressful but now it help to distract me from the aching in my heart. Am I really that bad that the person I've loved for so long can't even come to love me?

I felt a sharp pain spread through me. It was the only thing I could feel even when the cold breeze was blowing past me and making me stumble. I stood there as minutes passed, trying to think about the good things in life, but the pain never seemed to go away.

The only way to get rid of it seemed to be if a stronger pain overwhelmed it, and made it less torturous to feel. So I stood up from the side of the bridge and climbed up the short fence. I looked over the horizon and thought about how peaceful it would be for the fish. Just swimming in the ocean and not having to think of any of the worries that came along with living on land.

I leaned over, my feet barely gripping the piece of pavement underneath and my fingers slowly slipped away from the metal fence...

Suddenly, I felt something tug on my shoulder and pull me back right over the opposite side of the fence and gradually catch me back into their arms. Before I could process what was going on, I felt a pair of lips lightly press against my own and when I opened my eyes I could see a face that rapidly made all of the pain in my heart melt away. Tar.

"P'Tum, thank god you're ok!"He said as tears fell down his face,"I thought I was going to lose you."

"Tar..how did you even know I was here?"

"When I was leaving, I heard people talking about someone standing on the edge of the bridge nearby, a-and then I heard someone else say they saw you.."

Oh, yeah, right, Tar was leaving college, after he spend time with Type. Type.

"Tar..do you like Type?" "What? No, P'Tum! I only like you P'Tum! I love you P'Tum. I know I said I was scared of falling in love but when I saw you getting ready to jump off that bridge, I felt hurt and realised if I lose you, I'll never be able to forgive myself. And not because you're my family, not because we're step brothers. I felt like I would lose my other half. You're my other half P'Tum."

I felt happy again. Like nothing could beat me in this world, because I had Tar and he was the only thing I needed to feel undefeatable."I love you Tar,"I said as I leaned up to kiss him. He kissed me back and made me feel like the happiest man on Earth.

Time Skip

Tar's POV

After we had confessed on the side of the bridge, Tum and I continued kissing and things had escalated rather quickly. We were sloppily kissing as we made our way through the door into the living room. Tum led me up the stairs, as he intertwined our fingers and put my legs around him carrying me. He walked us to his bedroom and past the door then he placed me on the bed and closed the door behind him. He climbed on top of me and quickly kissed me again, this time more needily and passionately.

He was unbuttoning my shirt and getting ready to pull it off when I stopped him."Tum..I'm-I'm scared." "Tar,"he began in a gentle voice,"don't worry. I would never even think of doing something like that to you. If you want me to stop, I'll stop. If you don't like it I'll stop. If it hurts I'll stop. You just have to tell me. Forcing myself on you would be the last thing I'd wanna do."

"Thank you..for being so caring, P'Tum. Y-You can continue now."

He smiled and continued unbuttoning my shirt. His gaze switched from caring to lustful in just a few seconds, but I didn't mind. He moved down to my chest and sucked on my nipples making me feel weird but filled with pleasure at the same time. He left wet kisses from my chest down to my crouch, where he licked his lips and furiously rushed to snatch my pants off.

My face blushed a crimson red, as he removed my boxers and I covered my face with a pillow.

"Aww, Tar, no need to hide, I would love to see the cute face of yours,"Tum complained. He grabbed something from a drawer, I couldn't see and suddenly I felt two moist fingers press into the opening between my (butt)cheeks."Ahhhh.."

It felt extremely painful at first, but as his fingers went deeper and deeper, they suddenly hit a spot that filled me up with sensations. I moaned loudly, the sound echoing around the room and unfortunately he pulled away and I felt the emptiness again. Seconds later, Tum was taking his boxers off and revealing one of the largest things I'd ever seen. He pressed it against me and just like before, his length travelled through me until it reached that same spot. He thrusted in and out as groans escaped his mouth and embarrassing moans escaped mine. The great feeling of pleasure spread out through me and it wasn't because of what I was doing, it was because of the person I was doing it with. He continued until we both came and finally he laid beside me, underneath the cozy sheets.

"Good night,P'Tum." "Good night, Tar,"he said as he put his arm around me and squeezed me tight.

Time Skip

Tum's POV

I woke up with Tar huddled comfortably in my arms. He looked so cute..but of course not as cute as he looked last night with his plump lips and ruffled hair and reddened skin. Oh how I want to eat him up whole - I mean, what? Huff, I'm getting hard just thinking about it.

"T-Tum?"I suddenly heard him wake up and let out.

"Shh, you can go back to sleep if you want." "No, I'm ok. I've had enough sleep. But I don't think my butt is ok. It really hurts. Is it supposed to hurt this much?"

I became flustered and looked away,"Honestly, I don't know. M-maybe I should've gone a little gentler."

"Yeah, maybe."He twisted and turned a bit in my grasp, when lastly his gaze met mine. He really did look beautiful. His face inched closer to mine and our lips were about to touch - when unexpectedly I heard a loud *bang*.

Tar jumped away from me in an instant and I turned to look at the figures who smashed through the door.

It was...our parents?!

"Sons, your dad and I came back yesterday...and we've decided...we're getting a divorce,"Mom said.

Tar's POV

Wait did they hear...

Tum's POV

And did we make them...

Both POV

Shit.

(I kinda forgot about the Type thing at the end..)