Shivaay's gaze remained fixed, his eyes shone with moisture, as the words of the doctor sank into his brain.

He had tried to kill himself! The Shivaay who swore to be the strongest man to put up with whatever life threw at him, had tried to end his own life. How could he!

The doctor snapped him out of his stance. "Are you okay Mr. Oberoi. "

"How could I ? Was I that weak ? Was I that vulnerable? " Shivaay's voice broke.

The doctor quickly held his hand and rubbed his back. "Don't worry, Shivaay, forget about it. The bad is gone. You are mentally fit now. "

Shivaay forced a smile. "I'll be back!' The doctor excused himself.

* * *

" Anika!" The doctor called out to her hurriedly. Anika looked up startled, "everything okay Doctor?" She asked concerned.

"I told him."

"Why? You said it could affect him then..."

"He has been forcing himself to remember! That's the reason why he has grown so vulnerable. I had to tell him, so that he stops forcing his brain."

"But...his did he react...is it alarming?" She asked as though she was at the edge of the world.

"So far okay. But , I think he needs family." The doctor spoke thoughtfully. "He wasn't comfortable with the truth, his body language tensed.

" I will call Daadi right away." Anika spoke tensed.

"Anika, you go."

"But..." Anika"?'s voice trailed.

"He trusts you. I m sure he'd be better. He will, panic, he might break down, it's normal. If he doesn't its of concern. " the doctor explained.

"What...but..."

"Anika I have been dealing with patients and have studied human behavior patterns. If he is silent now, he might slip. Go."

To Anika this sounded crazy and sacry at the same time. But she walked into the room.

He sat lost. Her heart skipped a beat. "Shivaay." He dint respond.

She quickly got to his side and placed a hand on his shoulder. He looked up and hugged her immediately. Anika was overwhelmed at what she saw in his eyes and the intensity with which he hugged her. Like of he dint hold on, he would slip, slip away into oblivion. She quickly put her hands around him.

"Anika!" He almost cried.

She gently rubbed his back, placing her head over his, while he held on to her, hands wrapped around her.

"Anika, I...I...tried..." He cried breaking away and tilting his head up, to talk to her.

She quickly sat before him, cupping his face. Her own eyes moist. "Shhh...everything is fine."

He nodded in a no. I tried ..killing myself. How could I be so weak? I...I can't trust myself Anika. .I ...I.. " he cried.

She pulled him into her arms, he cried over her shoulder holding her tight. "How could I..."

Once she, was convinced he had cried enough, she slowly pulled away. She cupped his face and made him look at her.

"Look at me," she said. "You are Shivaay Singh Oberoi, nothing breaks you. Koi taakat aapko nahi tod sakti, samjhe aap. Aap bhi nahi. Jo hua so hua.. You don't cry." She wiped his tears. "Nothing... "

"How could I..."

"Listen to me," she spoke aloud and made him look up at herself again. "Look at me!" She commanded. "Would your brothers be happy seeing you break like this? No...right.. They live here!" She tapped her index finger in his chest. "You have to be strong for them. You are their great wall. You can't break. Enough, of these tears. You are a Tadibaaaz, you are Power, you are SSO!" She smiled amidst her tears. He laughed, holding her hands.

"You can't break! Nothing can break you." Her voice trailed. She couldn't do it anymore. She was breaking every minute. The man she was wanted to hate, to keep herself away from, was breaking, and she couldn't let him break. Dilemma in her feelings got the better of her. She would go mad, if she stayed so close to him anymore. She would die if she left him like that. She was freezing to cold and burning in fire at the same time. She had never felt so vulnerable. Sh had pushed away her vulnerability at the back to handle him. But now she was failing. The feeling was painful. She was in terrible pain. She was relieved when Daadi came in at the moment. She got up at once, giving Daadi her position. A mother's position was irreplaceable. Only the mother could, soothe the cries of her child. She was the mother he had. She smiled and walked out silently, as he hugged her and she patted his head lovingly with tears of concern in her eyes.

Once outside she saw Prinku and Dev approaching. She couldn't be more thankful for their timing.

"Anika where is Bhaiya?"

"He is in. Daadi is with him. Stick around and update me." She spoke quickly picking up her bag.

"..but...where are you?" Asked Prinku confused.

"I have some work!" Anika left quickly.

Prinku stared at her confused.

* * *

She knelt down on the wet mud. She looked at the gravestone. "I m sorry mumma. I can't. I can't love. Bahut dard hota hai. Main pyaar nahi kar sakti. Main aur nahi tutnaa chathi. Main aur nahi..." She cried. "Ek wo din tha jab aap mujhe chod ke chali gayi.. Aur ek yeh din hai... I love you Maa! But pyaar mujhse naho hoga. Main aur dard nahi le sakti..." She cried bitterly. The drizzles were now transformed to heavy droplets. She sat there staring away at the droplets. The cold drops seemed to be cooling her heated up dry soul. She was burned and bruised by love. No more. She would never five anyone the power to give her pain. Not even him. Yes he gave her pain. Every wound to him was her pain. She would go away from him. So away that his cries would never bring tears to her eyes, so away that his bruises never caused her pain. She would go back to where she was. Away from him, away from love.

P.SExtremely Sorry for another heartbreaking chapter. I m contacting SSO to take care of Anika! ;)