~Magnolia Knight~

I can't do it...he will hate me if he figures that out...my secret.

I am currently standing in front of my brother, but he doesn't know who I am, tears are streaming down my face, because I know I have no other choice, but to show myself. And if I do, my passion will be shattered into so many pieces, because my brothers will definitely ban me from this car community. Blake knows the nickname, so he knows what Jace and I have accomplished, he knows about the dangers that surround us...

"How dare you take his place and pretend to be him, asshole !"Blake spits out, pure venom laced in his words as he refers to Jace. It hurts that he thinks something like this about me, but I can't Balme him, especially not when he is in this situation.

I shift my gaze that was lamely looking at the dusty road, up towards the owner of Belladonna, my brother, to see him slowly starting to squeeze the trigger. I let the gun that I was hiding in my hand fall to the ground and I bring my hands up in the air to show him that I am harmless and that I surrender, before he gets the chance to pull the trigger and kill his own sister. Killing me would destroy him more than ever and I can't let that happen, I prefer destroying my own soul than be selfish and hurt him.

I see Blake doesn't back down with his gun, like he should, so I grip my helmet with both hands and start to pull upwards...

I don't move my gaze away from my brother, as I take my helmet off, letting my dark hair fall on my shoulders and only with this small move, the identity I tried to hide and protect from the people is set free to the outside world...

My eyes bore into Blake's eyes and I watch as his previous strong posture collapses, leaving place to utter shock. His gun slips from his hand, and he doesn't move one bit as he looks right back at me to try and understand what is happening.

"L-Lila ?"

His whisper is so quiet that I can barely hear it. Somehow I don't miss the disappointment in his voice, which makes me coward down, so I let my eyes trail back to the floor, which makes the tears that are streaming down my face crash directly against the cold surface. The disappointment makes my inner self shatter a little more, but it doesn't stop there.

"H-how could you ?" Blake speaks up again as I hear his footsteps back away from me. "How is it possible ? This was fucking amazing ! it can't be...you couldn't have raced this car...no..." I hear as the tone in his voice changes, turns into the direction of anger, as it seems that realisation hits him with full power. The shaken and amazed tone switches to an angry tone, which makes me only want to crawl into a small ball to protect myself. "Are you MJ ?"

"yes" my voice is so small that even myself can barely hear it, but Blake heard it, because he takes a sharp inhale, as if to compensate the shock of this information.

"MJ...MJ..."Blake mumbles under his breath and I look up to him, to see him in deep thoughts. "fucking hell ! MJ stands for Magnolia and Jace. Am I right !?"His voice suddenly booms through the cold night, chasing the calm silence away. I nod quietly, as more tears fall down my cheeks. It's over for us J...

"You were the fucking girl he was talking about. You fucking knew him. SHIT ! He dragged you into this car racing didn't he Magnolia ?" he angrily questions once again, but this time it's like I am beginning to get angry, he can't but the blame on him.

"Don't dare blame this on him Blake ! It was my decision and he only supported me and helped me to achieve what I loved to do ! I did it because I wanted to get out of that abusive household. We did this together until he fucking died, but he wanted me to continue, so he gave me the car, so I would. And look ! that's what I am doing now. And how do you even fucking know him HUH ?" I yell the last part, thoughts and questions running through my mind, confusing me to the point of no return.

"Don't you get angry Magnolia !" he yells back at me and takes steps towards me, which makes me flinch back. " You don't get to ask me how I know him. He is a gang leader for fuck's sack, our business does deals with his gang. But YOU don't have a reason to be even near him ! He is dangerous. Just like this all is" He throws his hands in the air gesturing to everything that surrounds us, the cars, the race, the guns... He is so angry, it's scares me to the point where I start to tremble in fear. "How do you KNOW this guy Magnolia !"

"He was my boyfriend, before he FUCKING DIED Blake !" I yell out with all the strength I had left, and crumble to the floor and hide my face in my hands. Memories of Jace and I together flash in front of my eyes and I can't help, but let sobs escape my lips.

"If he ever was your boyfriend, he would have gotten you out of that fucking hell hole with the Cambells." Blake's angry voice rips the silence apart once more. I don't dare to respond as the words he just said sink into my mind and soul. He is right...why didn't he take me out of that hell hole, before ? He was more than powerful enough to do that...

"Y-you have no idea what he did for me Blake and you can't judge him. You don't get to be angry with me, because I race. I race cars like you do. It helps me, it's my safe place, you should be the one to understand this, because you do the same I bet you ! When you get angry or upset you take your car and speed away at a monstrous speed, leaving your worries behind, so they are unable to catch you. Am I right ?" This time I use the same words he used just minutes before, my voice weak and tired from this constant yelling.

"You're right. But I don't allow you to do the same things I do. It's dangerous and I have been living with the danger for years, we are the target of so many people around the world and I can't let something happen to you again Lila. You can't keep doing this..." his voice cracks at the end of the sentence as he speaks the words I was so anxious to hear from his mouth. I knew it. It's over.

I stand up from the freezing ground, my legs feeling numb, just like my soul right now. I love my brothers, but them taking this away from me, would be the death of me, I swear.

"Y-you can't do that to me..." I sob, as I look into my brother's eyes, the one brother I trusted the most. The one I felt the closest too since the beginning... he doesn't dare to look at me, a same broken expression lingering on his face that is hidden in the darkness.

"I have to Magnolia, you have to understand me, I want to protect you. You are so good at this. Too good. People already want you dead and I can't anymore risk that they discover your identity and come after you. I just can't." He states, and I notice how not even once he looked me in the eyes as he spoke those hurtful words. Not once. "Get in the car, I'll drive us home." He orders and I don't dare to even contradict him as he opens his black car door, gesturing for me to get in. I glance back at Rage and Blake seems to understand where I am going with this.

"I'll ask someone to pick your car up and bring it home."

Without an other word I climb into the car, and with a quick hand gesture I swipe away the tears that stain my pale cheeks. I only fear the ride home, as Blake slams my door shut, before going around the driver's side to climb in the car as well. Silence fills the car, once he starts the engine and there is only a thick and heavy atmosphere pressuring on my lungs to accompany my devastation.

I played with fire and now I got burned to the point of no return.

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A/n : wow. I don't have other words. Magnolia's secret was finally discovered by one of her closest brothers who races as well !

Her heart is crushed. He doesn't want her to continue the racing. But how will it affect Magnolia and their relationship? Will she get over it ? Will she fight it ?

I updated two days in a row as a Christmas present. Please enjoy it and comment, vote and share to get this story more attention.

Have a great Christmas day/night with your beloved ones, I wish you all the best !

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