Ryn's pov

1 week later

I looked at the blood on my wrist and then I looked at Pre. Water filled my eyes. How could I do this? What kind of mother was I? I'm just a girl trying to overcome a demonic thing called depression. My heart was racing. I so tempted to end everything. My lip quivered as I sucked in air in between sobs. Why am I so sad? Why am I so unhappy? Why don't I love myself? Why am I not normal?

I slowly cleaned up my bloody mess. When I heard Pre crying, I walked in the living room and put my hand on her cheek.

"Pre I hope mommy's not going crazy." My eyes refilled with tears. I was good for so long. I went so long without self-harming. And today was were it all ended.

I took Pre out of the baby bed and held her. I was so lonely with Sam and Ava not around. I never realized how much I truly needed Sam until we made it official. We were no more. We were just two people who weren't meant to be.

I never thought a person could be so lonely. Yes, I was lonely before, but I had mom then. I had no one. I barely had myself. You know when you have a painful loose tooth and you just want to pull it and get it over with. I wanted to be pulled. I'm just tired.

I'm tired of fake smiling. I'm tired of pretending to be happy. I'm tired of crying. I'm tired of pain. Im tired of loneliness. I'm tired of being tired.

My life was a roller coaster that kept going down. When I hit the bottom, I'll be glad I did. I'm tired of the life I'm living. I'm tired of the air I'm breathing. It is all going down hill.

"I can help you with your pain." A strange woman said. She was wearing a long black dress. She was an old lady whom I didn't know. Why was she here?

"How did you get in here? Who are you?" My mind kept asking all these questions. It's like I didn't even here her first sentence. I can help you with your pain.

"I invited myself, I hope you don't mind. I am the Angel of Death. I help people end their pain." She put her old hand on my cheek and wiped away my tears. I looked at Pre. I felt like I wasn't fit for a mother. But she was all I had. The Angel of Death gave me a peaceful feeling. It was a feeling I wanted to live in.

"W-Why are you visiting me?" I choked out. She gently put her hand on the side of my face.

"Oh darling, I can sense your pain. I can tell you want it all to end." She spoke. It was true. It was so true that it made me realize something. Was I ready?

"I do. I'm tired of pain." Tears streaked down my cheeks. My heart raced at a fast pace. She took of sides of my face as if she was going to kiss my forehead. As she was about to kiss my forehead and basically kill, I grabbed her arm. "But I'm not ready." She had a saddened look on her face.

"I'll be here when your ready." And with those words, she was gone. More and more tears poured down my cheeks. I knew I was weak from the start, I just doidn't know how weak I was. Then I lost mom, made me even weaker. Then I lost Sam, made me even weaker. I wasn't really sure about Ava. But, I felt like I was losing her as well.

Sam's pov

"So you told her you didn't love her any more." Ava stated. I gave her a weak nod. I was hurting just like her. Her words told me she didn't love me, but her eyes tell the truth.

"Are you ready to move on?" She asked.

"I don't know. I actually loved her. She was my first love." My eyes filled with tears. I was her first love too. She never told me, but I knew. I knew because she was afraid to let go like I was. We both didn't want it to end. Ava stayed silent. In some ways I was just like Ryn. Except, I didn't know how I felt about Ava. I am always so focused on Ryn.

"I'm sorry Sam, but it's too late now." I was confused. I didn't know what she meant. Nothing was too late. Or nothing that I knew of.

"What do you mean?" I asked.

"You and Ryn already confirmed that you two were over. I haven't known Ryn all my life, but I've known her long enough to know that she's trying to get over you. And she won't stop until it's done. I'm not promising that it's going to be easy and clean, but she can't see you, not until she's over you." Ava claimed. I looked at her with disbelief.

"You're crazy she-"

"I'm not the one who's crazy, it's her. She's hearing voices, she's losing her mind." Ava exclaimed. I remained silent then finally spoke.

"There's still life in her, still someone buried deep inside. But I know that life won't last long if someone doesn't help her."

"You can't help her Sam! She's going to break. I can feel it." She barked.

"Well, not all people are right!" I snapped back. I ran my hand through my hair.

It doesn't matter what it takes, I'm helping her. I won't stop. I'll heal her. I told her I'd stay away, but how can I? If she needs me I'm going to help her under any condition. I'd rather die than be without her. She has my child. I still can't quite believe I have a child. But I do. And now I will do anything to keep them happy and safe.

When you actually love someone you feel it. You feel it in your heart. And you think about them constantly, nothing can take you away from them. But if the person you love tries to push you away, your lost. It's like you've lost everything. There are a lot of thing important in people's lives, but nothing is more important than the people you love.

So there you have, I'm lost.