Ryn's pov

I felt like I had to tell Sam I was pregnant. I didn't want to just call him up and be like 'Hey Sammy, I'm pregnant.' I didn't know how to put it. As I was about to go over to Sam's, I saw him, with Ava. They were laughing and hugging. I was confused.

"Sam?" I said. Sam's eyes slightly widened at my appearance.

"Ryn? What are you doing here?" He asked.

"I live here. What the hell are you doing here?" I glanced over at Ava and see seemed nervous. I looked back over to Sam waiting for a response. He looked at Ava like he was trying to give me a hint. Suddenly, it struck me.

"Oh. Are you two a thing now?" I said weak. Sam and Ava both nodded. My knees became weak. My lips started to quiver. The tears wanted to pour out of me. But, I just gave them both a weak smile.

"Congrats. I'm glad you moved on Sam." The fake smile on my face became bigger. I began to walk away so I wouldn't cry in front of them.

"Ryn! Are you okay?" Sam asked. I gave him another fake smile.

"I'm fine." I turned around and continued smiling until I couldn't see them any more. When I could no longer see them in sight, I ran. I ran as fast as my young legs could go. Soon, I was out of breath. I wasn't on the same block as Sam and Ava so that was good.

I took a weak breath and tears started to pour out. All the emotions came out of me. Suddenly, I remembered how Nikki said he didn't really love me. I though she was wrong, now I see it. She wasn't wrong. She was right.

"See, I told you." Nikki appeared. Anger come over me like a wave in an ocean. I made a disgusted look at her. She just laughed.

"Honey, let's not act like you scare me. Cause you don't. Plus, it's not my fault. In fact, if you actually think about it I helped you. I'm the one who told you he didn't love you. You're the one who didn't want to believe it." As much as I hated to admit it. Nikki was right. She did tell that, and I did deny it.

"Then why did he tell me he loved me?" I asked.

"People lie Ryn. I know this isn't the first time you've been lied to." Nikki was once again right. I hated living in the true world when a world that was full of lies was so much easier.

"Why can't you just leave me alone?! Can't you see I don't want you here!" I shouted.

"Most people don't want Voices in their head Ryn but they get them, you know why, because life sucks!" She yelled. I could agree. Sam starting to date my sister isn't really helping me with my depression. "But, you could always end it-"

"Why do you do this to me?! The first time we met you offered me a deal that I didn't take! Why the hell are you still here!"

"Because I have to! I can't leave you until you die!" Nikki screamed. 'Til I die? What? What was that supposed to mean? I began to cry even more knowing that I was stuck with Nikki until the day I die.

"Can you please just explain yourself?! You keep on confusing me and I'm done guessing! I want the truth!"

"Don't you think that's what I wanted?! I was a girl like you once, I had I guy I loved, I was depressed, and I had a sister I loved! You see, Voices come to people who are depressed. There are two ways to conquer us, and that is to get over your depression, or die. The only twist is if you kill yourself because of the Voices, you become one." Nikki explained. Nikki started crying as well. I felt sorry for someone or something that was trying to kill me.

"What was the deal about then?"

"The deal was actually nothing, all it did you make you kill yourself earlier."

"Then why did you say you were trying to help me?"

"I wasn't I was helping me." Nikki said with anger in her eyes. I was actually shocked, but I didn't know why.

"Why do you have to do this to people?" I asked.

"Because if we don't, we go to Hell. They say if you kill yourself you automatically go to Hell. That's only true for the people who don't kill themselves because of Voices." Nikki explained. I could overcome depression, or I could die. Dying sounded a lot easier.

"Okay, there. Now you understand." Nikki sounded angry, but I was too. I wasn't angry at Nikki. I was angry at Sam and Ava. I had him first. He was mine. I loved him. I wanted him back. But, I'm the one who told him to go. I knew I couldn't overcome depression without Sam. I kind of became scared, like I knew I was going to die.

"Well, I guess you better get home to your 'loving' sister and 'great' boyfriend, or ex." She laughed then disappeared. I knew I wasn't alone. I knew she could come back anytime and haunt me. I just lied in the middle of the street curled in a ball crying. I was cold and scared. I didn't want to go home and face Sam and Ava. Hopefully they weren't at home anymore. I just wanted Sam to be here to comfort me, but he was now my problem. The only person I had was mom, but I was scared that she was mad at me for being pregnant. I'm pregnant with a baby who's father doesn't love me, but I love him.

Have you ever felt alone? If you have, I know how you feel. That feeling of having nobody there haunts you. It makes you feel like you have no friends. Like no one loves you. Like the whole world is furious with you. I know that feeling too. It seems like if you're standing right in front of someone yelling 'HELP!' but they don't hear you nor see the pain in your eyes. It sucks. Badly. Even if they tell you to stay strong, it's easier said than done. And when it all comes down to it the only question that comes out of your mouth is...

Why me?

Why?