Ryn's pov

I woke up the next morning not knowing where I was. I wasn't wearing anything. Odd. I roll over and saw Sam lying beside me. Holy shit! I didn't....but I did. Ugh! I quickly got up and ran to the bathroom. I got dressed the fastest I've ever done. When I walk out I noticed Sam was awake.

"Hey." He said sleepily. I was furious, but not with him, with myself. How could I have done this? Why would I? Stupid!

"Hey." I respond. "What happened last night?" I asked. I honestly felt like I did know, but I was hoping it really didn't happen.

"Well, I think we both know what happened." Sam said with a smirk. I roll my eyes and throw him some pair of pants.

"No, really Sam. What happened?" I asked more sternly.

"Okay. I was lying on my bed thinking about you, because I couldn't get you off my mind. Once you left, I was angry with myself for evening bringing up the whole counselling thing. Anyway, after a while I heard a loud knock on the door. When, I opened it I saw you. As soon as I opened the door, you kept kissing me and saying how you loved me. I knew that you were drunk. I could tell. I still went with it. I honestly felt gulity at first. I'm sorry." I half smiled at him. I wasn't expecting the apology.

"Well, I can't say it's okay, but I do forgive you. It was my fault anyway." I admit. Sam didn't say anything because he knew it too.

"Now, I'm really gonna go. I promise I won't show up here again." I say. Sam seemed hurt, but it had to be done. Both of us didn't want it to be.

"It's okay if you do." Sam says weakly while looking down at the bed. I felt like crap for making us go through this. I stayed quiet for a little while.

"I better go now." I state. As I'm fixing to shut the door, Sam stops me, again.

"Ryn, please don't go! I don't want you to leave me again! We're just going to come back to each other! Because we love each other! Ryn, can't you see. I keep on stopping you from leaving, I keep going places with you, never letting you out of my sight. I want to be with you." Sam explains. I take a deep breath. I wanted him to know I love him too. Because I do.

"Sam, we've already talked about this. I'm going insane. The voices are kind of controlling me. You're the only one that knows about this. Keep it that way. I have to convince to my mom and Ava that I'm okay. You don't have to protect me anymore. Let the protecting to me. Just please Sam, move on. I know that we have only known each other for a month, but we've already done stuff that most couples would never do within a months time. Just move into this motel. Get away from me. Actually, move out of California. To go your dream place. Just live a happier life without me." I state. Sam looked disappionted and hurt. Like I've said before, I jut screw up this.

"Wow Ryn. You must be blind. My dream place is with you. I rented this motel room for us, so you could have somewhere else to go when you get mad at Ava and your mom. I thought it help better than just one house over." I shake my head in disbelif. I didn't want any of this to happen.

"As much as I honestly do want to be here with you, I can't-"

"You can't or don't want to?" Sam asked angrily.

"Sam, please. Just let me go." I requested. A few tears slipped down my face. I just realized that he really did want me to stay. I wanted to stay just as much.

Awe, poor Sammy. Acting like he actually loves you and wants you to stay. Bitch please, you can tell he's acting Ryn. But I'm like really considering on giving this kid an acting job.

"SHUT UP!" I yell at the top of my lungs. Sam's eyes widen. My lip quivers. I was so shaking I could barely stand up.

"Sam, I really have to go." I don't give him time to speak. I just run off as fast as I could. I didn't look back. I didn't give a proper goodbye. I didn't get one last kiss. I just ran. I got in the car and turned it on.

"Damn girl, I didn't know you could get so furious." Someone said. I looked in the passenger seat and there was a girl there. She had long blonde hair, sparkling blue eyes, and the voice of the voices in my head.

"Who are you and how the hell did you get in here?" I ask sternly. She crossed her arms and rose an eyebrow.

"Don't you know who I am?" I shook my head and she rolled her eyes. "I'm the voice in your head. I'm Nikki FYI so you can stop calling me 'the voices in your head'. Also before you ask how come you can see me now, it's because you've simply have become more mental." She stated.

"Why are you bothering me?" I asked with a disgusted look on my face.

"Wow, you people and your questions. I'm not bothering you, I'm here to make a deal with you." Nikki stated.

"And that would be..."

"If you listen to me and do everything I tell you, I'll leave you alone and you will never hear from me or anyone else ever again." I didn't know what I was going to get into, but if she left me alone my life would be a whole lot better.

"What happens if I don't listen?" I asked. She rolled her eyes.

"More fucking questions? What are you? Dumb." She said. I rolled my eyes at her offensive comment. "Anyway, If you refuse to listen or break the deal, I stay with you 'til the day you die, which normally isn't long. Wonder why?" She said sarcastically.

"Okay, this is the last question so don't get all bitchy when I ask it. What happens if I do agree to the deal?" I asked for that last time.

"That's the good thing about it, whatever you want. I'm kind of like a genie, expect I come with a deal." She stated. I thought really long and hard. I wanted her to leave, but I didn't want to have to make a deal.

"I'm not making the deal." Her eyes widened and her face turned red. She basically acted like a spoiled girl that just heard the word 'no' for the first time in her life.

"What?! You have to make the deal. I mean you get whatever you could desire. You should take this as a blessing." She commented. I shook my head still not accpting it. I didn't know why she wanted me to accept it so badly.

"Listen Nikki, thanks for the request. But if I have to do deals just to get whatever I want, I'm passing." I stated. Nikki took a deep breath.

"Please Ryn, I'm doing this to help you." I didn't understand what she meant. She was haunting my thoughts. What did she mean by she doing this to help me? I stayed quiet.

"Fine, if you don't want to do the deal. Whatever!" She stated. I looked away then looked back to the seat and she was gone. Finally.

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I walk into my house and got a strange look from mom. I gave her a look back.

"Mom, stop that!" Her eyes widened and Ava ran into the living as soon as she heard mt yell.

"Mom, can you please trust me again. Yes, I cut the big secret is out. I've cut since." I lied. "I feel so much guilt now. I lost Sam. I have to get you back. I'm your daughter, I would hurt you or Ava-"

"That's not what I'm worried about. I want you to stop harming." Mom said. I stayed quiet for a bit and the whole room was filled with silence. Then I spoke up.

"Okay, if you and Ava trust me begin to trust me again, I'll stop cutting, and I'll make the promise." I requested. It may be hard to just completely stop cutting, but I have to resist.

"You'll make the promise?" My mother repeated. I nodded. "Okay I hope I can trust you again." I smile came across my face.

"You can. And just to make sure we both know I mean it, I promise." I stuck out my pinky and my other and I pinky swore. Yes, I still do that. Mom hugged me and everything goes back to normal.

Hello Ryn. I hope you've had a nice life.