Ryn's pov

All the days that I've been spending with Sam have been the best. We've been happy together. Sometimes, it feels weird to say together and us. Sam is my first boyfriend. I don't really know how it'll turn out. I guess we'll have to wait and see.

Right now I'm with mom. It's been awkward with her ever since I didn't promise her. As much as I want to promise, I know I can't. I just have this feeling. Part of me wants to be dead, the other is just confused. 

"Ryn?" My mom asked. She sounded shaken. Like she was scared.

"Yeah?" I respond looking directly at her.

"Why won't you promise me? She uttered angrily.

"Is that what everything has been about lately? You won't talk to me. You don't call me or answer my calls. Hell mom, you don't even reply to one damn text message!" I bark. Mom's eyes widen and she tears up.

"Are you scared of me?" I ask quietly. Mom presses her lips and gasp as I step toward her.

"You are scared of me." I say realizing that, I'm a monster. "Why are you scared of me?!" I yell. A tear falls from her face.

"I'm scared of you because I'm afraid you'll die! I'm afraid that you're gonna give up on everything one day and just kill yourself!" Mom snaps. I feel a tear come down from each side. Mom and I stay quiet for a while. We're just speechless.

"Where's Ava?" I ask randomly.

"Don't hurt her." She responed quickly. Her word offended me. Don't hurt her. Why would I hurt her? What does my mom think I am? A killer?

"Why would I hurt her? I just want to know where she is." I try my best to stay calm. When really, my whole body was shaking in anger. Mom takes a deep breath.

"She's in her room." She quietly responds.

I walk to her room and knock lightly on the door. She opens the door and takes out one of her ear buds looking shocked that I was crying.

"Ryn? Are you okay?" She asked.

I nod. "Yeah, I'm fine I just need to know one thing."

"Yes..." I look her straight in the eye. Dead serious.

"Are you scared of me?" I ask. She bites her lip and looks down. She doesn't respond.

"Listen, I'm going to yell or get mad I just need to know if you're afraid of me." I begin to cry because I felt weak. I felt like everyone hated me. Including Sam.

"Okay fine, yes I'm afraid of you." I put my hands i my face and sob. My family was afraid of me.

"Why? Why are you and mom afraid of me?" I needed to know. I've never hurt them only myself.

"We're not really afraid of you. We're afraid of you dying." Ava says. So, they just can't trust me.

"You can't trust me?" I ask.

"I can't really give you an answer for that." Ava responds. I nod and slowly walk back into the living room I was in pain. I was hurt.

Ava's pov

I gently shut the door to my room and began to cry. I just lied to my sister. I slam my head against the wall and sit in a ball crying. Truth is, I'm terrified of her. She is capable of so much, and her being depressed makes her brain even crazier. I love Ryn so much, but I'm scared that she'll take her life. That's why I lied. If she knew that mom and I were scared of her, she could slit her wrist and die right on the bathroom floor.

I can't let her be alone. She's right I don't trust her. Which honestly does make me feel terrible. She probably can't trust me with Sam, but I have to talk to him. Ava won't hang around me anymore, but she'll be with Sam more than anyone else on the planet.

I heard a slam from the living room and the first thing that popped into my mind was mom. Did Ryn hurt her? No, she wouldn't. But I might check. I wipe off my tears and exit my room. I slowly walk into the living room where Ryn was last. But, Ryn wasn't there.

"Where's Ryn go?" I ask. Mom was in tears, more than I was.

"S-She left. She said she doesn't want us to live in fear so she's leaving. She didn't tell me where she was going." Mom stuttered. She could barely get the words out of her mouth. I instantly became concerned. Like I've said, she can't be alone.

"Do you have any clue where she might go?" I asked. I've only known her for three weeks, I didn't know her like mom did. I assume she's depressed since she did have many scars and cuts on her arms. I felt bad that I couldn't be there for her. 

"She's always wanted to go to New York City." She states while gasping for air. I didn't know how long it would be 'til Ryn left, but I do know that she wouldn't leave without Sam. 

"Ava, you have to look for her. She can't be alone. I can't trust her." I bit my bottom lip to consider it. When I was remind again of Sam. Right now, her life is depending on him. I have to make him watch out for her.

"Mom, she won't be alone. She'll be with Sam. I don't how to tell him that we don't trust her alone, but I know he'll watch out for her. Listen, I'll talk to Sam, but not anytime today." I explain.

"Why?"

"Because right know, Ryn is probably with him. So, he can't be home. I don't know where they are, but I won't let Ryn get away. I won't let her kill herself. Understood?" I say very sternly. This whole thing is our fault. I also feel guilty for including mom. I'd give her a second chance, but once someone has cuts all over their arm, you know they're depressed in some way and you have to help them. I don't really know if mom and I can help anymore, but Sam can.

"Understood." Mom replies while a nod. 

"Okay, here's the plan."