Ryn's pov

I was sitting on the couch watching American Horror Story, then Sam creeped in the living room looking at me with this silly look. I laughed at him a little. He kept walking toward me and finally sat down. It was all calm and stuff, then Sam started to tickle me. I was laughing, screaming, kicking, and probably hit Sam in the face a few times, but ya know it was fun.

"S-Sam! Stop!" I sat breathless and laughing. He continued tickling me, 'til he was on top of me on the couch. He kissed my cheeked and I smiled.

"Okay, now get the hell off of me. I'm watching American Horror Story and I'm officially addicted." I state as I realize that my favorite show what on. Like come on, it's American freaking Horror Story.

"Please don't tell me you're a Evan Peters fan girl." I raise and eyebrow.

"Okay you can mess with me, but if you ever make fun of Evan or any of my fellow fan girls, you will be shunned." I smile creepily which caused Sam to laugh. Sam puts his arm around me and watches it with me. Right now in the series, I'm at where Tate kills the gay couple. Which honestly to me kind of sucks since I actually thought they were cool. I took stay like this forever. With Sam, and watching American Horror Story nothing can get any better, well maybe some food.

"Sam, I'm hungry. Do you want something to eat while I'm in the kitchen?" I ask. Sam shakes his head snd I get up and go to the kitchen. Suddenly, I hear a scream from the tv and I run into the living room to see what happened. Sam laughs.

"Here, you stay and watch the show, I'll get the food." I half smile to his kindness.

"Thank you Sammy." I said. Sam pecks my lips and walks into the kitchen. I sit down and continue to watch the show. Soon, Sam comes back with chips, brownies, and water just in case we need a drink.

"Dang Sam, are you trying to fatten me up?" I question. Sam does this weird clicking sound before he starts to answer.

"Girl, calm down I brought water." Sam replies in a valley girl accent. I laugh along with him. He sits down again and puts his arm around me again.

"Ryn?" I says.

"Yeah?" I reply while putting a chip in my mouth.

"I don't really know how to put this, but I think I love you." I says. I felt butterflies in my stomache. Do I say I love him back? Do I love him? Do I even know what love is? Right now, I'm just mumbling random words trying to think of what to say.

"Sam, that's sweet." That's all I could think of. Why is it so hard to 'I love you'? For me, I think it's because most young people think they on't know what love is. Honestly, the only person I've loved is my mom, but I didn't love in that kind of way.

"That's sweet. That's all you have to say." Sam says with a little laugh at the end. Sadly, it was. I don't think I'm ready to be in love or something like that. Plus, we've only known each other for about 2 weeks.

"Sam, I don't know if I love you." I state. I instantly see disappointment in his big brown eyes.

"I saved you. I saved your mom. And I saved Ava. I made you laugh, and made you forget about your dad. What else do you want?" He spoke in a low voice and easily grabbed my hand. He had so much emotion in his eyes, more than just disappointment. It was a mixture of sadness, heartache, and embarrassment.

"Sam, you've been good to me, and I respect that. The only thing that keeps me away is because you kissed Ava." I remind him that he did kiss Ava, and it did hurt me. It's not just because he kissed her, it also because I'm afraid it meant something to him. I don't even know why I care, I mean we aren't even dating. That's another thing. How can he love me and we're not dating? This is all way too confusing for me. Sam laughs right after I speak.

"Do you really think that meant something to me?" I stayed quiet. Sam stands up with his hands in the air. "Ava kissed me. At least I know she likes me." Sam's words made my blood boil. At least I know she likes me. What was that supposed to mean?

"Really Sam? I like you too! Is she like your second option? If I don't say 'I love you too' are you gonna go running to her?" I say trying my hardest not to yell. Sam know has look on his face. Guilt. Sam remained quiet.

"Were you Sam? Were you gonna run to Ava and tell her that you love her and not me?" I mock. I just want the truth now.

"No! I wasn't. But if she does love me I can settle for her instead of you!" Sam yelled. Sam words made me want to cry. He doesn't love. It was a game. I should have known. Guys are just terrible human beings. I start to cry little by little. Sam seemed shocked by his own words.

"Oh my god, Ryn, I didn't mean that." Sam said as I got up off the couch. I shook my head.

"Ya know what Sam. I think I might really love you, because I care so much about you. I hate it when you are upset, I'm happy when you're happy, and when I'm not happy you're there for me to make me smile. I've never been in love with a guy so I don't know if this is love, but I can't stop thinking about you when you're not around. All I ever do is think about our 'cute' and 'special' moments. But you know what go head and be with Ava. I'm sure you'd be a whole lot happier with her." I try so hard not to yell and keep calm.

"What if I don't want to? What if I want to be with you?" Sam asked. I bite my lip and think for a little bit.

"Just go to Ava. I'm done with games. I'm done with people. I'm done with you." I say as I walk out the door. I run off crying. I couldn't go home to Ava. I couldn't go back to Sam. I don't know where to go. I just needed a break from people. Alone time. But, I don't want to be alone. I honestly wanted to be with Sam. Maybe I really did love him.

Did I just admit to love Sam, then tell him I'm done with him? Did I just lose Sam?