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25 minutes later a doctor walks out, he has blood on his hands. He remove his mask "Mr and Mrs Pottorff?" "Yes that's us" Sam says standing up.

"Well about 45 minutes ago Samantha stopped breathing, we realized she needed her surgery ASAP." He looks downs at his hands.

"Is she ok?" I ask stuttering, still tears sitting in my eyes. I'm shivering a little, when I cry I get cold.

"Well Mr and Mrs Pottorff, I'm sorry for your loss, Samantha passed during the surgery, I'm sorry" he walks away.

I collapse onto my knees, tears just won't stop. "Y/N? Y/N baby come on come back to me" Sam says to me but it's to muffled I can hear my heart pounding in my ears.

I fall on all fours, I become light headed. The black starts to creep up on the sides of my eyes.

The last thing I see is to nurses running towards me.

"Samantha why did you go!!, Baby let this be a dream!!! Come back to mommy and daddy. We miss you!! Don't leave!!! MOMMY LOVES YOU!! I NEED YOU BACK"

I wake up, possibly in another hospital bed. I open my eyes more and notice I'm in my room "SAM!!! KIAN, RICKY, CONNOR, TREVOR, JC!!!!".

They come running into my room "Y/N what's the matter?!?!?" "Where's Sam?" I ask "he's in his room", "I need to see him!!".

I run downstairs, I slip turning the corner hitting my head on the wall.

I stand up, the pain hurts like hell but I need to see my fiancé!!

The boys follow, I burst into Sams room. There's bottle of alcohol all over the floor, it reeks of vodka and rum.

"How long was I out?" I ask standing still hand still on the door frame and the door, my eyes scanning the room.

"3 days" JC says with a sad tone, "SHIT!!!" I yell waking up Sam.

"Y/N your alive!!! I thought I lost you too!!!!" he hugs me, the smell of alcohol on his breath.

"You would never lose me!!" I hug him back. We kiss, I can tell he's not drunk.

He goes to his bathroom, brushes his teeth then cleans his room.

He smells minty fresh, we curl up in his bed and sleep.

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*Y/N POV*

It's been 2 weeks and 4 days since Samantha has passed, I'm super depressed. I've started cutting, my blue box that says 'joy' on the top has become useful again.

I've started drinking a lot, I've been avoiding the guys. Especially Trevor and Sam.

I can't do it anymore!!! I NEED TO GO!!!!

*End of POV*

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I throw my blade into the box leaving the blood, I clean up my sink.

Put some rubbing alcohol on it to make sure it doesn't get infected, but I could care less the pain makes me feel better...

I put on my pajamas which are just a pear of spandex and a bra I head downstairs. I walk into the living room in the basement.

All the guys are sitting there, watching 'Family Guy' "Hey Y/N" Connor says with a smile.

I give a little smile, I sit down on an empty couch. Sam comes and sits with me, he places his arm on my shoulder.

I place my head on his shoulder, I saw JC and Kian whispering stuff to each other looking at my down low at least I think it was but I didn't realize my cuts were showing.

"Sam, Y/N has battle scars. She needs a a metic" Kian says pointing at my wrist, Sams head turns and sees my cuts.

"Why?" he asks with a very angry tone, grabbing my wrist very hard.

Clinching his fist against it, clenching his teeth.

"OWW Sam your hurting me" I say in a grunt trying to pull away, "I thought you liked pain?" he asks clenching his teeth and clinching harder on my wrist.

"BECAUSE ITS MY FAULT!! ITS MY FAULT SHES DEAD!! IF I DIDNT HAVE THAT HOLE IN MY HEART WE WOULDNT BE HERE RIGHT NOW!!! SHE WOULD BE HOME WITH MOMMY AND DADDY AND HER UNCLES!!" I scream pulling my hand away and pushing him back onto the couch as he stands up trying to stop me.

I run into my room, instead of crying I scream!!!!

I hear a knock at my door "who is it?" I ask in an angry tone, as the words escape my clenched teeth.

"It's Kian" he says sad, I start to calm down. I like Kian he's nice...

"Oh um... come in" I say sitting down on my bed, he walks in and sits down next to me.

His arm comes around me, and he pulls me close. I lay my head on his chest.

I flip over so that my head is on his flap, he places a hand on my stomach. I close my eyes.

I feel his hand move down my stomach but I ignore it, until he reaches my heat.

He starts I rub it, causing me to moan......

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