i didn't show up

at school today

after what happened

the night when i came

back home

from your house

i didn't want to

get out of bed

i didn't want to see

you

i didn't want you

to see how much

pain i felt

i didn't want you

to see my scars

or my bruises

i didn't want to

hurt you

so as soon as

my dad left

to go where ever

he goes

oh only god knows

where

i got out of bed

made myself some

breakfast

that looked a bit

like your moms'

and

then i went back

into my bed

eating silently

alone

thinking of what

you must be doing

how happy you must

be without me at

school

a couple minutes

after

school hours ended

my phone rang

i was surprised

it never rings

unless it's a spam

call

it was you

i hesitated on

whether i should

answer or not

but i ignored it

and shut my phone off