"Baby?" Clay whispers and I yawn quite loudly "Come on, get ready, we are going to the beach"

"Happy Valentines" I smile

"There's going to be time for that later" he says getting up "We're going on a date"

"Is Dream asking me out" I fake gasp

"Please, I took you out yesterday" he chuckles "But today's special"

"The beach, huh?"

"I promised it a long time ago, time to complete my promise" he tells me and I laugh

"You know, when Adam asked me out he mentioned the beach" I say and he gets visibly stiff

"You came to my mind" I confessed "And I said no, that I wasn't feeling it"

"You didn't go?" he asked and I shook my head

"Even though we barely knew each other and you had just ghosted me" I begin, giving him a playful look

"Hey! I already explained that" he chuckles

"Well, it felt weird, like I was... I don't know, betraying you somehow"

"You thought about me?" he says looking at me through his lashes

"Oh, cut the soft boy act" I say playfully pushing him back "But yes, I did, more than i'm willing to admit"

"You never leave my mind either" he confesses, getting closer to me

"Oh shut up"

"I won't" he says, now standing a few inches away from my face "I'm not shutting up, you're gorgeous and always on my mind"

"Ok lover boy, enough" I say stepping back "Time to go to the beach"

The ride to the beach is a bit long, Clay wanted to go to a specific one that's a bit too far away. I don't mind the roadtrip though, being with Clay is fun.

"So, he's with Harry now?" he asks me

"Well, I think so, yeah" I answer

"But Louis has a kid?" he tells me

"Yes, but Freddie comes from a one night stand, he wasn't always with Harry"

"Well, I find it unlikely"

"Even if they aren't together now, they were at some point" I point out

"And how would you know that" Clay questions

"There's literal proof" I deadpan "When we get back home I'm showing you an hour long larry video"

"You sound like an average dnfer"

"Get out of here with your fake ship" I laugh

"Fake?"

"Is this your way of telling me you're cheating on me with George?" I ask and he laughs

"Yes"

"Oh my god, no" I put my hand up on my forehead "How will I ever recover from this"

"Try therapy" he answers

"Or maybe I'll find some other hot minecraft youtuber to fuck me" I say getting closer to him

"Say anything else and I will need to pull over to show you who you belong to"

"Is this a threat?" I fake gasp

"A promise"

Before I can say a snarky comment back, Clay pulls over at a beautiful beach, that surprisingly is quite empty

"Get the blankets while I grab the food" Clay instructs and I do so

"We can put everything down here" he says pointing at the beach

We ended up sitting down at a place not too far nor too close to the shore. And after setting everything down, we took in the scenery in front of us.

"Happy Valentine's day" he says, filling two glasses of champagne

"Happy Valentine's day baby" I answer, still looking at the waves crashing against the shore.

"This is nice" I smile, turning to look at Clay, but he was already looking at me

"I like the view" he whispers, not taking his eyes away from mine

"Stop being so corny" I nervously laugh

"I won't, I can't believe you're here" he says

"Why?"

"From our fight about Adrien being in Orlando I know about Angel telling you of our fight when we were broken up" His gaze slowly turns downwards "How I wasn't worthy of love a-"

"No, no" I say, grabbing his chin "Look at me"

Once his eyes connect with mine, Clay speaks up "She was right. I don't deserve you" his green eyes filling with tears

I think I just heard my heart shatter. Why does he always think this.

I notice this is a pattern with him. Now everything falls into place.

No matter how many times he tells me he does, I know he still doesn't fully trust me. But this isn't about our relationship or me, it's about him thinking I don't love him, that my feelings aren't genuine.

He doesn't value himself that much to think that he's worth it. When in reality, he is

He was worth the fights with my parents, the suffering he put me through, everyone commenting on us, the constant harassment from his fans. Shit, it'll probably get Angel furious at me. But still worth it. Every single thing.

"Clay..." I whisper, pressing my forehead on his "You're worthy of love, I love you, so much. Please never doubt that, ever"

"You're just saying this because-"

"Because I love you" I interrupt him "And Nick loves you, and George loves you, and your mom loves you, your sister loves you" I separate ourselves so I can fully look at him

"There's so many people around you that care so much, so please, never question it ever again" I smile, lightly pecking his lips. Clay however deepens the kiss, not full of lust, but love.

No matter how many times we had sex before, this is the most intimate we've been with each other.

No fights

No drama

No secrets

Just us

"What did I do to deserve you" he chuckles

"Exist" I answer

Soon, silence embraces us and Clay pulls me in next to him

"After all the things we went through I never thought we would reach the beach date" he says and I nod "And here we are" he chuckles

"Well, no shit" I laugh too

"Hey, don't ruin the moment" he lightly pushes me "I was wondering if... you'd like to be my girlfriend"

I remain silent for a few seconds, he finally did it, he has said it

"I know that maybe you're not ready yet, so It's fine if you-" he begins but I quickly silence him by kissing his lips

"I am ready Clay, so fucking ready" I say

"You're mine?" he asks

"I was yours since the moment I laid eyes on you in that party" I confess "You've fucked me over, I'm never going to love someone as much as I love you"

"Achievement unlocked: the end?" he says and I laugh at his nerdy remark

"You just needed to get the minecraft reference in, right?"

"Ayo! You understood it" he says pointing at my chest

"You did explain in great detail how to beat the game, and then demonstrated it twice, then got me to do it, thrice"

"If you're dating Dream, then you need to know how minecraft works" he says, oddly proud of himself

"Dating" I repeat

"Yes" he says getting closer to me once more "dating"

I then close the distance between our lips, passionately kissing him.

I love this man to death, so much I know it will break me at some point.

But I'm willing to go through that. As long as I experience him, I'll be happy

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a/n

SHORT CHAPTER sorry :,(

but hey ! there are maybe 5 chapters left, might be 4 im not sure yet

and this story will finally be complete

i also have an alternate ending (not canon lmao) that i might post as an extra chapter

hope u guys enjoyed this one, it's too cute i can't

bye !!