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Recap

"I don't think that will be-" he begins but I hang up the call

When I open the door I see him standing there, in front of my, in all his glory

"Necessary"

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"Am I too high and imagining things?"

"I just hung up the phone" he tells me holding his stupid phone in his stupid hot hand

"You can't be here" I say "Who even let you in"

"The door was open"

"No it wasn't, I locked it" I say, then the realization hit me "Fucking Nick, he's done for" I say trying to barge out of my room, but he grabs me

His hands burn on my skin and I jump back

"I'm sorry" Clay looks hurt

I notice him being nervous, picking at his fingernails. I rarely saw him like this, just when he was about to play an important tournament

"You can't be here" I repeat

"You called me" he defends himself

"Because I panicked" I say

"You still called me" Clay insists, taking a step forward and closing the door behind him "You should know better, you know how mixing weed and alcohol gets you... I had to rescue you once remember?"

Of course I fucking do

"Why do you think I felt the need to 'get like this' Clay?" I cry "Want me to enlighten you?"

He stands still, not knowing what to say or do, but I can see in his eyes he wants to stand up for himself and give his opinion. He always has a dammed opinion.

"It's because of you. After I told you how I felt you left me- left me there under the rain Clay" I try not to cry

"I needed to think Charlotte" he says

"Think? Are you kidding me?"

"Did you forget how you kissed a random guy in front of me?" he says "And then I hear you on stream gush about a date, next thing I know I accidentally ran into you on this same date with the same guy you cheated on me with"

"I didn't cheat" I begin but I get cut off by him

"Oh you didn't? Then why were you kissing your brother's friend, huh?" he questions me

"Everything I did was because of you" I point at him "For everything you said and did that night" I say "You outed my assault Clay, you of all people know how bad it was... You were there"

I walk closer to him, putting my finger on his chest in an accusing tone "You were there" I repeat "You fucking saved me... and I- I wasn't ready to tell anyone yet" I cry out "You took that decision away from me"

He stays silent once again, I take this as a chance to expand on what I couldn't say that night.

"I wanted you, you were the only thing that mattered... And after you- you said those things I couldn't take it anymore" I begin, finally getting my chance to explain myself

"I needed to get my mind off of you and what you said. I know it was fucked up, but I was drunk ok? I wasn't thinking straight, I am not thinking straight, I can't when it comes to you"

I start pacing around the room

"And I'm genuinely sorry about Troy, if I could take it back, I would... But in that moment it seemed like the best thing I could do".

Clay still remains silent, dumbfounded because of what I just explained. I can notice him starting to get nervous again, picking at his fingernails

"I-" he sighs, taking a big deep breath in "I'm sorry too"

What

"I shouldn't have said that. I got upset at that guy holding you, and I-" he stops for a moment "I wanted you to feel as bad as I did"

"Is that supposed to make everything ok?"

"I thought that if you knew where I was coming from you'd-"

"I'd what? Forgive you? Wow Clay, you attacked me knowing it would hurt me, this makes everything so much better"

"That's not what I'm trying to say"

"Then what is it?" I push him

"I love you too"

I freeze

"You have no right" Is he delusional?

"You said it that night, that you loved me" he gets closer to me

"I also said I don't do breaks"

"You can't break something that never existed" Clay tells me, directly quoting what I said over and over again

This sly mother fucker

Bantering with him always gets me to sober up. Just a couple moments ago I was feeling like death... Now I'm more alert than ever

"Ok then, what do you want" I say crossing my arms

"You"

"That's not going to be possible"

"Can we at least try again?"

"Try what again? Do I need to remind you how you left me, said it was the best thing for us?" I say, tears flooding my eyes once again "You basically called me a broken toy, think it's 'fixed' in just two weeks?"

Everytime I remember that night I get overly emotional.

"It made me realize I couldn't be without you, what I said is true, I love you Charlotte" he steps closer to me, wiping the tears off my face

"You have absolutely no right to do this, we can't resume everything as if these past two weeks never happened" I say

"I can't be without you"

"I don't know what to tell you Clay" I take a step back "I... I can't do this"

"Can we at least be friends?" he says with slight hope in his eyes

"How's that gonna work?" I let out a humorless laugh

"It'll be like Sapnap and I, or like George and I" he says "Friends"

I hesitate for a second. There's no way this will ever work out

"Have you slept with them and told them you loved them?" I ask

Clay hesitates, but slowly shakes his head in response "Then it's not the same"

"Just think about it. I don't need an answer yet"

"If I do agree, this will end very badly" I tell him, signaling between us "Just know that"

"Life is full of mistakes, nothing is permanent" he weakly smiles

"Still, I'm not sure"

"Why? Think you can't resist me?" Clay smirks

"If anything it's you who's not going to be able to resist ME" I say

"Time will tell then" Clay says and I roll my eyes

I unconsciously let out a yawn, shit what time even is it?

"You're tired, I should leave"

"No wait-" I go to grab his arm, but catch myself before I do so "Could you maybe stay? I'm not sure if I can sleep, it's been um... hard"

I didn't want to admit it, but sleeping next to him made me sleep better, when I woke up I was well rested and more energetic. His absence has completely fucked my sleep schedule.

"I could stay, yes sure" he quickly agrees, then looks down at his clothes "It's gonna be hard sleeping with jeans on" Clay laughs

"There's some of your clothes left on my closet I think" I can see him slightly smile

"You haven't thrown them away?" he proudly says

"Angel wanted to burn them..."

"Right..." he says not completely believing me

"So I'll set up the bed and then throw some sheets on the floor for me"

"No way" Clay says "I'll go on the floor"

"No uh... I- I called you here you can take the bed" I say scratching the back of my neck

I resent him? Maybe. Would I feel bad if I made him come all the way here just to make him sleep on the floor? Maybe.

"No way" he repeats, then stands closer to me, grabbing my shoulders pushing me onto the bed

"Clay stop it, I'm not letting you sleep on the floor" I say getting frustrated "My bed is big enough, I can put a pillow between us"

"You sure?" he tells me and I nod "Fine then, if you start feeling ill again tell me and I'll try and help somehow"

"Thank you, Clay"

"For what?" he laughs, grabbing his clothes from my closet

"Not ignoring my call and coming over" I say

"I wasn't doing anything anyways, it's fine" he brushes his gesture off

He's lying again he was doing something, streaming to be exact, and stopped it to come and help me. I don't know why I'm even allowing myself to let him back into my life. Maybe I can't really escape him

I get pulled away from my thoughts when I notice Clay starting to change in front of me

I quickly turn around and cover my eyes

"Jesus Clay you could at least warn me" I say

"It's nothing you haven't seen before" he chuckles

"Still"

I lay back in my bed and carefully place a pillow in the middle. My bed shifts which must mean Clay's on the bed too now.

"I never got to take you to the beach" he speaks up

"Right, the beach date" I laugh "Did you know Adam invited me there?"

"And what happened with that" he questions, trying to keep his cool

"I said no" I simply say "It was something we promised, doing it with him didn't feel right"

"We definitely need to go now then" Clay says

"Maybe when George comes we could all go" I suggest

"Yeah, that would be nice" he tells me. I notice he is kind of... disappointed? I get why though. He wanted us to go alone

I don't think I can do that

"When is he coming?" I ask

"We don't have a date for that yet" he calmly says

"And is he staying for good?" I ask. I really like George. Before Clay and I's fight, we got along very well, it was kind of similar to the way Nick and I are but more of an older brother bond.

Nick and I? Strong younger siblings vibes.

"I don't think so, not yet at least" he begins "We have some things to sort out like his visa. But it's in our plan to move in together "

"I'm happy for you guys" Is the last thing I say before we both fall asleep.

Next morning I don't only wake up to a strong headache, but a bright flash in front of me.

When I fully open my eyes, I see Nick holding his phone up to my nose and taking pictures of me. What the hell

"Nick what are you doing" I say still sleepy as hell

"This is gold" he laughs

I try to get up, but something is holding me down... Something? More like someone

When I turn around Clay is full on spooning me, our legs tangled up and everything

"Clay" I shake him awake "CLAY"

"Uh what" he groans "Go back to sleep Char" he grabs my waist tighter and pulls me towards him

"Oh hahaaaa, smile Charlie" Sapnap teases me

"Wait Nick?" Clay shoots his eyes open "Oh my god Char I'm so sorry I didn't realize" he quickly apologizes, putting space between us

"No... it's fine you were asleep and didn't notice" I say still kind of flustered

Then I see a flash go off again.

"You are a dead man Nick" I say getting off the bed

Sapnap lets out a high pitched scream and runs all the way to the other side of the room where I corner him...

Until someone walks in

"What's with all the noise" Angel enters the room complaining, her head snaps to my bed "What is he doing on your bed"

I turn around, diverting my attention from Nick

"It's a long story actually" I tell her

"Enlighten me then" Angel crosses her arms.

She isn't Clay's biggest fan right now

"Bye bitch" Nick screams and runs out of the room

"You little fuck, come here" I shout and quickly follow him

I just hope Angel doesn't murder Clay.

"So, long time no see huh?" I laugh trying to lighten the mood, which clearly doesn't work, if looks could kill I'd be six feet under

"What are you even doing here" Angel spits out

"Charlotte called me yesterday, she was high and um... drunk and almost had a panic attack" I explain "Then I came here and we talked, and I guess you could call us friends now"

"Friends?" she lets out a humorless laugh "Friends? There's no way in hell that's happening"

"Why not" I sit up straight

"It won't end well" she states "I don't trust you, not after that night"

"Look, we both fucked up that night, not just me, I'm not the only one to blame" I say "Charlotte clearly put it behind her hence her letting us be friends again, why not you too then?"

"Jesus Clay, she's clearly still in love with you, and you know that, so you are taking advantage of it" she says, lowering her tone "You weren't there after you dropped her, I was, Nick and I made sure to pick up the pieces you left behind"

I lower my head "I love her too Angel" I quietly confess

"That's rich coming from you and your empty promises towards her"

"There's more to it Angel, it was the fact that Char knew how the cheating fucked me over" I try to explain

"If you weren't all over that girl none of this would've happened. I thought you left your stupid insecurities behind that night at your house" she tells me, her tone shifting to a more disappointed one

"I know, fuck, I know" I say getting worked up "I've been miserable without her too, I'm sure Sapnap told you all about that one, huh?" I say

I knew that Sap told her about my state during our break. However, it didn't since I also knew she hated me so there was no way she told her how bad I was doing as well

"I just want what's best for her Clay, the worst feeling in the world is seeing you bestfriend hurt and be helpless about it"

"I'll try my best" I say

"And exactly how many times have you said that before?" she crosses her arms

"Way too many..." I whisper "But I'm trying my best, I'm far from perfect, and I sure as heck know you are too"

"I still don't trust you" she squints her eyes

"Well, bad thing it's Charlotte and I's relationship" I laugh

She lets out a big sigh, relaxing a bit

"Fine" she says "But I'm still on you, don't fuck up big time"

Don't worry, I wasn't planning to

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we love a protective friend

friends to lovers arc w angel and charlotte?????? /j

also just remembering u guys this is an original character! it's not an x reader even though it's written in first person:)

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