Hey guys, I changed the cover for the book. What do you think of it now? Please comment your thoughts!

Btw this is the longest chapter I have ever written because it's the last chapter.

Anyways, happy reading!

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"No, the cancer is gone. It is completely out of your system and is never coming back," she replies back.

I sigh back in relief.

She stops.

Oh, there's more.

"And there's a but," I reply back and she slowly nods her head.

"There is," she says.

"Well?" I ask and she pats my shoulder lightly. "Just throw it at me already."

"When you had your cancer, it affected your body largely. Chemotherapy and radiation can cause side effects as well as long-term and late effects, which can appear months or years after treatment. One possible late effect is infertility, the inability to conceive a child naturally," she explains and everything around me stops.

I pause.

I don't know what to do or say.

The cancer will never leave me, will it? Even after it's gone, it's haunting me and my family.

"So, you're basically saying that I can't reproduce?" I ask her but she doesn't answer. "Is that a yes or a no?"

"Chemotherapy can affect a woman's fertility by stopping the ovaries from producing eggs. You have had extensive chemo and radiation, so I highly doubt that you can get pregnant. But, you maybe have symptoms of menopause," she answers back and it breaks my heart into millions of pieces.

I can't comprehend.

I can't move.

I can't even blink.

I just stand there looking at her, who's concerned about me. She slowly sits me down on the chair and sits next to me.

"I know this is too much to take in, but I told you about all the aftereffects of your surgeries, chemo and radiation when we did your blood transfusion. You thought you wouldn't make it, but here you are."

I slowly turn to face her, my face as hard as a stone. I open my mouth but nothing comes out of it.

"But... but the stick," I tell her and she shook her head.

"It could be false at times, but we could get you a test just in case," she tells me and I nod slowly. "Venus, infertility is very hard to cope with. If you need someone to talk to, I'm always here."

"Thank you," I try and smile at her.

She gets up and leads me to a room to check if I am pregnant or not.

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I unlock my house and walk inside, waiting to hear about my pregnancy. She said she will all me as soon as she get the results.

Today started out so happy. When I realized that I didn't get my periods for half a month, I thought I was pregnant. The stick confirmed my belief but then my belief was shattered.

Suddenly my phone rings and I quickly pick it up to have my heart broken once again. She told me that the stick was wrong, and I am not pregnant.

No!

I cut the call and fall onto my knees. I try hard to keep the tears in but when one escapes, it's hard to keep them all in.

Now, I am on the ground clutching onto my stomach and crying as if there is no tomorrow. The tears don't seem to stop anytime soon.

How will I tell Cayson about this?

I sob.

How will I tell him that I can't give him a baby?

More tears roll down my eyes.

Why is everything only wrong with me? I can't give Cayson the one thing he has always wanted.

He chose the wrong person to love.

I wipe away the tears and walk to the bathroom to wash my face.

When I come back, it's almost eight. Cayson should be coming home from his work now. I haven't even cooked for him.

I quickly start making his favorite, ravioli. He has been wanting me to make it for a while now.

I start to prepare the dough into a big bowl and start preparing the other things.

I don't know what I am doing. I don't know how to cope with this. I don't know how to tell Cayson that I can reproduce.

How do I do this?

How can someone go through this?

I need my moms with me. Mom, dad and Macy are in Virginia where Macy is working. Dad and mom are figuring things out so I don't want to interrupt them.

On the other hand, Mr chivalry, mommy and daddy are in England visiting uncle Chris and aunt Jessica along with uncle Jeremy and aunt Amanda. I want to talk to mommy about this but I don't want to drag her into my problems again.

I sigh and take a deep breath in.

Suddenly I hear the door open and Cayson happily walks inside in his suit. "Hey," he excitedly replies when he sees me in the kitchen.

I know for a fact that there is a huge smile on his face. I hear him walking into the living room slowly and he puts his bag on the couch as usual.

I take a deep breath in. "Cayson," my voice as soft as a whisper but he hears it.

"I'm sorry, but I will put the bag in the room soon. I know you hate it when I forget it out here," he starts walking into the kitchen.

I feel his arms around my waist and he slowly pecks my cheek from the back and puts his chin on my shoulder.

I turn my head a little to the side and find him lookin at me with a smile on his face. I try to smile but my face doesn't move a muscle.

I turn my head back and concentrate on the oven and my dough.

I move a little to the side and Cayson slowly lets go of me and stands next to me, leaning on the kitchen counter.

"Ravioli!" He replies in excitement and I slowly nod. "I love you."

I force a smile and he pecks my lips before I take the big bowl filled with flour and move it to the other counter but it slips out of my hands because I am trembling.

"Oh." I breath out and slowly bend down on my knee to pick up all the flour off the ground.

I see Cayson starting to put the flour into the bowl once again while looking at me. "Venus, what happened?"

I keep the tears from rolling down my eyes. There is a huge lump in my throat and it is hurting me to keep my tears inside.

A tear escapes my eye and it falls into the bowl, which grabs Cayson's attention once again. "Hey, hey it's okay. It's just flour."

I put all of the flour inside and quickly get up when the oven beeps. I put the bowl on the side and open the oven. As I am about to reach inside to get he tray, Cayson's arm stops me from going any further.

I slowly turn to face him and the smile is vanished. "Hey, you could've burned yourself. Wear the gloves."

"Yeah, sorry," I apologize as I wear the gloves but he slowly moves me to the side and pulls the tray out himself.

"It's fine, no need to apologize babe," he whispers.

Another tear rolls down my eye and Cayson grabs me by my arm and turns me to face him. I don't look up at him because I know I will start crying the moment my eyes meet his.

"Hey," he whispers, slowly cupping my chin and pulling it up so I would face him. When his eyes meet mine, tears start flowing down my eyes and they are unstoppable.

"Venus," he whispers, pulling me into his warm embrace. I put my arms around him and just cry into his chest. I sob and whimper but he tries to keep me calm by caressing the back of my head slowly.

"Shh," he slowly says, still caressing the back of my head as I cry.

"Cay- Cayson... I- I—" I can't finish the sentence but he doesn't ask me to talk.

"Take your time sweetheart," he whispers in my ears, making me cry even more. He has always given me time and space. He doesn't want to know about everything right away, he knows that I will tell him once I am ready.

For a long while I just hold onto him and cry in his arms. He doesn't let go of me even for a second. His grip tightens around me and he stays there.

"I- I- I didn't... get my... periods... for half a month now," I start and he simply listens. "So- so, I- I thought that... I was- I was pregnant."

I slowly pull away and he cups my face into his hands and wipes away the tears that are currently flowing down my eyes.

"So- I went ahead and- and got the pregnancy stick and found out... that I am pregnant," I say, my voice hoarse and cracking from all the crying.

"Oh," he breathes out and waits for me to continue.

"I- I went to the hospital to make sure. I found Dr Wendy there and..." I stop and another tear rolls down my eye.

He slowly wipes it away and smiles softly at me. "She- she told me that I- I can't- I can't reproduce," my voice cracks at the last part.

"I am infertile," My voice cracks as I start sobbing.

I expected him to be shocked and maybe a little angry but all I saw was shock on his perfect chiseled face. "Oh Venus," he pulls me into a hug and hold me against him tightly.

I stay in his arms and cry my heart out.

I love how understanding he is. He didn't shout at me for having all the faults in the world.

"I know I shouldn't ask if you're okay because you're not okay but, I just want you to be calm. It's not the end of the world, okay?" He asks once I break the hug and I scoff.

"Am I okay? You- you wanted a family and I can't even give you—" he stops me.

"I do have a family. You. You are my family Venus, and you are enough. So much more than enough," he replies back, making my heart swell.

"But- but you- you wanted a baby," I frown and he lifts my chin up and makes me face him.

"I'd rather just have you all by myself," he smiles. "Anyways, babies cry and make a lot of noise. They don't even sleep at night, but you do."

"Cayson."

"Venus."

"I'm serious."

"So am I."

"Aren't you mad? I know how badly you wanted a baby," I say and he looks away for a moment before looking back at me.

"No, I'm not mad Venus. I could never be mad at you for anything. And, yes. Yes, I wanted a baby but it's not the end of the world, okay," he explains and something shines in his eyes.

Tears. He is on the verge of a crying because of me. Why do I always create some problem that he has to go through?

"I'm so sorry," I apologize once again. "I know you didn't sign up for any of this. First cancer, and now this. I am so sorry."

He caresses my cheek and smiles softly.

"Don't apologize Venus, you haven't done anything wrong. I knew what I signed up for and I got what I have always wanted. I wanted you. Here you are in front of me, healthy and especially alive. This is all that I could ever want from life.

"But you would want to start a family at some point, right? And I won't be able to give it to you," tears start rolling down my eyes.

"It's okay," he assures me. "We could always adopt a baby."

"But, it wouldn't have your beautiful green eyes," I say and I hear him chuckle softly.

"Nor would it have your perfect nose and full lips," he replies back, brushing his fingers against my soft lips.

"Nor our freckles," I say with a small smile.

"Nor our perfectly curly brunette hair," he says with a smile.

His hands slowly snake around and grab ahold of my waist as I slowly put my arms around his neck and lock his head between my hands.

"Our baby wouldn't be our splitting image but it would be a baby," I say and he nods in agreement.

"That's all I want. You and a tiny little human running around the house," he half chuckles, making me smile. "Trying to catch you."

"Really?" I ask and he nods.

"Absolutely," he smiles.

"I love you, so much," I close my eyes.

"And I love you," he says and I feel his forehead against mine and we stay there for a long while, talking about adopting the baby. I feel a drop of tear falling down from Cayson's eyes and I slowly wipe away the tears.

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Cayson and I sit in Dr Helton's office, waiting for her to arrive. She called me and told me to come meet her. Cayson being himself, he insisted that he comes along.

We wait while sitting down with hand in hand and I slowly lean on his shoulder, resting my head.

"You feel alright, right?" He asks me I slowly nod. "Any pain or tremors or bruises?"

I shake my head and he sighs.

"Any tenderness or—" He starts again and I clutch onto his arm with my other hand.

"Cayson, the cancer is completely out of my system, stop worrying," I tell him and he smiles softly before kissing my head and waiting patiently.

After a while, Dr Helton walked in with a smile on her face. We quickly get up and she sits across us.

"Sit down," she says and we oblige.

"You- you wanted to see me?" I ask and she nods.

"Yes, indeed I did," she says and types something into her computer.

I hold onto Cayson's hand tightly as she proceeds. "I believe Dr Wendy has already told you that you can't reproduce anymore."

I nod and she continues. "Well, I might have done something when your treatments first started that would've upset you at the time. But, now maybe that would've been the option you would choose."

My brows furrow in confusion and I look beside me to find a confused Cayson as well.

"I- I don't get what you're trying to say," I reply back with a nervous chuckle.

"Remember when I told you that this could happen as a long term effect, and you told me that it would be fine?" She asks and I nod when I remember that she told me. "Well, I went against your will and froze your eggs with the consent of your parents."

I pause.

Wait, what?

"What?" My voice cracks.

"I knew that you would want to have a baby someday, but you just never realized it. So, I froze your eggs before we started any chemo and radiation," she answers.

There is a small smile on Cayson's face when he realizes what this means. Another smile starts to appear on my face and I quickly walk to Dr Helton and hug her.

She is taken aback by this action but she hugs me back and smiles. "I thought you would be mad when you found out."

"Maybe I would've been if I wasn't married to this little shit here," I half laugh and a smile appears on Cayson's lips.

"Well, now we need Cayson's sperm and you could ask someone to surrogate for you," she says making me so much happy.

I feel like my life has always been a hell of a roller coaster. I have always had ups and downs in my life but I feel as though I had many bumps. Once I get out of a problem, another one is created and I'm out to face it.

I just hope my baby doesn't go through everything I had to go through.

I ran away at the age of ten, was adopted more times than I could possibly remember, started on drugs, getting drunk, getting tremors, almost dying because of cancer, and now becoming an infertile.

So much has happened ever since I moved to New York — one of the best decisions of my life.

The friends I made, who have never left my side. Even to this day they are all happy together and we meet almost everyday.

The family I found, mom dad and Macy. They are the perfect adoptive parents I could have ever asked for.

My actual parents that I found. Mommy, daddy, Mr chivalry, and Aurora. The perfect little sister I found, whom I love so much.

Especially, I found the love of my life. The person whom I have been waiting for and whom I love so much. Cayson. I never thought that I would have someone who would love me unconditionally. I never believed in love after mom and dad got divorced. Chris and Kate kept some part of that alive but other than that I felt shallow.

I had no feelings. No emotions. Nothing at all.

But, after I met Cayson, I started to learn. I started to grow as a person. He thinks I am the best thing happened to him but it's actually the other way around, he is the best thing that ever happened to me.

Meeting someone who loves me as much as he does was something I had been secretly wishing and hoping for, but never said anything about it.

I didn't believe that I could change so much for someone. I never thought that he would mean something to me. I have always been careless of people's feelings except my friends.

They have been everything until Cayson filled in that spot. Until Cayson accepted me as do my friends.

I love him! I love my family! I love my friends!

Now when our kids will ask how we met, we have the perfect story to tell them. How we met during senior year in high school, fought so much just to end up with each other, stayed apart for three years, met again and the love only grew deeper, then went through my cancer together, finally to be married soon and have kids.

Kids!

I will have kids?

I will have kids.

If this is the only way to get Cayson what he has always wanted then so be it. We will find a surrogate and have a baby. Our baby.

Cayson and I leave her office, and walk outside to exit. His hands hover over mine and slowly intertwines our fingers together.

"Problem solved," he winks and I smile.

"Are you happy?" I ask and he nods his head crazily.

"You bet I am," he says making me smile.

"You're such a kid."

"Well, I get to be one if I will be raising one," he answers and his eyes light up.

He is happy. He is doing this thing with his eyes which he does everything he's happy or excited about something.

He keeps talking on and on about how everything will be fine when we have the baby. I just stare at him, all the voices blocked and all I see is his mouth move. A smile appears on my lips as I stare at his perfect chiseled face under the moonlight.

He is perfect.

He is happy.

So, of course I am happy.

I slowly look away with the idiotic grin that's on my face. When I realize how happy he is right now, a tear escapes my eyes. I try to wipe it away before he would notice, but I was too late.

"Everything is perfect now, so no being sad," he says, leaning towards me and wiping away the tear that escapes my eyes.

"We are going to have a family," I say excitedly and almost jump in excitement.

"We most certainly are!" He also replies back enthusiastically.

He slowly taps on my shoulder and I slowly turn my head in his direction as we are walking to the car. I lift my brows and he smiles.

"I love it when you look at me like that," he says with a smile on his face.

I pause.

He caught me staring at him?

Oof!

I look away, trying to keep myself from turning into a tomato.

"Like- like what?" I ask, dumbfounded.

"Like you just did," he points out and I smile. "I love it when you're just staring at me while I talk."

"I love it when you're like that too," I say and he blushes along with me.

"You notice that?" He asks and I nod in return.

"Oh," he scratches his collar with an awkward smile.