"How do you feel?" Ian rushes inside when I am talking to my family.

"Fine," I reply back and he smiles.

"Great then," Chris says.

"We will leave you guys alone," mom says and looks back at me. "Call me if you need anything, I'll be right outside, okay?"

She leaves with others and my friends settle down around me.

"Mom," I call out and she turns around. "You guys should go home."

"Oh no no we are all fine," she says and mommy nods.

"I know that, but you guys will feel so much better if you come back here, refreshed," I say and daddy nods.

"She's right Mrs Justice, Mrs Chivalry. We will take really good care of her in your absence," Tyler speaks up and I smile warmly at him.

"Of that we have no doubt," Mommy smiles, assuring mom, dad, and daddy. "But—"

"—there's no but in this discussion, it's ended and you guys are going home. You will shower, rest for a while, eat and then if you would still like to see me, you can come back," I demand and they chuckle.

"Anything you say dear," dad says and they leave.

"You guys should go too," I say but Chris shakes his head sideways.

"Hell if I'm leaving you alone again," Ian states and Kate nods.

"Last time we left you for one moment, and you left us for three years. I'm definitely not leaving you not moving anywhere," Cayson says, taking my hand in his.

"Ooo," Tyler starts making weird noises and violet joins in. Chris starts gagging as Kate starts making smooching sounds.

"Eww guys," I groan in frustration and try hard to keep myself from blushing.

"Leave her alone," Ian says sternly and they don't bother me anymore.

"Thank you," I smile at Ian and he smiles back, caressing my other hand.

Tyler hops onto the bed, next to my foot and it makes a clanking noise before settling down. "Get off of there, you pig!" Violet exclaims.

"I'm not a pig, but you know who is?" He asks, pulling violet to him and I roll my eyes. Violet leans in and Tyler's mouth pecks Violet's before slowly moving towards her ears. "You."

Kate and Chris start laughing and violet smacks Tyler's stomach, making him groan softly.

"I hate you," she makes a face and sits on the other side of the bed, not making eye contact with Tyler.

"You shouldn't lie to yourself like that Violet," Tyler smiles, seductively.

"Yeah? Well, it is the truth," she smacks her lips together.

Tyler's hands slowly start to make their way to Violet's but she smacks his hand away. "Don't touch me," she huffs, making me chuckle at their childishness.

"No," she moves away as Tyler reaches again.

He frowns and looks at her. "I'm sorry," he whispers softly, making Violet's heart melt.

She blushes and Kate keeps nudging her, making her blush even more. She slowly turns her concentration to me and stops smiling for a moment.

"Do you feel good?" She asks and I nod in return.

"I actually do. It's as if all the pain has left my body. Of course, it's the painkillers but I do feel great," I smile and she jumps in joy.

"Thank god," she pulls her hands to her chest and smiles cooly at me.

"I want to go to Paris," I whine and they all chuckle.

"We will definitely go," Cayson caresses my cheek and I turn my attention to him.

"Promise?" I raise my pinky in the air and he chuckles softly, remembering all the times I made him pinky promise me.

"Promise," his cold finger meets my warm ones and I smile.

Something inside of me jumps in joy when I see the realization hitting him when my pinky went up in the air. He still remembers!

These little moments that we have, keeps me going. It has helped me so much in these past three years. Even though he wasn't with me, I held onto these moments. Every littlest things that has happened between us.

Something about him just makes me feel better, stronger, braver, loved, as if I belong with him: like home.

He is my home.

Just as my friends and family is my home, he is my home. He has been for a long time now, I just hadn't admitted it before.

I have been in denial because I loved him so much that I didn't want to lose him. Everything going on with me before all of this happened, was already too much.

My drug phase, tremor phase, and now my cancer phase. I was so scared of getting close to someone again that I pushed him away so many times. I didn't want to, but I did it anyways to keep him from knowing about my bad habits.

I just wanted him to understand and he did. Without any questions asked, he supported me, never complained. What did I do to deserve him, to deserve my friends, and to deserve my family?

They are all an important part of my life now, and I can't back away from that. Now, anything happens to me, will happen to them.

If I live, they will be happy.

If I die, they will all be broken.

I can't do anything about it anymore. I tried. I tried hard to keep it from my friends and Cayson but I failed miserably. I just wanted them all to move on from me, and they tried to but I came back into their lives, pulling at them.

Maybe I should also have faith in myself. If they all think that I could be saved, then I also think I could.

I hear them all chuckling and laughing, the sound which is music to my ears. I just want to see them this happy all the time. Is it too much to even ask?

I sniffle as a tear rolled down my eye and their eyes shoot in my direction and they stop.

"Venus are you okay?" Ian asks.

"I think somethings wrong," Chris says, looking at me then back at Kate.

"The machines are working fine," Kate points out and I chuckle.

"She's laughing. I think something has happened, she is in shock," Tyler says and violet nods in return.

"Wait, I'll call a doctor," Cayson starts to leave the room but I hold onto his hand and pull him back into the chair.

"I'm fine," I whisper back, wiping away the tear.

"No you're not," He debates. "You're laughing and crying apparently."

He slowly wipes away another tear which was caused by my laughing. "It's just... I missed this," I reply back, looking at them all. "All of us together, laughing and talking."

"Oh," Cayson breaths out and Kate smiles.

"I did too," she says.

"Yeah," violet also agrees.

"Group hug?" I ask and they all nod. Slowly, walking towards me they form a circle around me and huge me tightly as I hold onto them.

"I love you guys, you know that right?" I ask and they nod.

"Good to know," Ian smiles and I chuckle.

After they break the hug, my throat feels dry and I cough slowly, looking around for water. "Oh god, somethings wrong," Kate says.

I reach out for water but Ian takes my hand in his. "It's all fine venus, you're fine."

"We should call the doctor," Tyler suggests as I cough again when I try to tell them that I'm just thirsty.

"I swear to god Venus if you leave us again, I will never forgive you," Chris whispers, pulling my hand away from Ian and holding it in his hand.

Suddenly they all start talking all at once.

Violet: you're going to be fine.

Kate: seriously if you leave me, I will kill you myself.

Ian: are you feeling fine?

Chris: you're not leaving us.

Tyler: I thought you were just coughing, but people could die from coughing too much.

"Guys," I start in my raspy voice and they stop talking. "My throat—"

"—is hurting? Maybe something wrong," Cayson completes my sentence and I shake my head.

"It's—" I start but am cut off once again.

"—is feeling funny? That happened to my grandmother before she literally died on the table," Tyler says and everyone glare at him.

"Not a good time to crack a joke Tyler," violet says between gritted teeth.

"No no, my throat is dry," I finally complete my sentence before any of them interjecting.

"Oh."

"Can I have some... water?" I ask Ian as he hands me the cup on the table.

"You scared me for a moment," Cayson exhales and Kate nods in return.

"You guys assume things a lot to be honest," I laugh and they join me.

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