Btw you guys haven't seen a lot of romance between Cayson and Venus, it's because this book is more focused on her lifestyle. How she's living her life after being abandoned. I do try and add romance between them but just know this book isn't about their romance. It will turn into their romance soon so you only see cute moments between them for the time being.

Anyways, happy reading!

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"Venus," I hear a soft whisper when I walk outside the classroom.

I turn my head and find Cayson looking at me with a expression which I couldn't quite figure out.

I turn my head the other way and walk alongside my friends before I hear him shuffling and hovering behind me.

"Venus, I need to talk to you," he says but I don't respond.

As we are all walking slowly, Kate turns her head sideways and narrows her eyes but I purse my lips and she turns back to Chris.

"Venus please, I—" he starts, pulling me by my forearm as I swiftly turn around and look at him.

"Leave my hand," I stiffen and try my best to pull my arm back to myself but he doesn't let go.

"Look, I'm sorry Venus, I didn't mean to. I overstepped and—" he starts but I interject.

"— yeah you did. You overstepped into my business with my friends. Who do you think you are anyways to tell me what to do? Yeah we are in a contract but that only requires making songs together, not stay together. So, next time if you want to give a piece of advice to me, think before talking," I reply back and pull my arm back to myself.

He looks down at the ground and takes a step back. I quickly turn around and walk with my friends.

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"That was intense," Tyler comments but shuts up when violet elbows him. "What?"

"Shut up," violet whispers.

"Fine, jesus woman," he mutters back.

"Are you okay?" Kate asks and I nod in return. "Are you sure?"

"Yes Kate, I'm fine. I'm perfectly fine," I snap.

I feel her shifting back into Chris' arms again and I close my eyes shut. "Fuck," I mutter under my breath.

I look up to find her looking at me with sympathy. The thing I hated most. The same look which everyone gave me when I was on drugs.

The one and only look which I have hated ever since elementary. Once everybody found out I was abandoned by my parents, that is the look everyone gave me.

It angers me to be looked at, like that.

Like some pathetic loser who had been abandoned, who used drugs and doesn't know what to do with her life.

I am tired of it!

"Don't look at me like that," I say, looking at them all.

"Like what?" Kate asks.

"Like I'm some pathetic loser. I don't need your guys' pity," I snap.

"No Vee I didn't—" I heard Kate say but I just took my stuff and left before she could finish her sentence.

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I walk to my car and stand next to it in this heat. A drop of sweat rolls down my forehead and I wipe it away and start breathing hard.

Suddenly my hand starts shaking again.

Ugh, the tremors!

I try hard to stop the shaking but it gets worse by every second. Currently, the shaking takes over me and I groan in frustration.

Not too long after, I feel another pair of hands taking mine into theirs.

I look up and find Cayson, holding my hand in his while looking at how I'm shaking. "Breathe," he says and I breathe slowly.

I close my eyes shut and breathe unevenly. "Venus, just breathe slowly."

"I am breathing slowly," I snap and open my eyes to see a smile on his face.

"What's so funny?" I ask.

"You're too cute when you're annoyed," he replies back.

I snatch my hand back and purse my lips. "I won't be if that annoyed turns into angry again."

He slowly take my hand back into his and smiles. "I can take it."

I let out a deep sigh and breath slowly just like he said and the tremors start to slowly go away.

"I'm sorry," he whispers and I look up to find him really close to me. "I'm sorry for telling you what to do. I was being an idiot, a complete and total ass. I just wanted to spend time with you, that's all."

I try to examine him and he closes his eyes and sighs. "You make it so hard."

Make it so hard?

What?

"Make what so hard?" I whisper back, against his neck.

"For me to care about you. For me to like you," he responds back after pondering for a minute. "Even though you make it hard, I won't be fooled by it. You always distance yourself from people. Why?"

Why?

He's seriously asking me that question. Why I distance myself from people when I need them the most.

Not wanting to answer him, I just sigh and look away.

"Why?" He repeats himself.

I don't respond.

I don't want to respond.

"Why?" He asks making me face him, desperation clear in his voice and actions.

I just look at him blankly, not giving into any emotions. I just stand there expressionless.

"Why, dammit?" He holds onto the sides of my arm and pushes me back against my car.

A gasp left my mouth and before I knew it, he stood so close to me that it was hard for me to think.

His minty breath hovering over my forehead as I stare into his deep emerald green eyes. Desperation so clear and shining in his eyes.

"Because I don't want to get hurt," is all that escapes my lips.

Suddenly I feel his strong arms, slowly letting go of my arms. His emerald green eyes bore into my hazel ones.

"I won't hurt you," he whispers against the arch of my eyebrows.

"You don't know that," I snap. "Nobody knows that. For all you know, we might never talk after high school. For all you know, our contract never makes it to anything more than the paper that it's written on."

I sigh. "You don't know."

"Yes, I do. What I know is that you've started to grow on me and you try so hard not to show it but I can tell that I have started to grow on you too. Why don't you just give in once, I won't hurt you," he replies back softly against my cheeks as he is closer to me than ever.

Our lips now only centimeters apart. "You're not sure," I whisper against his lips.

"Yes, yes I am," he whispers back.

For a moment he looks into my hazel brown eyes. I close my eyes and move a little closer to him. He hesitates for a moment before smashing his lips against mine ferociously.

He is kissing me.

Once, twice, until I've had a taste and realize I'll never have enough. His hands make their way to my waist and the other pulling my closer by my chin. My hands travel slowly into his hair and suddenly he's kissing me harder, deeper, with a urgent need I've never known before.

When he kisses me, everything goes oddly quiet, like the moment of silence between lightning and thunder.

The next kiss is the kind that breaks open the ground. It steals my breath and gives it back the next second. It shows me that every other kiss I've had in my life has been wrong.

He was the last piece of puzzle I had been looking for. I fit perfectly against his chest as we pull out, breathless.

Both of us breath heavily against each other when we pulled apart. I have never felt anything like it.

My hand quickly makes its way to my lips as I touch them and smile. I could feel how swollen they are because of the kiss. He looks at me with a small smile and pecks my lips one last time.

"Wow," he breaths out.

"Yeah exactly, wow," I reply back.

"That was one hell of a kiss," he smiles.

"Where did you learn how to kiss like that?" I chuckle and he looks away.

I look at him who's trying his best to avoid eye contact. "What?" I ask and let out a chuckle.

"I- I-" he starts and I wait for his answer. "I have never kissed anyone."

He blurts out and closes his eyes.

My mouth literally hung open as I heard the words coming out of his mouth. How in the hell?

"What?" I almost scoff as I ask.

"I uh- I was never in a relationship before. Never really liked anyone up until you," he admits as his ears redden.

"Oh," I let out a sigh. "Aww, Cayson I was your first kiss?"

He nods with a frown on his face.

I smile.

I never thought of him as a fuck boy because he never acted like one. But I never thought he never kissed any girl.

I get on my toes and take his face in my hands and peck his lips quickly. "You are so cute."

"No. I am so embarrassed," he corrects me and I chuckle.

"It's nothing to be embarrassed of. Everyone starts somewhere, right?"

"I'm happy to start at you," he smiles.

"You were like the kiss virgin," I joke and he frowns.

"Really?"

"Yeah, I like took your kiss virginity," I joke again, a frown clearly visible on his face.

"Oh god," he groans.

"It's fine, I won't tell anyone," I whisper.

"That is so not helping," he scratches his collar and I chuckle.

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