Today would be four months since I have written this book. This makes me so emotional :')

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Justin's POV

My feet couldn't stop tapping the floor with anxiousness. The doctor said somebody with the name of Robert decided to donate his heart to Hazel. I couldn't even get the chance to meet the kind-hearted man who was willing to give up his whole life for my girl.

I grew more and more nervous while the operation of the heart transplant was being done inside. Currently, I was sitting outside of the operation room with Calum who just walked out with a piece of paper in one hand. I wanted to ask him about it, but decided to shrug it off.

Truly, I wanted to give her my heart. I wanted to save her with giving up my life. Everything that I did should come to an end soon and I thought this would be a perfect one. But when I woke up and met the doctor, he said he already found a donator for the heart. Surprised was an understatement.

I could hear the monitors inside the operation room beeping as the noise crawled its way into my ears, making my head aches even more. Suddenly, Calum ran into the room, his red face smudged up with tears. I stood up almost immediately.

My heart beat quickened, "What's wrong? Why the hell are you crying?"

His both hands were curled up into fists and I noticed one of them was crumpling the same piece of paper he brought out earlier. His face showed lost and miserable. Calum spoke with a lisp, heartbrokenly, "He left."

My brain said something I was sure my heart couldn't take it. I grasped the piece of paper from Calum's hand and opened the letter. As I read this words, I realized Calum's words were true.

Dear mates,

I know it is sappy that I started with a dear in the front, but I guess it is okay to be soft with you guys sometimes because let me tell you shitheads one thing. You two were the best thing that ever happened to me after the love of my life.

I know I should have told you guys this, but when I was a kid, I wanted to be a superman always. I wanted to save lives, keep people safe from disasters. I wanted to give my life up to save some. For all my life, you two have always saved me from being the useless one. You showed me how much love and affection can two best friends give. And therefore, I am extremely thankful to be a part of your lives.

I know it makes you mad that I left without a proper goodbye, but I didn't want to change my mind the very last minute. I fixed them on saving someone; and that someone is Hazel. Justin, I am sorry to say this but all this while I have helped you to keep her, I couldn't help but falling in love with her. As the words you told me before, it is true. She was the most beautiful creature to ever walk on Earth.

I know she's yours, but love can't be stopped. It is not something that I could pretend not to have it. I know I am not a good friend, and that was why I am doing this. I want to give her my heart, save her and let her be happy with you for the rest of your lives. That is the only thing I could do to make myself rest in peace.

And if you're reading this before my funeral, I would like to request something. Please give out black roses to everybody who comes over. It means death, and I think that represents me right now. Thank you.

And thank you for being my brothers for these years. Thank you for sticking up with my shitty attitude and never gets mad over them. I couldn't thank you two even more. You guys are the best mates anyone could ever meet. Although we have done some serious shits all these past years, I didn't regret any of it because none was done without you guys.

Remember one thing, yeah? I am always there with you guys. Always watching you and laughing at your silliness. My heart will not only be in Hazel, but in each of you as well. I will stay there, even if I am long forgotten.

Cal, stay the goofy human being you are. Build up your muscles even more and do not stop yourself from doing what you love. Not the killing people love, but writing music love. I know you do it when you are alone. Sounds creepy to write this, but I heard each and every single song of yours that you sing. But let me tell you this, I loved all of them to the max, especially the one you sang 'If You Don't Know' multiple times. Produce them, and girls would be dying for you. That would be your biggest dream, I suppose. If music is something you are passionate about, then go for it. Nothing's going to hold you back, man. You engineer yourself.

And as for Justin, or Jason, I know behind that strong facade stands a man with a soft heart and smart brain. I love you for both, man but I like you better when you're Justin because then I get to see the real you, the one who smiles for everyone, the one who doesn't need to pretend like he wants to kill anybody. I see you as yourself when you're Justin. I love that guy. Also...keep Hazel happy. I know you will, but I just wanted to make sure you keep it in your mind always. She is too precious to be hurt and for a girl, she had gone through a lot that she shouldn't have in the first place. Make her smile again. Buy her roses and arts. She loved them so much. And thanks, man. Thanks for everything you've shown me. I am the strong person I am now, before I pass away, because of you. It's okay to be you, Justin. You are you and you are okay.

Those are my last words for you guys. Continue doing what you love and good luck for the rest of your lives. Sounds like a wussy, but I don't care. I love you both very much from the bottom of my heart. Thank you for everything and goodbye.

Sincerely,

Luke Hemmings.

I crumpled the paper slowly as tears were streaming down my cheeks. Luke left. My mind swirled around, He walked out of our lives just like that just to save Hazel, the love of our both life.

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Epilogue will be published tonight. 😢❤️

2nd of June, 2017.