Soz errors cuz not edited

The show starts in thirty minutes and I have never felt this awful in my life.

I feel like shit. Disgusting, I know.

I don't know where Justin is, honestly I don't know where most people are.

I am a fucking idiot. Why didn't I just tell him? I have a serious issue about these girls and Justin, I just don't want them to be around him.

Talking about these girls why did I believe Sahara? Justin doesn't even like her and also Sofia, what a bitch for just standing there and doing nothing.

Whatever I'm over it.

I'm finished everything. The hairdressers just washed and straightened my hair. Now finally my hair is neat and done. I don't have anything else to do but sit in this room.

I can't stop thinking about Justin. I should honestly just tell him straight that I lo-like him. But I don't deserve his love right now after what I said.

He was totally right, i am shitty. Shittier than a public toilet. Shittier than Jofia. Shittier than shit.

I feel like crying aghhhh. I need help

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Youalreadyknowwhoitis (Charlotte💃🏻) :

I FUCKING need help

Justin hates me

YES

I DINT KNKW WHAR TO SAY TO HIM

AND I HAVE TO SEE HIM CUZ IM HIS FUCJING PERSINAL ASSISTANT

Agh you're sending me a pic of you when I'm telling you the love of my life hates me?!

You're no help

Idk man he's confusing

I saw some hoes that were with Justin long time ago and they told me some shit that I shouldn't of believed.

Then I said he was stupid

Then I said his tour was shitty and shouldn't of came

I know.

IT WAS AN ACCIDENT I WASNT SUPPOSED TO SAY THAT.

THIS TOUR IS AWESOME AND SO IS HE.

Please just kill me right now.

YOURE NOT HELPING

NO WE'RE NOT

I AM

AGH CUZ

Bye you mofo you didn't even help me

Omf scooter just asked me to get justin water and tell him to go backstage

IM SCREWED

WHY ARE WE SCREAMING

BUT NO

IT IS MAN

OMFGDNXRFPK THATS WHAT HE SAID TO ME WHEN I SAID HIS TOUR IS SHIT

THEN TELL ME WHAT TO DO

IM NOT THAT FUCKED GEEZ

IM DONE

BYE FOR THE LAST TIME

🐸☕️

"Hey." I say still looking at my phone, hearing the door open and slam close and I was sure it was Justin.

He doesn't reply to me, making me look up.

He was sitting on the couch and his hands on his face.

What happened?

"Justin?" I say, standing up walking to him ," you alright?"

"Yeah," he sighs, "just could you leave for a minute, I need some time alone, sorry."

Wait,what.

he's kicking me out? Something must be wrong

"Not until you tell me what's up." I say kneeling down so we can be face to face. He sighs and looks at me straight in the eye with no expression in his face.

Damn, still hot as fuck

Okay focus Alexis

He tilts his face, studying my face for a second then starts to speak, "why are girls confusing?"

Really Justin. Come on

I laugh a bit and shrug, "not all girls are confusing." I disagree

"Well all, the girls, that I like are confusing."

"Yeah?" I say looking at him in the eye, putting my hands on his knees for balance. "Tell me, what girl is confusing you, right now?"

I knew, I knew it was Holly, I like holly and all but I don't like the idea of them together.

she's stupid and not that great. She doesn't deserve a boy like Justin. She's young and doesn't know what she's doing in life.

And the other reason is she's in the way of Justin and I's relationship. Well friendship, It's just hard because he lives in Los angles and I live in San Diego but I'm not being jealous of Justin and Holly..

Or am I?

He pauses a bit thinking then shakes his head, "no one, don't worry about it."

"Is it Holly?" I ignore him

"I said don't worry about it."

"I'm not worrying about Justin, you are!"

"It's none of your business, Alexis."

I sigh, "okay I know it's none of my business and I know you don't want me to get in the situation but I know that you like Holly-May." I say standing up and look down at him because he was still sitting down.

He doesn't reply because I know he didn't know what to say.

"You're going on stage soon so you better pick yourself up before you preform." I say to him lastly and then walk to the door and leave like he wanted me to do.

I don't what I feel at this point. But I'm kind of annoyed at both of them.

Let me stop thinking about these peoples relationship. I need to go find scooter.

I walk down the aisle to where backstage of show was, scooter had to be there for sure. It was quite crowdy in the corridor so I took a while.

"Alexis!" I hear

I look around to see who it was.

"Hey." Holly says standing in front of me, out of breathe. Did she run here?

"Whew- Have you seen Justin? I really need to talk to him." She says

Hell nah b

"I think he doesn't want to talk to you." I say, annoyed. She's fucked him up, enough

"Whuh?" She says still out of breathe

"Just leave him alone, stop being a clingy bitch." I say

She gives me a 'wtf' look and she rolls her eyes, "what the fuck, this is not about Justin and I's problems, the fucking show starts in 5 minutes and he doesn't even have his microphones on and he hasn't had water." She shouts

Oh shit

"He's in his dressing room." I say not reply to what she said

"Damn, I should've looked there first." She says to herself then runs off to his dressing room.

Gosh

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