I got to the carpet, overwhelmed already. My sister flew in right away when I asked her to be my date. The girls of course had seats reserved for themselves and guess what? Justin mother trucking Bieber was seated 3 seats down from were I'm seated! Does god hate me that much?? I walked arms locked with Ken and listened to all the paps screaming there questions or "Kylie over here!" "Kendall! Kylie!"

I was having a wonderful time posing in the carpet with Kendall. I couldn't believe that this was my life, I couldn't be more greatful. So after an endless amount of time on the carpet we made our way to the show, being seated. I hugged all the girls and chatted among them as the show was starting to begin. I was talking to Selena when out of the corner of my eye I saw him. In all his glory. Fuck...

he looked hot. I really just wanted to go over there and jump on him but when I saw who he was standing next to I almost vomited.

He saw me looking, but I had just enough time to play it off like I was looking at Nicki who was behind Justin. I couldn't contain my laughter. Them together just doesn't look good.

"Don't even get me started on that dress." Chantel yelled. I tried to shush her but it was already heard all around the god damn venue.

Boy was this going to be a long night.

I was up for 2 awards tonight, new artist of the year and favorite pop rock female artist, and I'm presenting for artist of the year, Justin is up for it. This night keeps getting better and better! I present right after I perform so Ima be sweaty as fuck when I present this award.

The show droned on until my name was mentioned, I perked up.

The show was hosted by Gigi Hadid I didn't personally know her but she seemed so nice.

"We have Kylie Jenner in the house tonight! And three seats down is her ex boyfriend Justin Bieber and duck- oh sorry read the wrong line, Hailey Baldwin?"

I just looked at everyone wide eyes trying not to laugh but I couldn't contain it. The camera zoomed in on all of us dying with laughter. Before I knew it it was time form me to get ready to go on stage.

i sat on a stool praying to god that I wouldn't lose it not only on stage but on national television. And in front of him. I had Kendall come back stage with me. I needed my sister with me before I went. she thought I looked hella Tumblr so she snapped a picture of me.

"Listen do not freak yourself out, you will be amazing like always. Just remember that mom and dad are always looking down on you. I love you Kylie.."

"I love you too Kenny." I said hugging her then getting the go to start heading to the stage.

I let out a shaky breathe, trying to calm my nerves.

Here we go...