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"And the award, for best new artist of the year goes to...."

Fuck the suspense.

You know I'm shitting myself more at the fact that Shawn was nominated as well and he is my competition.

I'm friends with the enemy.

I suppose Justin was nominated for best song too so he is my enemy as well.

Omg what if neither of us win it how embarrassing. What if like Zayn wins??? (Lol)

Zayn's so good tho but shawns like so good and also so hot. So's Zayn though oooh this is a tough decision... Zayn or Shawn, Zayn or Shawn, Zayn or-

"GRACE!" Shawn practically screams in my ear as he shakes me, breaking me from my zone out.

Omg did he win!!! Omg omg I'm sitting next to a winner!!

"Grace you won!!" He says and my face drops from an excited one to a confused one.

"Wot?" I say dumbfounded.

"You won! Go on stage you goofball!" He says standing up and dragging me with him.

"I won? Surely not..."

"Go go gooooo!" He says softly pushing me and I slowly walk to the stage, feeling as if I'm in slow motion, watching everyone around me cheer and clap and make a lot of noise. I probably look like such a stupid bitch walking up there with my mouth wide and looking around like I'm a fucking chicken.

Once I finally reach the stage, I'm greeted by the award presenter whom I hug tightly as I jump up and down awkwardly in their grip. They laugh at me but I don't care because I JUST WON MY FIRST AWARD MUTHA FUCKAAAASSSS. He then hands me a giant crystal pyramid thing that I can already picture next to my bed and I slowly approach the microphone.

"Are you sure?" I say nervously, turning to the two other presenters who laugh again as they nod their heads, "wow oh my god, this is mine?!" I take a second to look at the trophy, "and it has my name on it WOW!" The audience laugh at my excitement but can you blame me?! I can't even win a game of Scissors Paper Rock.

"Um I just want to thank my mum, Leanne and my step dad, Scott. Thank you for supporting me in the music industry even though I know you both were hoping for a model daughter... and I want to thank my dad, James, I know he's looking down on me now, probably laughing at me for embarrassing myself a little but I sure he's mostly proud. Thank you to all of my fans and everyone that has supported me but thank you most of all to Justin. I wouldn't be where I am today without you. I appreciate everything you've done for me so much and I love you more than anything. Thank you every one," and with that I leave. I only had a couple tears escape when I mentioned my dad but other than that, I held myself together rather well I think...HOMYGODIJUSTSAIDILOVE JUSTININFRONTOFEVERYONE.

Will they get the wrong idea?????

Nono will they get the right idea??????

Will they just think I mean a friend love?? Oh shoot I can practically here James Corden screaming JUSTACE in my ear now....

Once I make my way back to my seat, the audience has quieted down a little. I give Shawn a smile as I sit down and he asks to lol at the award, so I happily hand it to him. In the mean time I pull out my phone to text Justin again.

*1 new message from Jus*

I physically gasp reading that. He texted me???? wwoowowowowowow.

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Is all it says. No sorry for not replying or explanations behind the ignoring. Not even an emoji.

Not even a justmoji

At least it's something I guess?

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Thank you 🥜

Where are you?

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Jus?

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Are we back to the ignoring game?

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Well 2 can play at that honey

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I lied I can't play you win please talk to me

Or at least tell me if you're going to the after party

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Oi cunt FUCKEN answer me u dickhead

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Im sorry that was uncalled for, I don't know what came over me

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Juuusssttttiiiinnnnnnn

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The amas are now over and I'm On my way! (Omg I legit just typed in o-m-w and it auto corrected to that thefuck how did it know???👀👀) to the afterparty biiiiiiitchhhhhh.

And then after the party it's the hotel looobbbyyyy. Ay.

So to recap on tonight, jbs been ignoring all my texts cept that one time he said congrats. And only to the first fucking award too like bitch how rude

Oh yea! I won 2 DUCKING (FuckN auto correct man shit) AWARDS. Best song and best new artist. Unfortunately I didn't win best female pop artist but I was up against queen Selena, legit wasn't planning on winning lol.

Also my stupid speech was like a 4 yo poem wrote it compared to her masterpiece like damn. I need to go back to school. Pull a Billy Maddison or somethin.

My thoughts are interrupted when my door is opened and and my eyesight is compromised for the millionth time tonight thanks to the paps. I changed out of my previous outfit so I can dance with out face planting ya feel.

I hope no one catches a glimpse of the va jay jay.

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