"Seriously?" Bieby dont.

"Shut the fuck up before I change my mind, dip shit," WOW swearing, "sorry I uh was being too cryie before... that was just building up for a while I guess..."

"All good, Baby, that's the Grace I know and love," he says with a cheeky grin that I wanna slap right off so badly. I was going to retaliate but it's tru so.....

"Fuck you," I say as I leap of the bed to get my guitar. I love how mature I am, it's gonna get me far in life, I think.

"Fuck you too," he says with a smile. Ikr relationship goals.

"I'm sitting on this chair over here to keep some distance between because this songs going to make you fall in love with me," I say whilst quickly making sure my guitar is in tune.

"More than I already am?" He says as he moves his legs to sit cross legged.

"Shut up and listen," and he moves his hand to his mouth to zip his lips then locks them and throws the key away. I shake my head at him before I begin to play. Making sure I do not use eye contact because HOW EMBARRASSING.

"I'm so into you, I can barely breath,

And all I want to do is to fall in deep,

But close ain't close enough till we cross the line,

So name a game to play and I'll roll the dice,

Oh baby look what you started,

The temperature rising in here,

Is this gonna happen?

Been waiting and waiting for you to make a move,

Before I make a move,

So baby come light me up.

And baby I'll let you on it,

A little bit dangerous,

But baby thats how I want it,

A little less conversation and a little more touch my body,

Cause I'm so into you, into you, into you,

Got everyone watching us,

So baby let's keep it secret,

A little bit scandalous,

But baby don't let them see it,

A little less conversation and a little more touch my body,

Cause I'm so into you, into you, into you,"

Y'all know how the song goes. I refuse to type any more, I'm wasting precious story time.

"And yeah that's pretty much it but yeah I don't know it's still a work in progress like I'll probably change stuff in it I don't know it's a bit weird and I've made this more awkward now like more than you did before like I shouldn't have sung that probably like I probably shouldn't have even wrote it like it's so embarrassing and now it's weird and because I'm saying it out loud now it's even more weird and-"

"Shut the fuck up," he says.

"Yeah but like now we-"

"Shutthefuckup," he says so quickly it nearly sounds like a single word. I mimic the key locking sitch he had going on before and wait patiently as he moves his legs off the bed and leans his elbows on his knees. He looks a bit like he's praying with the way his hands are placed or even a bit like he's going to sneeze but he's probably just trying to think. He stays quiet for a second before he continues, "don't change the song it's perfect," he says quietly and my eyes widen. I nod my head because I locked my lips before and threw the key away so I can't actually talk.

"So um... you're uh... into me?" FUCKING WHY YOU DICK HEAD EH WHY IS HE DOING THIS TO ME FUCK YOU ASSHOLE.

"Well um... it could be about Shawn Mendez too or Chuck Bass.... or even that Cameron Dallas guy because-"

"Grace"

"Yeah okay I am a little bit maybe..." I can't look at him it's so painfully awkward. He just lets a strong breath of air out whilst I wait for him to speak because I don't want to talk anymore I make it worse every time I open my mouth.

"But I like you too, you know that..." he says even quieter than before. Shit god damn. God damn shit god damn.

(Side note: Does anyone else think of that scene in easy A after I say that bc every time I say shit god damn I picture the lady that played phoebe on friends saying it after she gave that one guy chlamydia idk it's probs just me)

"I know... but... I just... can't.... because.... things.... and also.... that other one.... and.... yeah all that...." omg you're embarrassing yourself you fucking moron.

"Okay... that made no sense at all... just letting you know..." we both can't look at each other because I quickly looked at him 2 seconds ago and he's looking at his fingers so we're both being awkward. It's not just me. I just needed to put that out there. Like I'm not the only on being awkward. He is too. Yeah.

"I know... fuck," I scratch the back of my head not knowing what to say.

"I don't get it, do you not like me like that?"

"No, I do," FUCK I said that too quick, "I just....."

"Just what? What am I doing wrong? I'll fix it, I can do anything you need me to do," Shit fucker I'm too lucky, why does he even like me.

"Its not you Justin, you're perfect. It's me, I'm too fucked up from my past and I'm broken and I have no faith in things working because I've only ever been let down before," wait did I just call him perfect. Fuck man that's gonna boost his ego too high 4 me. Oh well, I guess everybody gets high sometimes u know 😏

"I know that, Gray, but I'm not going to be like those people. You know I'm not like those people-" he says as he stands up and makes his way over to me to hold my hands. No, go back over there, go away man, shit.

"I know you're not like those people," I stand up from my chair causing him to let go of my hands. I just realised every time we speak we get a bit louder. We were like whispering before and now I'm speaking a tiny bit louder than how normal people speak, "I just don't know what a future like that between us will be like and I don't want to risk our friendship over it."

"We can't have a normal friendship knowing the way we feel about each other Grace, if it doesn't work out it doesn't work out and things can go back to the way they are now but I know that won't happen because we'll be great together. People are going to look at us and be like 'wow that's relationship goals' and then post Instagram photos of us with that caption okay, I can see it"

"Stop it, stop it! If it doesn't work out it won't go back to normal okay! We could hate each other and never want to talk to each other ever again!"

"Stop being so negative! Why can't you just admit that you love me as much as I do you so we can just be together?!"

Silence.

"I mean... you-"

"You love me?" I say a lot quieter than before, cutting him off. He loves me? I know we say that to each other all the time but he meant it like love love not friendship love... I think

"I... um... do you?"

Do I? I think... I do? I mean... who am I kidding I know I do. But I ain't about to tell him that without validation of his love for me.

"Do you?" I say being a bit petty but fuck u Justin I'm not telling you first.

"I asked you first"

"No I asked you first," we're creeping up on the volume AGAin.

"Okay well I asked you second"

"That means you have to tell me first"

"Where does it say that?"

"It's like a law Justin, tell me"

"No it's not, you tell me"

"Yes it is, it's like an unwritten law that we all need to abide by, tell me first"

"No that's stupid, you tell me first"

"No you're stupid, tell me now!"

"No!"

"Yes!"

"NO!"

"YES!"

"FINE OKAY, I lOVE YOU!" I don't think my eyes could get any wider if they tried, his eyes are about the same, like we both knew this was coming but once it actually happened we're both still like wooaaahh man, "I love you..." he says again but a little quieter and he looks down to his feet. I let out a near silent breath of air I didn't know I was holding in and keep quiet for just a moment before I tell him what needs to be said.

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"I love you too"

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Shit fucker that was intense.