"Who is she?" I asked as tears brimmed my eyes heavily.

The girl looked at me just as confused as I was. I didn't dare look back at Penny, disgusted and hurt by his actions.

"Penny?" the girl asked and that was enough to send me storming out the door. I pushed past her not looking back.

"No" I heard Penny growl but I continued to storm out of the house. I wiped the tears off my face aggressively, angry that was I crying over this stupid clown. How could he? I didn't even know he knew what cheating was!

The air made my tears cold against my cheeks. I looked back at the house, my hair floating around my face. I saw Penny looking at me through one of the cracked windows, the girl nowhere in sight. I looked back ahead and continued walking down the street. My oversized sweater felt as if it was weighing me down but I knew it was my feelings doing that. My hair flew past my face as the wind picked up. I felt as if I was walking in slow motion and the world stopped spinning around me. The streets were empty but that wasn't the reason for my loneliness.

I ran up the stairs to my apartment, walking into the elevator soon after. The way up to my floor felt like forever and all I wanted to do was get stuck in this elevator and not have to see anyone else ever again. This felt worse than being betrayed by your average boyfriend. Penny was in me and was still capable of doing such a thing.

I slammed the door shut behind me and ran towards the restroom. I turned on the head shower and climbed in, clothes and all.

I sat in the middle of the tub, crying my eyes out as the water soaked my clothes and hair. I hugged my knees to my chest as I sobbed loudly.

I sat there for an hour before I decided to shut the water off. I laid down in the tub, not wanting to go to my bed.

I continued to cry as my body shivered from coldness. I force my eyes shut, praying Penny would come to me. I wanted him to hold me and tell me it wasn't real. That I had imagined everything.

But he never came.

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I woke up as the sun hit my face. I looked up, shielding my eyes and realized I was still laying in my bathtub.

Memories from the night before flashed in my head and I grew nauseous at the mere thought of them. I bolted to the toilet, preparing to throw up, but I never did.

I sat back onto the floor, with my arms on either side of my body. I carried myself up slowly and made my way to my room. My heart dropped as I realized Penny wasn't here. I had hoped I'd wake up with him by my side and everything would go back to the way it was, but I knew that would never happen.

I decided to get ready for the day, and run errands. I didn't want to stay home with a heart break like I had done with Norman. My stomach sank at the thought of his name.

"You killed them" I whispered angrily as I slammed my hand against my mirror. I grabbed my head in frustration as I began to sob.

My head pounded in pain as I let the tears continue to fall. I cleaned myself up, not allowing myself to cry anymore.

I grabbed my purse and phone and headed out the door. I walked slowly down the street, going nowhere in particular. My phone rang continuously as Rebecca kept calling me and messaging me.

"I'm fine" I responded quickly before hanging up. I wanted to be left alone.

I continued to walk down the street and my eyes widened as I realized I could see Penny in my peripheral vision. He was standing at a far end corner, staring me down. I walked past the corner, not looking at him. I didn't want to see him now, not ever.

"Lola" I heard his voice say softly behind me. I acted as if I didn't hear anything and continued to walk away. I was surprised I didn't feel him grab roughly onto my arms like he would always do when I ignored him.

I turned the corner and found myself in front of a fruit stand. I decided to pick some up before heading home from my walk.

"Thank you" I said to the vender as I handed him the money. I plucked out a strawberry out of the bag and began to eat it as I made my way back home. I took the long way back, trying not to cross the same street I had previously seen Penny on.

I walked past a popular bar, and I made mental note to visit it soon. I needed to get my mind off things.

I walked into my apartment in one piece. I had succeeded in not being ripped apart by Penny on my way home.

The rest of the day, I stayed in. I took a nap, watched movies, and ate enormous amount of ice cream. I tried my best to not think about Penny and imagining him with the other girl. He was probably with her while I stayed at home heartbroken.

I looked back up at the clock that read 7:45pm.

I bit my lip in hesitance before getting up from the couch.

"Fuck it"'I said as I walked towards my closet.

I chose the most skimpiest dress I had. I did my hair and make up, more exaggerated than usual.

I looked at myself in the mirror and sighed heavily at the new image of me.

I grabbed my purse and phone and walked out the door before I changed my mind. I shivered into my coat as I made my way to the bar I had seen earlier that day.

I walked into the busy atmosphere and immediately walked over to the bar. I ordered my drink and looked around as I sat on the uncomfortable stool.

My eyes immediately locked onto a pair of grey ones. His hair was effortlessly swayed to its side. His face looked like something out of a magazine.

"Here you go" the bartender said, breaking the staring contest I was having with the random guy. I looked at the bartender, thanking him.

I took a sip from my drink, feeling it burn my throat. I felt a presence sit next to me. The loud music boomed in my ears. Alternative music cooed through the speakers. I looked over and met the same beautiful grey eyes from earlier.

"Hey" he said in a masculine voice. I smiled back innocently before speaking up.

"Hey" I said completely dazed by his vibe.

"I'm Jordan" he said sticking out his hand for me to shake.

"Lola" I said back, meeting his hand with mine.

"You're not from here" I said, hearing an accent from his voice.

"New York" he chuckled, his pearly whites showing.

"Is it that obvious" he said making a funny face, earning a laugh from me.

"It's a small town" I said as I took another sip of my drink.

"Classic" he said as he raised his eyebrows at my choice of drink.

"Always" I winked jokingly causing both of us to erupt into laughter.

"Does Derry have any flirting classes?" He asked mocking my failed attempts.

"I'm the teacher" I said acting fake hurt as I placed my hand over my chest. The moment my hand made contact, I felt the familiar hear radiating off my skin. I quickly brought my hand down, but Jordan didn't seem to notice anything.

"I hate to be the typical guy here but I have to ask" he said.

"What's a girl like you doing here all alone?" He asked.

"Can ask the same for you" I responded. Jordan laughed at my reply before looking around the room.

"Look" he said as he nodded his head towards a random guy. The guy seemed to be flirting with a girl and everything seemed fine.

"What?" I asked confused before Jordan spoke up again, looking straight ahead.

"Just watch" he said as I continued to squint towards the couple.

The couple continued to talk normally before we saw the man whisper something in the woman's ear causing her to slap the man across the face. Jordan and I began to crack up at how shocked the drunk guy was.

"He's been doing that all night" Jordan laughed.

"What is he telling them?" I asked curiously

"Nothing, he's just making monkey noises in their ear" he laughed.

"He comes every Friday, always doing this bullshit" Jason said before taking a sip of his drink. I looked around in amusement as I followed the drunk guy, curious to see who he would bother next.

Jordan and I continued to drink and about 2 hours in, I was pretty hammered. Jason, on the other hand, seemed pretty sober.

"Wanna get out of here?" Jordan asked catching me off guard. I looked back at him with a blank stare.

"Sure" I slurred before getting up and making my way towards the exit, Jordan hot on my heels.

"My place is a couple blocks away" I said pointing right up ahead. Jordan nodded before taking my hand in his. We began to walk towards my apartment and I could feel eyes on me the whole way there, even in the empty streets.

I stumbled against his body as he held me in place. I felt dizzy and I couldn't speak properly.

I fumbled with my keys, trying to find the correct one to open my door. Once I found it, I stumbled into my apartment. Jordan closed the door behind us and I felt his hands immediately snake around my waist. I giggled at the contact as he turned me around to face him. My house was dark and that made it all the more exciting. His lips crashed onto mine and they were soft, but not as soft as penny's.

I drunkly kissed back as he gently pushed me against the wall. His hands began to grope my body, not being gentle at all. He lifted me up against his body, not breaking the kiss. I wrapped my legs around him, just like I used to with Penny.

I kept trying to catch up with him and his movements but all I could think of was Penny, making me sober up.

"Stop" I said against his lips, trying to push him off. He was to deep into the moment to acknowledge anything I was saying.

"Jordan" I said a bit louder this time, causing him to stop immediately.

"What?" He said in a snippy tone. I scoffed at his attitude and pushed him off of me.

"Just go" I sighed as I pointed to the door.

"You made me walk all this way for nothing?" He asked with anger in his voice.

"You were the one who wanted to get out of there!" I snapped back.

"I know I'm sorry ok? I'm sorry" he said raising his hands up in defense. I exhaled heavily as my back made contact with the wall once again. I closed my eyes in exhaustion.

"I should go" he said as he picked up his coat. I nodded silently in agreement. He looked at me one last time before giving me a small wave.

"Goodnight and I'm sorry again" he said as walked out my house. I crossed my arms against my chest as I looked at my door.

I was alone once again, or so I thought.

"Penny" I said as I heard the familiar bells. I slowly turned around and saw him standing in the far end corner.

"You've been ignoring me" he growled as he looked at me with his yellow eyes.

I scoffed in response.

"What the hell do you expect?" I snapped at him before storming into my bedroom, trying to get away from him.

I didn't hear him coming after me so I continued to walk towards my bed. I gasped as I felt a large hand pull at my arm, spinning me around forcefully.

"You're going to listen to me" he said as he gripped my chin tightly.

"Get off of me!" I screamed as I tried squeezing out of his grip. This only caused him to grip harder.

"I gave you too much power over me" he snapped as he shoved me onto the bed. I looked up at him with tearful eyes as he towered over me.

"You are my toy. You are my pet. You are my mine" he said with a deep and raspy voice.

"You do what I say and when I say!" he screamed in anger, coming out more like a roar.

"And I said LISTEN TO ME" he growled loudly, making me crawl backwards, trying to get him away from me.

"You think you're so cute and important, ignoring all my demands" he said with a laugh.

"Don't forget I created you" he said as he pointed to my chest. I realized it was glowing along with his.

His nostrils flared as he took in my scent.

"Tsk tsk tsk" he mocked.

"Another boy, ready to be torn up" he said as he pointed at my lips.

"When will you ever learn..doll" he said as he crawled over me. He was now mere inches away from my face.

"That you belong to me" he growled.

"and only me"