My heart literally stops beating at the very sight of him.

"Nicole!" Colts voice bellows throughout the room, causing us three girls to jump out of fear.

My attention drifts over to Nicole who cowers behind me, her fear was a lot more evident then the rest of ours.

Colts stare had made me uncomfortable but it was laughable compared to Ivan's demonic glare.

His head was in my direction, he lowered his head to the left as if he was some sort of animal.

He raised his right hand and signalled for me to come down.

"Come here" he commands

My heart races at an abnormal speed. There was no way I was going down there, I don't even want to breath the same air as him at this point let alone be near him. I was terrified of this situation, of him, of the consequences, of everything.

I slowly shake my head, I look over to the two remaining men and then to the dead one lying on the floor. I shake my head again, certain I wasn't going down there.

Ivan follows my gaze towards the men.

He steps forward again but this time he doesn't stop, he continues to walk in my direction. His black eyes were almost deadly, making it hard to keep contact.

With each stride he took the space between us had closed. He had now reached the steps that led to the level I was standing on.

Nicole grabbed my hand, I squeezed it as hard as I could. It must of hurt her but I didn't think she cared right now.

Ivan was now at the top of the steps and a meter in front of me.

Tasha reached out and pulled Nicole from behind me then they proceeded to hide to the side, leaving me standing alone with him.

I quickly rushed backwards, my back hit the wall leaving me trapped. I look over to the entrance to see if I could make a run for it but a large figure was standing in the way.

He was now towering over me, this being that stood before me was not the Ivan i knew, I wasn't staring at Ivan I was looking at evil....at a monster.

There wasn't a word that could even come close to describing how I was feeling at this very moment.

Ivan reached out his hand snapping me out of my thoughts and distracting me from my fear. His blood stained hand inched closer to my face, I immediately turned my head to the left, in attempt to get away from his touch.

The thought off his murderous hand touching my face had sent chills up my back and disgust through my veins.

My emotions were all over the place right now, the closer his hand got towards me the more fearful and disgusted I got. For the first time in a long time tears threatened to fall but I quickly blinked them away, however that didn't stop my lip from quivering as I continue to push my head towards the left, by now the strain on my neck was beginning to hurt as a sharp pain shot down my neck.

"No" I whimper as his warm moist fingers almost brushed my cheek.

"Please" I weakly whisper as my voice cracked.

I bite my bottom lip as I squeeze my eyes shut, I was now on my tip toes with my body pushed up against the wall and my fists were tightly clenched.

To get out of the situation I dive to the floor, I turn round to face Ivan who was still staring at me. His facial expression was unreadable, the blood drenched his face making it impossible.

I quickly get to my feet and hold out my hands.

"Don't come near me" I beg

Nicole and Tasha quickly run behind me as we all slowly back up towards the exit.

"Nicole!" Colt calls out once more as me moves towards us

"Don't" Nicole warns as she hides her face from him. The sniffle at the end had indicated that she was crying.

Ivan turns back around and walks back to the men, he picks up a blade and slowly cuts the mans throat. He holds out his hand and catches the blood in his hand before bringing it to his mouth and loudly slurping in the thick liquid. His eyes never leave mine as he licks his lips and smirks.

My mouth drops open as I quickly turn my head away.

I look at Ivan dead in the eyes before building the courage to speak.

"You're a monster" I spit out and a venom filled emphasis on monster.

We turn and leave the room, we quickly pick up the pace as we sprint out of that place and out the door. With the last bit of energy we had we dash back tithe mansion.

Our unsteady sprint comes to an end when we finally reach Tasha's room.

We all sat in silence as we try to process what has just happened. The only thing that's was playing on my mind was Ivan and the image of him staring into my soul as he kills that man and drinks his blood.

The way he killed those men, it was so effortless and enjoyable for him. Just like that he would be prepared to take someone else life.

He could kill me that easily, without a second thought I could be dead at any given moment. How can he go from a loving and caring person to a monster that quick. This morning in the library my feeling for Ivan were stronger then ever, the kiss was magical but a few moments ago Ivan's very existence had made my skin crawl.

Which was the real Ivan?

Nicole's loud cry had pulled me out of my own bubble and to be honest I was incredibly relieved.

"Don't cry" Tasha cooed as she rubbed Nicole's arm

"He was covered in blood! My Colt....he isn't like that, he's always sweet and kind. Ive never seen him like that, is that who I'm really supposed to be with!" Her cries got louder as Tasha and I both tried to cool her down with reassuring words and warm hugs.

After a while she was all cried out and had fallen asleep. Tasha had shortly followed and I tried my best to do the same.

Once I had managed to get rid off all those bad thoughts and poisonous memories I had finally managed to drift off into a partly peaceful slumber.

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The next morning I had woken up feeling drained and low. Looking over to Nicole and Tasha they all wore similar faces, glumness was mixed with fear as of what was going to happen today.

"How you feeling?" I ask

"I'm alright I guess, I'm just a little scared. Ivan and Colt are not going to be pleased" Tasha responded

"If anyone shouldn't be pleased its us....I'm not pleased!" A sudden our burst of anger floods through my body.

"Calm down Rogue....whats the matter" Nicole asked as she got up to comfort me

"Why does this keep happening!!...every time we get somewhere, something like this has to happen!...... Its like no matter what happens we will always end up falling back to square one. Its not meant to be, I can feel it in my bones-" I shout out.

"Don't say that, he's your mate. I'm sure there's a reason to why he was doing those things" Nicole interrupts

"Don't try and justify his actions Nicole! Who's side are you on?!...I'm tired of people always telling me to forget about things as if it never happened ... ive tried but lately things are getting harder to just 'forget'. Everyone is quick to stand up for Ivan, why can't anyone be on my side for once!...... I don't know what to do anymore, it's like I don't even know him, how can he go from sweet and kind to a murderous demon in seconds, to top it off he lied to me. He told me that he had his powers under control and that the dark side wouldn't come out but he looked me dead in the eyes and slit that mans throat! No matter how hard I try I can't forget the things he's done, I can't change what he really is, I can push it to the back of mind but it always manages to slither its way into my brain, it poisons my thoughts. I get it he's my mate and I'm supposed to love him but right now I'm not sure I want to"

I take a deep breath as I try and regain my composure. It feels as if a huge weight has been lifted if my shoulders, it felt good to tell someone but I knew no matter how may people I told, it wouldn't make a difference.

"We are both 100% on your side Rogue, I'm sorry that you feel that way and I wish I could stop you from hurting but I can't. The only person that needs to hear this is Ivan, talk to him" Tasha comforts as she gives me a pitiful smile.

The conversation had finished as I was no longer in the mood to talk anymore. We had all showered and changed, I put on my black ripped jeans from last night and a plain baggy black vest with my converse.

We were now all sat on the bed watching Tv in silence.

Knock knock

We all look at each other with horrified faces, my cool relaxed demeanour had disappeared only to be replaced with anxiety and fear.

"Wh-who is it?" I stutter out

In walks Miss Jones

"Oh it's just you" we all let out a sigh of relief

"Uh Mr Stone, Colt and Lincoln are looking for you three" she mutters in a sheepish tone. A look of sadness and pity was plastered on her face.

"Where are they?" I ask

"They are on their way here" she replies

"What!" Tasha screams out as she jumps to her feet

"I'm going to pass out" Nicole says as she beings to hyperventilate.

"Let's go,come on get up!!" Tasha shouts as she pulls us both to our feet.

"We can't run Tasha they're vampires they'll just catch us and it will only make things worse" I state pulling my arm from her grip

"Ivan was dead calm, Colt and Lincoln not so much" Miss jones added

I felt a lump in my throat as my palms became sweaty. Calm isn't something Ivan tends to be very often, so it really can't be good.

"You know what, I think running is a good idea" I don't have to wait for the girls to follow me as they are only a few steps behind me.

We stumble out the door and down the corridor, making sure to check it was caked to go. We ended up running into a large office like room and hiding there.

"Holy fucking shit!! I'm so freaking scared right now!" Tasha pants as she paces up and down the the room.

"We can't stay in here forever, we need to get out of this side of the house and down the other end" i wheeze as I brush the hair out of my face

"I can't smell them, I think they are almost to my room. Lets wait here then I'll give us the signal and then we can make a run for it"

It has only been a few minutes but the tense atmosphere had made it seem like a few years.

"Alright we can can but we have to be quick" Tasha warns.

I quickly open the door and scan the surroundings, there was no sign of Ivan or his minions so I stepped out.

When I was confident know one was around i reassured the girls it was ok to come out and they did. We moved slowly down the corridor, out senses were alert as we got further away form them.

"Let's go" we jogged down the hall that lead to the other side of the mansion.

We were so close when Nicole let out scream.

"Nicole!" Tasha and I screamed simultaneously.

Colt had appeared from nowhere and grabbed Nicole, trapping her in his arms.

"Go!" She screamed

She didn't have to ask me twice! I turned to run as fast as I could but coming to an immediate stop.

As always there was a large figure blocking my way.

This man was new to me, his eyes were a light brown and his hair was dirty blonde. He was built like the rest of the vampires but not as big and intimidating as Ivan.

"Lincoln?" Tasha called out. He shot her a glare as he looked in her direction.

I took a few steps back to only hit ANOTHER body.

I knew exactly who it was, a menacing growl pierced my ear drum making the hairs on my neck straighten up.

Lincoln moved from in front of me and made his way towards Tasha. Her intake of breath was fearful that I heard it all the way from here.

Go go go I mentally tell myself.

I ready myself to run, pushing off with my right leg and leading with my left.

I didn't get very far, in fact I didn't even move from that spot. As always Ivan was one step ahead of, predicting my next move and preventing me from escaping.

"I dare you" he whispers in my ear

To me it sounded like a challenge I'm never one to back down from one.....until now. I was scared and right now I wasn't going to do anything that could make matters worse.

"Oh Rogue what am I going to do with you" he taunts at he brushes his fingers up and down my arms.

My breathing hitches, goosebumps surface to my skin in a result of Ivan's touch.

"You just never fucking learn!" He shouts

In seconds I was pushed up against the wall, Ivan's hands were roughly placed around my neck. There wasn't enough pressure to cause any physical damage but it was enough to damage me mentally.

Looking up all I see it darkness. His evil eyes remained from last night, black orbs still staring back at me.

Who's in control?

"Ivan" I whimper

"Shut your fucking mouth, whore!" He bellowed causing me to instantly close my mouth.

"You just don't know when to stop do you, what the fuck is your problem. I've been nothing but nice to you lately, yet all you've done is whine and mope about like a spoilt little bitch! What's it going to take for you to learn your place in this house? Do I need to beat it into you because you and me both know that i won't hesitate to put you in your place, I don't care where we are or who's watching I'll knock those pearly whites right out of your mouth. So help me god you better cut the bullshit, your pushing me to far and I'm certain I'm going to end up doing something I'll regret and right now I'm a little worried that I'll enjoy it. Since you came here you've done nothing but get under my skin and to be honest Ive grown very tired of it"

"Then leave!" I shout back

"Leave! This is my fucking house, you go! Crawl back in to whatever hole you came from and stay there. I don't care what you do, you can rot for all I care! You really think that someone like me needs a little lonely orphan like you? As soon as I've had my way with you I'll move on forgetting you ever existed. Lets be honest a mate is the last thing I want, I was only in it for the sex, I heard it's supposed to be out of this world. You'd be surprised what a tight little Virgin pussy will do to a man"

I'm left completely speechless, disbelief is what I was feeling. My heart was actually hurting, his words were so painful each insult was like a dagger in the chest.

The others stood to the side in total shock even Colt and Lincoln had their mouths scraping the floor.

"Look at you, so weak and pathetic. Your parents must be so proud" he begins to say

"Shut up!" I scream

There was no way I was going to let him speak about them, it was unbearable and I wouldn't be able to handle what he said.

"What did I touch a nerve? Oh isn't that cute poor little Rogue still holding onto the few precious memories of her dead parents. Lucky fuckers, at least they don't have to put up with your bullshit. How disappointing for them, their only child is failure who spends her time chasing after a man that will never love her....do us all a favour and join them" he spits out

"Ivan!" Colt shouts out

For the first time in a long time I did something that I promised myself I would never do....i cried.

A tear slipped down my cheek, I quickly brushed it from display and turned my head away.

"Let go of me" I plead, hoping he would just let go.

A few more tears stain my cheeks as i recall his previous words.

"That's enough Ivan"Colt warns

"Come on let her go" Lincoln encourages

Ivan growls once more before letting me drop to the floor. I lay hunched over for a little while before looking up at Ivan.

"You win Ivan.....you really are a heartless monster" I whisper

I stumble to my feet and turn away, ignoring Tasha and Nicole calling my name, I run all the way back to my room, slamming the door and locking it behind me. I collapse onto the bed and curl up into a ball.

My quiet whimpers had turned into loud cries, the more I tried to hold it down the harder I cried.

All I could think off was how much I now despised Ivan, i could never forgive him for what he had done. His words were painful and spiteful.

I tried to push him from my thoughts but it was turning out to be extremely difficult.

I continued to cry and whimper the whole night until I eventually fell asleep.

Nightmares of Ivan and my parents filled my mind as I twisted and turned in my bed.