"Rogue?"

"Tasha" I reply. I went with my gut instinct, Tasha was the only person I want to see right now ,so maybe she an give me a little advice or at least talk some sense into me.

"What are you doing here?" she asks. With a confused yet excited expression.

"I just want to talk to you"

"Aren't you supposed to be with Ivan?"

"Yeah but I just wanted to get some advice, are the rest of the girls here?"

"Only a few the rest are out doing chores" she replies. She steps aside and opened the door letting me in, I follow her to her bedroom and lie down on her bed.

"I know it's probably a stupid question especially after everything that just happened ,but what do you want to talk about ?"

"I just don't know what to do, I can't be someone's mate I haven't even had a proper boyfriend. He told me all these things that a mate is supposed to do, how he's going to have kids with me and then turn me ,it's too much for me" I truthfully reply

"Look Rogue I don't know what to say to you, I don't know what it's like to have a mate , but I've heard so many stories about how spectacular and amazing it is to have someone who would do anything for you"

"But I'm scared Tasha"

"Of love?"

"Of Ivan .....of everything. I don't want to hurt anyone and I especially don't want to get hurt"

"That's part of life, it makes you stronger.As much as I would to sit here and tell you how to solve all your problems, to make all your worries go away but I can't. I know you don't want to hear it but the only person you should be talking to is Ivan"

"No way, he will probably laugh at me"

"No he won't, the only way you're going to overcome this problem is if you sort it out"

"I know" I sigh in frustration, knowing exactly what age has just said was all true.

"If you don't want to talk to Ivan there's always Nicole..." she said with a huge smile on her face.

"I'd rather poke my eyes out" we both laugh at my response.

"Errgh why do bad things always happen to me, why can't you be his mate"

"Oh trust me I feel the exact same way as you and I'm sure that every other girls in this place are thinking the same thing. You should be thankful you get to kiss those mouthwatering Rosie red lips and touch his body. He's so beautiful, I would literally do anything to be his ....oh my god, I envy you so much right now" she said in a dreamy state , whilst fanning herself with her hand.

She plops down on the bed next to me and begins to fake cry.

"I bet his kisses are like like heaven"

"They are" NO!. The words leave my mouth without hesitation and Tasha immediately shoots up to her feet.

"What did you just say!" When I don't reply she jumps on top of me, straddling my waist and pinning my hands down.

"Rogue winters, you better start talking or I'm gonna bite you with my fangs and drink you dry" she responds whilst shining her vicious fangs.

"Ok calm down you psycho, it's not even that important-"

"Rogue!" she cuts of

"We kissed" I quickly reply .

"You kissed IVAN and you didn't tell me!!! ....you little bitch, I want to know everything right now!" she angrily replies

"It was only a couple of times, the first was when we stayed at my house and then on the balcony-"

"Oh my god ,i can't believe you.......what was it like?" her mood quickly changing as her curiosity began to grow.

"I can't explain it"

"Was it a Frenchy?" she asks

"A frenchy?"

"You know a French kiss.......did he stick his tongue in your mouth!" she bluntly says getting annoyed

"Oh no no no , nothing like that, it was just a kiss. You better not tell anyone, especially if you want me to keep you updated."

"Oooo I don't know....it is rather juicy gossip and it could really earn me some authority in the house...." she begins

"Tasha!"

"Ok fine" I playfully push her off me, so I could sit back up.

We continued to talk for the rest of the hour , when we heard the other girls starting to come back.

"Are you gonna stay the night?" Tasha hopefully asked

"No, after hearing what some of the girls had to say , I don't think I can hold my tongue any longer"

"Alright, come see me soon ok ,I want to know what's going on" I nodded my head in agreement before walking over and giving her a hug.

I quickly left the room avoiding eye contact with the other girls.

I slowed down my pace as I started to make my way to Ivan's room. Taking the smallest steps possible, just to avoid going there.

Despite the fact I was walking incredibly slow ,I had reached his room.

This is it, by walking through this door I'm excepting my future. There's no turning back now , it's time to pull myself together and do this.

knock knock

Even thought I'm terrified I seem to be dealing with it exceptionally well. I push my hair back out of my face and tidy up my clothes.

I can hear someone coming and I have to fight the urge of running away. The door opens and there stands Ivan in a tight white long sleeve top and grey tracksuit bottoms.

He doesn't say a word as he walks back to his desk. I gulp down my anxiety and shake off the fear, I walk in the room and close the door behind me.

Unaware of what to do I just stood by the door and twiddled my fingers for entertainment.

The silence felt like forever, Ivan started to put all his files and papers away.

"Where did you go?" he asked. Still focused on clearing away.

The sudden start of the conversation caught me by surprise.

"Errr....um....i went back to speak to Tasha" I stutter.

The silence fell again.

He started to walk over to my direction, out of instinct I took a step to the side. He opened up the door and walked out.

"Come on" he called out. I stepped out the door with hesitance not sure of what we were doing. He stopped and looked back at me, I quickly sped up so I was walking alongside him.

"What are we doing?" I asked in a quiet tone.

"I'm giving you a tour of the place"

"Why?"

"So you know where you're going, there's also places you're not allowed to go alone and places that are forbidden " he replies.

First he briefly shows me around his part of the mansion, it was massive there was a kitchen,lounge,two bathrooms an extra bedroom. It had everything a normal house would have.

Once we had done we made our way to the other areas of the royal side of the mansion.

It took us a whole hour to see the different areas. He showed me the rooms of Paris,Chris,Cyrus and Colt. There were only a few places I wasn't aloud to go ,like the main business room,or the cellars, I also wasn't allowed in the other vampires room unless I was with him.

We were heading back to the room, when a yawn escaped my lips.

"Tired?" he asks

"I guess" I reply

"You can sleep in the spare room" his answer felt like a huge weight had been lifted of my shoulders.

"Ok"

Once we were in the room I collected the stuff I needed before leaving the room.

"Rogue....I'm going out tomorrow , I leave at 10am, you can come if you want to" i hear him suggest

Instead of replying , I walk to the spare room and get ready for bed.