I pulled up in front of Travis' condo ready to turn around and go back home. He had to go to brunch with his family so I just waited until I saw him coming out. I saw on the trunk of my car and waited with my hand on my stomach. The nerves were growing the longer it took, but they reached an all time high once I saw him.

"Micah?" he looked confused "What are you doing here?"

"I need to talk to you. You got a minute?"

"Not really" he sigh frustrated "What is it?"

"It won't take long"

"Speak then!"

I took a deep breath to control the bitch that was brewing in my soul.

"Look Travis, I know you got all this animosity towards me but it's uncalled for. I'm just trying to talk to you about something important"

"I'm giving you time and opportunity. What more do you want?"

"How about you not be an asshole? Or is that too much for you"

"I don't have time for this" he started walking away

"No!" I grabbed his arm "I need to---"

"You know what? I don't want to hear it! I don't fucking care Micah! I'm good, okay? I'm fucking amazing with out you and your bullshit! So stop trying to pull this shit like we have anything to talk about"

I let him go nodding.

"Fuck it then" I stared into his eyes "If you don't care then don't worry about it. You don't ever have to hear from me again. I'm not about to beg you to talk to me. I was trying to be nice and have a civilized conversation but fuck it. You want to be a bitch about it then cool. I'm done trying"

"Thank you!"

"Fuck you!"

I walked to my car and drove off. Nothing about the conversation went as planned but it was nothing I could do about it. The whole drive I was fuming. I finally got to Momma's house and was headed inside, I was ready to kill Travis.

Ralph and Reagan came into the living room when I slammed the door shut. Momma was right behind them and looked worried. I shook my head letting her know I didn't tell him. She immediately gave me a hug knowing something had to be wrong.

"What happen?"

"He didn't want to hear it. He said he didn't fucking care what I had to say"

"What are yall talking about?" Ralph pulled us apart to hug me "What's going on sis"

I sighed looking at ma for help.

"Let's go in the kitchen and talk"

We all went to the kitchen and sat down while momma finished cooking.

"So what's up girl" Reagan asked

"Umm the day I passed out... I know why?"

"What? Why?"

"Umm" I sighed looking down "I am umm I'm four months pregnant"

They were both silent for a minute making me look at them. Reagan's mouth hung open and Ralph looked sympathetic.

"You okay?" he asked

"Yeah"

"Does my brother know?" Reagan asked

"He didn't want to talk to me"

"What?"

"I just left his house. He basically was like he didn't want to talk to me and didn't care what I had to say. He was being so disrespectful about it, I just left"

"You gotta tell him Micah" Reagan looked worried "He just---"

"Look Rae, I know that's your brother... but I'm not about to stress myself out trying to tell him something he doesn't want to hear. All of you know I can't carry babies so" I shrugged "Maybe it's better he doesn't know"

"But what if this time is different"

"I go to the doctor tomorrow to see a specialist... if she says it's different I'll try again"

"I'm sorry Micah" she hugged me "I'll talk to him"

"Nah I've come between yall enough. I'll let him know and if he chooses to still be an ass then cool. I'm not about to worry about your brother... Keith told me to stay stress free until I see the specialist and that's what I'm going to do"

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I hated to admit I've been thinking about Micah since she popped up on me yesterday. We hadn't really spoken since the break up like two months ago so it was fucking with me that she was so pressed to talk then got an attitude.

The truth of the matter was I didn't want to break under the pressure of how much I loved her to just take her back after all that she did to me. I also didn't want to have to explain that I was back where I belonged....

The door opening knocked me out of my thoughts. I looked over at Khari and she leaned over to kiss me. She had been there for me like never before with everything that happen with Micah. It was natural. Even my dad said we may just be meant to be together. I knew Khari and she was exactly what she appeared to be. Good and bad.

"Travis" she broke my trance "Why are you staring at me"

"No reason" I started driving off "Just got lost in my thoughts"

"Thoughts of me?"

"Yeah" I smirked at her "It's crazy that we always end up back here"

"You're the only one that really leaves"

"You've had other niggas Khari"

"I've dated once you broke up with me but I never took anyone serious. I always knew we'd be back together. Travis I love you more than you can understand. I love you enough to let you go some times because I know you'll always come back... because you love me too"

I leaned over and kissed her once we got to the stop light.

"Thanks ma. You've been super patient with me throughout everything we've been through. I've been a jerk to you more times than I can remember but you always got my back"

"And I always will"

We got to my parents how and headed inside. We were all having dinner together and even invited Reagan. She reluctantly agreed but decline the offer to bring Ralph. I knew for him it was probably on sight for me so I wasn't pressed.

When we got inside on Olivia pulled Khari aside and I sat with Tim. He looked surprised to see me and Khari together. Really only my parents and Olivia knew that we got back together last month.

"What's up bro" I dapped him

"Shit" he sighed "What's going on with that"

I shrugged "Same as always"

"Meaning"

"We just work you know"

"So yall fucked?"

"I mean yeah" we both laughed "But last month she was really there for me. We ended up having sex and talking. I just finally realize that Khari is where I'm supposed to be. We always end up back together for a reason"

"You don't think you're just rushing into that because you want to get over Micah"

"I am over her"

"If you say so"

"Look I've been done and she final is too"

"What you mean finally?"

"She tried to talk to me a couple times at first... then it stopped. Then yesterday she popped up at my spot trying to talk again. I told her what it was and she finally got it and left"

"You don't think it may be a reason she wanted to talk"

"What reason? To lie again?"

"Trav---"

"Look, I know you liked her but Micah is Micah. She's never going to change. I doubted it but... after we went to talk to Tiana when I got back... She was with Micah and said it was all true. She's don't got a reason to lie. Hell Micah is her friend"

"I guess"

"Exactly... I just don't want to talk about it anymore"

"I got it"

We both headed into the dinning room where my father was already seated. I hugged him before taking my seat. It wasn't long before Khari joined me. Olivia and my mom brought out the food but just before we could start Reagan knocked. Olivia went to get it and came back with our sister who looked over it already.

Her eyes landed on me and Khari and her unenthusiastic turn to pissed quickly. She went as far as to sit by our dad, which she never did, just to avoid the available seat by me. I shook my head as we stared to converse and eat. Everything was going fine until my mom being her messy self started up with Reagan.

"So Reagan how is life for you?"

"Fine"

"Anything new? Pregnancy? Engagement?"

"Nope"

"A friend of mine at Trav and Liv's old elementary school says they're hiring teacher for next year. You should apply. I'm sure it would be an upgrade"

"Ma" I looked at her

"Thanks Mrs. Barron" Reagan put her fork down "but I love my kids at my school and I'm sure it wouldn't be for me"

"She was only giving a helpful suggestion" Olivia spoke

"I doubt it" Reagan rolled her eyes

"Let's talk about something else" my dad interjected "Anybody else have any news?"

"Well" Khari spoke up "Olivia and I have some news to share"

"What is is baby girl" he looked at Liv

"Well, I haven't been feeling good and Khari convinced me to try something"

She went into her purse and pulled out a picture and handed it to Tim. He's eyes went big and he jumped up.

"We having a baby?!"

"Congratulations Liv" Reagan and I smiled at her

Everyone was looking at me and Reagan's smile dropped. I turned and Khari was handing me an ultrasound too. My mouth dropped and I froze.

"I took a home test with Liv so she wouldn't be scared. I'm only three weeks"

"Are you serious?" I took it and looked at the dot "Like for real"

"Yeah babe. We're going to be a family"

My mother screamed in excitement. She jumped and hugged Khari who was closest the Olivia. I was still in shock just looking at the picture. I looked to my dad for his reaction but he was going after Reagan. I hugged and kissed Khari before following my dad. He caught Reagan at the door and she looked frustrated.

"Just let me go home"

"What's wrong Reagan?"

"Nothing! I'm just--- Look I don't belong here with yall"

"What?" he looked hurt "Baby girl---"

"No! That's Olivia. I'm just Reagan. I don't belong here and I know it. I shouldn't have even come. I knew---Everything in there just reminds me of how much I don't belong. It just keeps happening. It's just--- fuck! Just let me go man"

"Reagan you're not making since right now"

"Rae" I stepped out from behind the stairs "What's wrong?"

"Nothing" she had tears in her eyes "Congratulation bro"

She walked out the door and I followed behind her calling her name. She got in the car and drove off without saying anything. My dad came outside and pulled out his phone. I stood there waiting for her to answer.

"Hello?" a sleepy voice spoke

"Micah" he spoke

I looked at him in shock

"Mr. Barron? What's wrong? Is everything okay?"

"It's Reagan"

"What?" she sounded panic "What happen? Where is she?"

"I don't know. She went into a ramble and got really upset at dinner. Then she just left. Do you know what's going on?"

She sighed "Mr. Barron do you know what day it is?"

"Monday?"

"No Mr. Barron" she sighed again "Think about it... what special day is today"

"I don't know wha--" he stopped and looked sad

"Dad?"

"How could I forget..." he squeeze at his forehead "I didn't---"

"She thought that's why you asked her to come to dinner... I'm guessing it's not"

"We were just having family dinner... I've been busy with work I didn't think... I didn't mean---"

"Mr. Barron, I know how much you love Reagan because of our talks.... and even though she wouldn't want me to say this" she sighed "She doesn't feel that way. She doesn't feel like she's a part of your family. She feels alone. For her, she lost the only parent she's known. Most of the time she still feels like a little girl begging for her father to love her"

"I've tried to talk to her"

"Talking doesn't mean anything for Reagan. It's about what you do. Do something to show her she's not alone. That they meant something to you too.... I'm going to go check on her. I hope it all works out Mr. Barron"

"Thank you Micah"

"Reagan needs it..."

She hung up and my dad shook his head and headed inside. I followed him to his office and waited for an explanation. He was silent as he looked out of his window.

"Dad what's going on? What was Micah talking about?"

"Reagan's mom... she died eight years ago tomorrow and today is her birthday"

"Damn... I didn't know"

"Usually Reagan picks a fight and stays away so that she's not around when the day comes"

"I mean people forget some---"

"But I should've remember!"

He looked at me and for the first time I saw my father crying.

"Dad---"

"I have never forgotten son! Never! Even when Reagan hates me, I send her flowers and a gift with a letter! I make sure she knows I'm here... I fucked up"

"Dad it's going to be okay"

"Reagan really will hate me now"

"She won't dad. It was one time"

"That's all it has to be son! You just don't understand what your sister has been through... and most of the time it's because of me"

He shook his head and left. I went back to the table and everyone had gone back to what they were doing. No one even asked about Reagan. I knew my sister was hurting and it made me feel awful. The rest of the night I couldn't stop thinking about Reagan and my dad.