I stood there nervously, waiting for Jisoo and her father to come down. She just ended it with me over text. Well, I don't know if she wanted to or not.

It didn't seem real.

I know she loves me.

So I know she'll be willing to take me back.

She came down, her head facing down. Her father walked behind her. She looked sad and cold. She looked hungry too.

"Jisoo..." I tried to go up to her but she moved away. "What's wrong?"

"Chae, we're done." She said coldly. "Why are you here? I already told you we're done. I even blocked you."

I couldn't say anything.

I guess she didn't want me back.

My mouth was open but I couldn't find the words to say. My heart just shattered. My mind is going on circles.

"What did I do wrong?"

I spent the night drinking at the bar with Lisa. She told me to drink less but I can't help it. It's the only thing that's going to numb the pain. "More!" My mind is intoxicated.

I can't even think about anything but the pain she put me in.

"Chae." She took the bottle off of me. "Jennie will kill me if you drink so much."

"I don't care!" I snatched my bottle back. "Let me drink! I need this. I deserve this. She was a bitch. I deserve better!"

Lisa chuckled slightly, finally giving in and letting me drink. "Yeah. She did you dirty."

"Hey, Lisa."

"Hm?"

"Tell her I don't need her! Tell her she's an absolute bitch! Tell her... I don't need her fake love! Why did she break up with me if she 'loved' me!?"

That was a lie.

I need her.

I need her more than I need food.

Why did she actually break up with me?

I know she loves me.

Why did she do that?

Why is she hurting me?

I was good to her.

Yes, I had flaws but everyone does.

I made it up to her.

Did she just want sex and then wanted to ditch me when I wanted something serious?

Gosh, I hate her. I hate her so fucking much.

But I love her...

She's my everything..

I slapped myself,

How dare I say that I hate her.

I slowly got up, groaning at the headache I had. Maybe I shouldn't have drunk that much.

"How do you feel?" Jennie came in.

That's when I realised I want in my own house. Lisa must've brought me to Jennie's. "I'm sorry, " She looked down.

"It isn't your fault, Jen." She sat down on the bed with me and sighed. "It isn't your fault. She's your cousin, but you can't change her mind." I brought her in my arms.

Aren't I meant to be the one that's getting comforted? Oh well. As long as she doesn't beat herself up. I'm fine.

"She didn't tell me anything. I'm so sorry." She said in a low tone. "She was really happy with you. I didn't think she'd end it."

"Neither, " I chuckled painfully. "But it's done now. And if she wants me back, I'll give her another chance. However, I think she's made up her mind."

"Hopefully she comes to her senses and realises what she has lost." I smiled at her.

"I hope so."

"Anyways. I bought you some soup." Jennie opened the box. "It should help with the hangover, " She blew on the spoon and fed me.

She looked sad.

More disappointed.

I guess she feels pity on me.

I just have to show her I'm fine.

I am fine, right?