3 months later:

"larib get up you have to eat ."grandma said to me .

"grandma i am not hungry please i just want to sleep ."

"but .."

"just turn off the lights on your way out "

i know i was mean but i don,t want to talk to anyone . i heared she left but i know someone was here .

i know he is here . he said something to.grandma and came inside and closed the door behind him.

he sat by my side but i still didn,t turn towards him.

" for how long will you lock yourself in this room and would not eat ." i still didn,t said anything .

"jan you said to me not to lose hope yet you are losing hope and look at your dark circles .

he turned me around to him .

"don,t give me silent treatment , she is not only your child but mine too and if you are killing yourself with her then also pray i die too because i can,t live without my girls.""

"stop it zayn don,t talk about death... please."

"i will beacuse you are not listening to me , not talking to me .... i am so alone ... why can,t you see it ...i am trying to safe my girls but one's health is in Allah's hand and other is killing her self by her own."

"i am not killing my self ... but i don,t want to live .... my child can,t live so why should i and for whom ". i said with tears.

"aren,t i anything to you ... don,t you care for me ... ".

"zayn please.."

"no please baby .. beacuse its been month and enough is enough.... you told me if Allah wants to take someone we can,t do anything , beacuse we are his people we have to go to him then why are you like this ha .... if her time is up we can,t do anything. and we have to take a decision larib ... she is alive due to those machines for months but for how long .... isn,t death better for her."

"don,t say like that zayn please don,t ".

"but its the truth look larib for you i have called 5th doctor ,he is from paris and he is one of the best if his answer is the same we have to let her ..... ".

i started crying

"please zayn don,t ."

"she is also my baby and losing her kills me but i can,t see her be attach to the machine for her entire life .it will be selfish of us jan to do this to her .she deserve peace ."

i hugged him to me and cried and let out alll the pain and frustration that was in me since that day in hospital. after that day i didn,t said anything or even cried .but that bomb had to explode and it did today .

" ... it hurts.... zayn .... it hurts..... " i was holding him so tight to me ..

"shhh .. jan take deep breath ...."..

he rubbed my back .and consoled me.

"why it happened to us zayn ... why it happened to us . why our child is not becoming healthy " i could not control my sobs.

"Allah knows his planning best larib you were one who told me this , just hope for good..... "

he kissed my forhead .

"come on get up and.offer your prayer and pray for your daughter health in sha allah Allah will listen to us .".

he made me get up and i did my abulation and offered my prayer .

i asked for my daughter health , that is the only thing i want .

zayn made me eat food but i couldnot eat much .My eyes were red due to crying .When i look at zayn , i don,t understand how he is so strong ., even though we will shut down the machine in few hours but still he haven,t lost the hope he is still hoping when we all have lost hopes .

i even packed all my baby clothes and stuff from my room it hurts alot , it feels like my heart is gonna explode any second .

looking at these things shakes me alot , i lost her. , after everything i lost her .

i was crying with the dress of my baby in my hand .

"larib we have to ....." zayn stopped in the mid when he found me .

he came to me and held me to him.

"zayn.... i don,t want to please ... kill me instead but don,t let me do it please.". he wants me to go and see her last time and shut down her machine.

"please don,t make me do it ."...

"larib please try to understand ..and first we have to see the doctor ... just hope Allah do his miracle."

i cried for while and held him close to me . after sometime we left for hospital.

ZAYN /XAVIER pov :

i know its hard but we have to do it we can,t be selfish but i still hope for a miracle , till i shut it down i am hoping Allah will do something .

larib and everyone had lost hope and i am so close to losing but something in me didn,t want to lose hope , i had to prepare larib beacuse she is in denail but i have a feeling she will be saved .

that is only way i called the 5th doctor , even though everyone said the same thing . but i have to .

i offerd istikhara and after that my heart told me to call this one doctor who is very best in his work before taking down the machine.

larib is so sacred and she doesn,t want to let her go but which parent would want that.

we reached here and went to the doctor office larib was holding me so tight .

uncle was with us .we went inside the office .

"welcome mr and mrs zayn please sit down ."

i also greeted him. and sat down .

larib was silently crying .

"mrs zayn i know its difficult but you are doing it for your daughter peace.she will be in peace. ". he told her .

"doctor before we talk about that the doctor who was called from paris to check my daughter whats his report ".

"mr zayn you told us to wait till today and we did , that report is still not given it means one thing that he also have some report if their was any chance he would have contacted us ."

" but still i will wait for his report than i would take my decision ".

"ok very well then we will wait for few hours .".

time passed and we were still waiting .our family also came because if the report say the same thing so we have to let her go .

everyone is meeting her for the last time .larib also went but i don,t want to say bye to her not atleast now.

the doctor was recommended to me by someone really loyal to me. i had consulted him and i am waiting what he will say .

i was waiting in his office .

the door opened and he came inside talking on his phone with someone.

"ok thank you i will talk to you later "he ended the call.

"hello king how are you ?".

"don,t call me king i am zayn ."

he was susan father we came to know about him few months ago , he wanted to have her back and i was no one to stop him although susan work for me but she now live with him., he was doctor and not any doctor he was very famous doctor he was in paris but when he came to know about susan he shifted here .

susan and he went away on vacation after zoobia birth .after what happened susan didn,t know she just returned few days back and when she knew she told me how her father is famous for his work and how best he is . so i consulted him.

"whats the report mr andreson ".

"we should sit down ."

"please tell me ".

"look king... sorry mr zayn ,your daugther was born premature and due to that her body was weak and her lungs are not supporting her so doctor is using machine to keep her alive .".

"come to the point mr anderson ."

"we might find a way but we are not sure if it works ".

"what is it .?".

"we have to operate her and it will be 8 hours operation and after that we would see if her lungs work on her own ,we hope so it does but we are not sure .".

"is this the only way ."

"yes ".

"ok then do it as soon as it possible ".

"but mr zayn it will be too expensive ".

"Don,t worry about that i will pay no matter what ."

"but their is no surety".

"i am ready to take this chance ."

i left the office and told larib and everyone about it .their was new hope rose in them ,lets hope it works

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everyone is praying grandpa is in masjid and grandma is also reciting quran , justin is comforting susan and larib is sitting lost in her thougts.

hours passed by doctor came out and then again went in . we could do nothing but just wait and pray .

noone talk , justin offered tea but i refused , susan tried her best to make larib eat something but she didn,t wanted to eat anything.

after so long at last the icu light turned off and the doctor came out .

larib and me.both stood up .

before we could say anything .

"congratulation mr and mrs.zayn the operation was successful .your daugther is safe now.".

larib let a cry out but i knew it was a cry of relief .

"shukar ya Allah "i said out loud and held larib to me .

"she is fine now jan Allah listen to us ."

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"lets go my baby today you are going your home " the baby started crying .

"shhhh why my doll is crying don,t you wanna go home .".

"she wants to go home but she is hungry . give her to me.so i can feed her " i said to.zayn.

"ohh ok here take her ,justin has almost placed everything in the car , lets feed her then i will take my girls to home .its been a month i haven,t had you both in our house .

"fine give me few minutes then we would leave and i am also tired of this hospital it was so hard to spend one month far from you and home."

yes i have to be with my baby because she needed me and she could not leave the hospital because the doctor kept her under obervation for month .

but today we will take her .

we reached home and it was decorated with balloons.

zayn opened the door and we went out . zayn held her bags and i held her.

everyone was standing in the door waiting for us it was the same secne when for the first time i came here .

they all hugged me and kissed zoobia .

a big welcome was written on the door .

"comeon bhabi lets make our niece lay in her crib she already spend months in hospital.".

they brought a beautiful crib it was so well decorated and layed her in it . grandma recited duas on her and all the elder made a dua for her better future and health

zayn called azan in her ear and that was the best moment .

they were my happiness .

these three months were the hardest of my life but it brought my zayn more close to his creator.

i was near to doubt my iman but he didn,t budge not even for a second.

i have seen the change in him . he was regularly praying and that too in masjid and he also started reading quran again and now he can recite it but still their are some mistakes but with the help of grandpa he corrects it .

indeed Allah is the one to bring the person on the right path . Only if we look for it he will guide us.

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