XAVIOR POV

we were driving for an hour now .larib was sleeping .....i assume she is tired .

i can,t believe we are married now witheveryone consent.

i looked towrds her .

you are the best thing that happened to me, if you haven,t fallen in love with me i don,t know what would i have done .But i am thankful that you loved me.i promise i will safe you now no one can take you away from me no one not even god.

when i saw her in the bridal dress today only i know how i controlled my self .In the begining i was against this idea of us geting married again, we were married and thats it , but ...now after marrying her properly i came to know that how important it was .Although it was a simple wedding because we both wanted it but still our relatives did what they could but i am happy they did not take it to extreme level sometime decent things are really beautiful .

their were no any dance competition etc because grandpa and larib didn,t wanted, nor did i it is something not for our cultures ,i may be really liberal but the thought of, that my wife dancing infront of other men even though they are family is not accepted by me and similarly me dancing infront of girls is not acceptable to her .

she is sleeping since i started driving and by god she look like an angel .i cannot take my eyes away from her. i took a separate mansion here for my self their was two reason .

one i want to spend some time alone with her and second after i came to know about zeeshan i want to protect her but having gurads in dada mansion will make him suspicious and i could not do my work easily .

i brought my gang memebers here because zeeshan is here even though till now he didn,t attempted anything but i know he is planning something , there is this uneasy feeling inside me from few days and the sleepless night is not making it any easier.

their is something i am thinking about but i haven,t said anything to anyone about it .

but for the first time i want to do something just for me, uncle was right i have to think just about myself sometime .

"i want to leave mafia behind and want to live here with my beautiful wife and soon with our 2or3.kids .i wanna have a normal life where i will come back from work to my wife and she will be cooking dinner for us and my kids running around in the house and on my arrival they will run up to me and i will hug them and then would make them sit on my lap and give them food with my hands. what i don,t had as a kid i want my kids to have it..... a nice beautiful family .

but i don,t want her to know about it now after our reception and i take care of zeeshan i will tell her about it and everyone else that i wanna live here in dubai permenantly .

till then no one is going to know about it.

we reached the new home which was heavily guarded by my men ,they opened the gate for us .

i parked the car infront of the door and moved towrds larib i careesed her cheek wih my thumb .

"hmm did we reach ?" she slowly opened her eyes.

"yes jan lets go " i moved out of the car and went towrds her and opened the door .

she slowly came out beacuse of her heavey dress i held her dress and helped her out.

"thank you " she slowly said .

"its my pleasure beautiful wife " i kissed the back of her hand .

she gave me a sweet smile

"welcome to your new home ... do you like it ."

"its really beautiful " she said looking at the mansion .

"hope you like the inside too .. " i held her hand and went towrds the door.

as i opened the door their was too dark inside.

"someone switched off the light let me open it ." i said to her and try to go inside when.

"SUPRISE "

"you have got to be kidding me " i said looking at my sisters and cousins.

"welcome guys .. what did you thought we will leave you like this , there are somethings you have to do before we leave you alone ." amna said and all guys and girls shook their heads confirming to her .

"ofcourse not !how can i think you will let me be happy "larib nudged me on my comment, she raised her eyebrows.

"you know guys having a separate home and bringing my wife here means i want to be alone with her ." i said with crossed arms .

"well we know don,t be so rude there are some rituals we will do that ,then we will leave ." amna said .

"bhabi lets come inside " they took her in ......well i moved inside alone.

"i also got married no one is telling me to come in..." i said annoyed .

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when i saw them all i was so happy but xavier was not .They took me inside , and my jaw dropped it was so beautiful and let me tell you comfy .

they made me sit on the sofa and the girls came .

"bhabi leta begin the rituals so we go back or zayn bhi will eat us " maria said and they all laughed .

"first you have to read few verses of quran " they opened the quran for me.

i read the veses of quran and kissed the quran .

they then showed me the picture of amna son . well it was a rasom that if i see beautiful baby i would have beautiful babies . i don,t believe in these things but for them i did it.

after some other rituals the girls took me to the room .on my way up i saw the stairs were decorated with candles and rose petals it look so beautiful.

on my way to the room i saw that all the way to the room was decorated in the same way . when they opnend the bedroom door it was also decorated it looked so beautiful.

they helped me to sit on the bed.

"maria you guys go i will come down in a bit ok and ask zayn bhi if he needs anything .

they all left leaving me alone with my sister in law .

"bhabi be comfortable ok if you need anything just give us a call ".

i nodded at her .

"bhabi ... i know you love bhi but .. honestly i have never saw him this happy ....he is living again and having smile which vanished away when mom left usa and dad took him away please be always with him i know you are the only one becuase of whom he changed that much .....bhabi please never leave him no matter what " aman said and clean the tears from her eyes .

"don,t worry with Allah will inshallah everything will be fine ." i said to her .

"inshallah ... you should rest i will call bhi and yeah tomorrow we will send the breakfast ... and at night you guys have to come for dinner . "

"ok ." i said to her .

"allah hafiz and congratulations " .she said and kissed my forhead .

"thank you " .

aman left me and i think everyone else left for home because i heared the cars engines .

i have been waiting from 10 mintues now .

" where is he ?"

like if he heared me the same time the room door opened when i looked up .xavier came inside .

he came and sat infront of me . i looked up to him but then quickly look down due to his intense stair.

"you are looking really beautiful my jan " he took my hands in his and kissed the back of it .

"thank you " i said and blushed .

"so .. atlast we are alone " he said .

"you can look up you know i am not that bad looking ".he put his hand under my chin raised my face.

i looked up in to his beautiful eyes.

"you have no idea how lucky i am larib ! when i saw you it was the first time that i was speechless, i didn,t know what to say ... i wanted to forgot you but i couldn,t and i knew their is something in you that is not letting me forget you "

"what was it " i said after a while .

"you .. it was you , the way you talk ,the way you help people , everything of you made me mad about you . how inncocent you were i wanted to make you mine ... but when i took you with me and spend those months with you i knew i wanted your love ..you made my life complete larib. ....when i was angry i would only be calm with you "

"xavier why you love me .....i am not that beautiful nor i have a figure like models that you fall for me.

"

he put his hand on my cheek

"you are beautiful for me in every way and your this heart and your caring nature is the thing that made me fall for you so badly."

he try to come close to me

"hmmm i need to change its heavey can i "

"ofcourse " i quickly got up and went to the mirror .

i was removing the duppata and opening my hair but due to xavier intense stare my hands were trembleing .

"let me help you " he came and started removing the pins after a while when all jwellery were set aside he kissed my neck and said.

"you are really beautiful my jan "

he held my waist closely and moved the dress.alittle down from my shoulders so my shoulders were bare to him and started kissing my neck .i was loving it but i was scared .

a tear left my eye and he noticed it .

"baby why are you crying " he moved me around to him and held my face .

"baby is something wrong "

"no ... i ... am tired " i lied how i tell him i am scared .

"so..rry i didn,t mean.." you should go and.change "

"hmmm yes but we have to pray two nafal togther "

"ok whatever makes you happy " he smiled to me and placed a prayer mat .

"won,t you pray with me "

"no i don,t believe in these things but you do it .. i will sit by you "

"but " i wanted to argue but i stopped .

"i went and stood on the mat but i was feeling incomplete." so i try my luck again .

"please. .. for me do it then i want to say something to you " i confessed to him.

he. looked at me but then went to washroom . after few mintues he came out wih rolled sleeves .

a smile came on my face , he stood before me and started the prayer . i offered after him .

when we finished i was looking at his back and tears came in my eyes i would give everything to see such a view.

he sitting infront of me praying having prayer cap on his head .

i raised my hand and prayed to allah for our better future for bringing him on the right path .

when i looked up he was stirring at me it was like dejavu but this time he was also praying .

"whats bothering you ?" he said to me .

i looked at him but i was not shocked because by now how easy it is for him to read me.

"i ..... mmmm.. i am scared zayn "i confessed

he kept sitting on his place and was reading me .

"from what ?"

i looked at him and let my fears out.

"i... i want to be with you zayn....i ...i want to be yours... completely but ...i am sacred...scared what if you don,t love me after this ... what if we start fighing like everyone else ..... and ....."

"and ?" he said .

"and i am scared of my future children zayn ... i don,t want to bring... them to this life ...what if they ....."

"turn out to be like me being in mafia and not accepting their creator"

how did he know .

"i ... " i want to say something but what should i say .

"i told you before larib i never chose this life i was brought to it ...and i will never want my kids have it .... i love you for you and after tonight we will only become more close ,not far .... i just want you trust me..... i .... am gonna leave this world behind and was thinking to live in this house with you and our future kids happily and leave the bad world behind larib ... but ... "

"but ?"

"i need to take care of something first "

"what you wanna take care of ."

"you don,thave to worry about it, something that i can,t take care of if i leave this life behind...... but ... larib i want your trust ... i want you to trust me and believe in my love beacuse i am tired of proving it to you again and again"

he held my hand in his .

"i love you and always will no matter what. ...i am ready to wait for you but this means nothing if you don,t trust me.... when you trust me then we can take the next step in our relation ." he kissed my head and move towrds the bed.

what i am doing he had proved so many times. his love for me..why i am scared ,everyone is not wrong ,for us i have to give him chance allah has brought us here so it means something .

i came out of thoughts and looked at the bed he was lying on his side i know , he was upset but he didn,t want to show it .

i closed my eyes for a bit and i got my answer.

i moved up from the ground and went to my wardrobe . i picked up the bag which was gifted to me by maria .

i went inside the washroom and changed in to the red nightgown .

it was really beautiful and comfortable for me .

i combed my hair left them open and put some spray on my self.

i came out and zayn back was towrds me.

i switched off the lights and the only light in the room was of the candles .

he looked up when he sened my presence near the bed .

after observing my apperanece he sat up in the bed .

"i..... i want you , to remove this fear from....me .... i want you ... to make me ... believe ... nothing changes after it ... you .will .. love me even when you... get ... my body.." i said with trembleing voice.

he got up from the bed and held me by my waist .close to him

"i will love you no matter what jan because i love your soul. "he said looking in my eyes.

"thats why if you are not ready i will not force ..." i put my hand on his lips.

"

i hugged him tight .

"i want to be yours zayn ..please. remove this fear from me ...i love you more than anything .

"he removed me from him and looked in my eyes and next second he kissed me i tasted his rough lips on my lips .

he took me to bed not breaking the kiss .

" i love you and i will show you how much i love you and i promise you, you will be the one starting this next time." he smirked .

he put the blanket on us and he was right he showed me how much he loved me .. in the starting i was scared and my body was stiff but he made me realize i was stupid to think like that .Even in those intense moments he cared for me and again and agian asked if i am ok .he showed me this was pure love not a bit of lust.

my body responded to him and also showed him how much i love him and want him .

whole night only our creator knows how much love he showed me and he made me women that night.

i was his, only zayn albert thomson and no one can apart us because we have become one.