I kept hitting and punching the wall till my knuckles bruised.

How could I do that?! How could I hurt my Naila?! I almost killed her..... I hurted her ..... I'm a monster.....she was scared of me..... why just WHY?!

I sank down on my knees fisting my hair with my hands and crying. For that moment when she touched me, the way she kissed me....I thought it was..... Her! That monster has ruined me completely. I'm not only hurting myself but I'm hurting my Naila too.

As long as she's with me she'll suffer endlessly.

I have to save her from this misery....

I have to save her from me.....

I have to go away from her.

Naila please forgive me........ please....

I broke down crying in my hands.

My eyes are all puffy by crying all night. The hate and fear in his eyes at that moment.....Ya Allah....

I really thought I would die and it scared me soo much.

"Die you wench! I'll kill you today..... I'll kill you for ruining my life!"

He thought I was her didn't he? Because of me he had to remember that horrid night. He had to go through that pain. My pain is nothing compared to his. He has been suffering soo much....oh God! My poor Kaif....

I took a shower and prayed Fajr. There were his finger prints on my neck. I wrapped a dupatta around my neck leaving both the sides hanging down my chest. I knocked at his bedroom door but there was no response. I can say he wasn't sleeping....he was avoiding me. I decided to give him some space. I couldn't sleep so I sat in my room reciting Quran. Maybe I could get an answer or a solution to this problem.

###

He had already left when I came out. I sighed giving up. I casually went to collect his clothes for laundry when my eyes went on the wall adjacent to the door. My hands flew to my mouth. There were slight drops of blood on the wall and the paint was slightly chipped too.

Did he hurt himself? No.

He has created an impenetrable wall around him for soo long.

The scars on our bodies have faded long ago but the once engraved on our souls are still there, and we are both trying to erase them off of eachother. I know it would take time....but there's always a beginning.

I had to do something. He's suffering I know. He's blaming himself for hurting me. I can't let him do that. I know he loves me ...he didn't mean to hurt me. It's just that..... he's to broken and I want to fix him..... I want to save my Kaif.....and I will.

###

Mr Arnav was working in his cabin. I knocked the door. He looked up and smiled up me leaving his seat to welcome me.

"Oh bhabhi. What a pleasant surprise! Please come in."

"Hi Mr Arnav. How are you?"

"I'm good. How are you? I couldn't even come to meet you after that incident." He said guiltily.

"It's alright. I'm fine now. Your good intentions reached me before you." I said smiling.

"That's good atleast."

"Btw Mr Arnav, does your boss have a heavy schedule today. I want to take him out on a date all day."

"Aww, how sweet of you Bhabhi, but I'm afraid, today isn't the day you could go on a date. His schedule is so tight that there's no way I can slip you in even for a few minutes. The meeting is coming soon so we have a lot of work to do. We even have to submit the annual reports and I'm dying of overwork." He said exhausted.

I felt bad for him but I really had no choice.

"Mr Arnav..... please. Can't you do me this favor? Can't you empty his schedule just for today? Keep him here till midnight tomorrow if you want but please.....just for today. Won't you do this for your dear sister?" I tried to be as cute as I could.

He sighed heavily.

"If you emotional blackmail me like that do I have any other choice?"

I grinned from ear to ear.

"Thank you soo much Mr Arnav. You're the best!"

He sank on the table dramatically.

"I'll have to make a lot of calls now." He wiped his invisible tears pouting.

"For you.... I'll do it Bhabhi, but in exchange.....can you talk to boss about giving me a raise and a promotion when he's chairman?" He acted cute now.

I gave him a thumbs up.

"You've got it."

"Thank you Bhabhi. I worship you!" He bowed in the filmy way with both his hands up. I giggled.

Desai entered my cabin as I had busied myself in work.

"Boss, you have a very important appointment right now." He said.

"Appointment? I don't remember anything like that." I said.

"Oh here it is.... tada!" He said dramatically gesturing at the door. I watched him with a raised eyebrow.

"Hello Mr Alam. You're appointment for all day is here."

Naila said walking in with a bright smile on her face. I had to swallow a lump in my throat seeing her.

She walked towards me never leaving eye contact and stretched her hand in front of me.

"Kya is naacheez k saath date pe jaana pasand karenge aap Jahapana?" She said.

(Would you like to go on a date with this nobody your majesty?)

I just kept looking at her lost for words. Just last night I hurted her and instead of looking at me with fear or anger she's looking at me with an ocean of love in her eyes.

"My hands starting to hurt." She joked.

"I'll leave you 2 love birds alone." Desai said and left closing the door behind him.

"Naila..." My voice broke. She leaned down keeping a finger on my lips.

"I'm fine. It's alright. I'm not mad at you I can never be. I love you and I know you love me. That's all that matters to me. Just being by your side is enough for me. Sure it will take time for us to get intimate.....so what? We have all the time in the world. I'll wait for you.... I'll be right here for you." She said.

"What if I hurt you again?" I said getting off my chair walking away from her.

"Then I'll step back and wait for you to calm down, then I'll hold you again....like this." She said walking in front of me and hugged me.

"Just like this Kaif.... because I believe in you and my belief in our marriage that the Lord above tied us in and the love he blessed us with....is more than enough for both of us. As long as your by my side.... it's enough for me." She said and lifted both my hands in her looking at the bruised knuckles with a painful express.

"So don't hurt yourself anymore. It will hurt me more." She looked up with moist eyes.

I held her tight digging my face in her neck as my tears soaked in her scarf.

"Thankyou Naila..... thanku soo much."

###

We are at the Muhammad Ali Road khaw gali (food street). It's hella crowded. This girl just loves to eat. Although the smell and the looks of all the delicacies was making me kinda hungry too.

"Wow! I'm in love. What should we start with?" She said with excitement.

I thought for a while.

"It is lunch time for now so a full course meal maybe?" I said.

"Yes Boss! Oh and for making up for last night....your paying for everything." She warned me pointing a finger at me.

I kissed the tip of her finger.

"As you wish your highness!" She giggled and we walked towards a restaurant hand in hand.

After a hearty meal we went along walking through the streets. She was busy shopping for silly little things and taking a painful amount of selfies and pictures.... making memories she said.

This girl is really something else. I can buy the world for her at just a word from her yet she never asks for anything. No jewelry, no cars, no experience clothes, nothing. She all smiles and laughter when she's with me, just wants to spend time with me like I'm the most important thing in her life. She's the wife of the CEO and future Director of Alam group for God sake. She should be more uptight and spoilt but look at her buying cheap earring from the streets and eating in tiny restaurants.

My Naila is really an antique piece. I laughed at my own thoughts.

"You look happy!" She said holding my arm and looking up at me.

"I am." Putting my arm around her waist. "It's been soo long since I've been here."

She halted in her steps in fron of me.

"You've been here before?" She gave a shocked expression. I pulled her cheek at her cuteness.

"Ofcourse, what do you take me for?"

"A overly spoilt rich bratty heir of the infamous Alam group?"

I chuckled and started walking again. She followed beside me.

"I used to come here a lot with my friends when we were in school. It was our favourite place to hang out. Then college started, everyone parted ways, we became career oriented and at last business rivals."

"Oh. Life is tough for you rich heirs isn't it?" She said thoughtfully.

"Hmm. But if we're lucky enough me get to fall in love with beauties like you." I smiled.

"What beauties? Beauty! Singular. I'll be your only wife till the day you die. Got it!" She said a bit heatedly.

I pretended to think.

"Huh? You need to think on it?!"

"Yeah ofcourse, I mean who could bear to spend his whole life with a sassy girl like you. I need to pounder hard on this decision." I mocked her.

"You!" She started throwing punches at my chest and arm. Ow, she's strong. I pulled her in my arms tightly stopping her.

"You big meany." She muttered pouting. I chuckled. "I love you Jaan."

"I hate you." She said and giggled shyly. People were watching us. Like I cared.

"Let me take you to my favourite kebab stall. I hope it's still there." He said grabbing my hand and walked ahead. I just watched him in awe. Who knew he could be this cheerful? He had a whole different life before huh? Don't worry love, I'll bring back that smile back on your face soon. Just wait.

###

We went on a long drive after eating all the kebabs we could and bringing back with us which we couldn't.

"Let's go on a picnic soon." I said enjoying the cool evening breeze through the window.

"Where I'm taking you can be a perfect place for your picnic." He said holding my hand.

"I'm soo excited!" I giggled giving his hand a squeeze.

"A private beach!" I exclaimed loudly looking at the beautiful ocean in front of me as the white sand kissed my feet through my sandles.

"We had bought it just before I went to US. No one comes here much." He said with sadness in his eyes.

"We are here." I said distracting him. He smiled.

"Let's go. Take of your shoes." I said taking off my sandles.

"If no one comes her much and it's private then we can do anything right?"

He started taking off his coat, watch, shoes and socks and wallet and pulling up his pants at knee length. I thought it was too sexy to see him do that.

"I don't see why we cannot." He said.

I giggled pulling my leggings up and ran towards the water. I ran back as the water was about to touch my feet.

"Come on already." He lifted me off my feet on his arm. I gave a peck on his cheek as he blushed walking towards the water. Thankfully he didn't throw me in. We jumped and splashed water at eachother laughing and playing like kids.

My heart ached with joy seeing him soo happy and carefree.

Finally we rested on the car's bonet enjoying at the beautiful sunset.

"SubhanAllah! Allah has made our world soo beautiful." I said closing my eyes and listening to the waves crashing. "It's soo serene." I breathed.

He pushed back the hair that was flying in my face. I looked at him and smiled. He looked breathtakingly glorious in his partly wet shirt, his face shining in the orange lights of the sunset.

"He has made you more beautiful than this sunset." He said leaning into a kiss. I closed my eyes kissing him back.

I leaned my back on his chest watching the sun disappear in the ocean slowly, listening to his heartbeat as he played with my hair wrapping his arms around me, kissing my head at times.

This was my haven.

###

He laughed at my duck face as I stuffed the overly huge pani puri in my mouth at the street side stall. I fed him a couple of those and it was my turn to laugh.

We came back home after enjoying another round of street delicacies ofcourse and I sank on the bed like a starfish.

"I'm exhausted! What a great day!" I groaned.

He sank beside me.

"I'm even more exhausted! I did all the driving....and the paying."

"Ji Jahapana! Aap ka bohot bohot shukriya is naacheez ka khayal rekhne k liye." (Yes your majesty! Thank you soo soo much for taking care of this nobody.) I said dramatically.

I could hardly keep my eyes open and I needed to change my dirty clothes and freshn'up.

"Let's go swimming in the ocean sometime. I wanna wear a bikini." I bit my lip amused.

He sat up startled.

"Seriously?"

I nodded acting serious.

"Yeah, you said it's a private beach right. I always wanted to wear a bikini like those actresses and models on TV. What do you think?"

He gave me a big thumbs up excitedly. I giggled.

"Let's go shopping for it then....but not tomorrow. I've promised you to Mr Arnav. You have a lot of overtime to do." I said straight.

He made a face.

"You monster. Getting a man excited like that and then...."

I giggled.

I went in front of the mirror to take off my jewelry and open the zip of my dress which was stuck badly.

"Um....a little help Kaif?"

"Coming."

He strode towards me and helped me pull it down. His fingers travelled on my open back making me flinch and crave for his touch. Our eyes met in the mirror reflecting the same emotions.

He slowly pushed down one shoulder of my top placing gentle kisses on my bare skin making me close my eyes at the feel. The strap of my bra coming in between his lips. He gently pushed it down too nibbling there making me moan.

"Kaif!" I whispered his name desperately.

He removed the dupatta wrapped around my neck, his hands sliding down over my breast and stomach making me shiver.

His lips stopped at the side of my neck and all of a sudden his warmth was gone.

"What's wrong?" I said frowning. He had walked away turning his back at me. I lifted my hand to touch his shoulder.

"It's a bad idea Naila. You should stay away from me. We.... can't be." He said.

"Kaif ..." I tried to turn him towards me but he shoved my arm.

"I'll hurt you again Naila! I can't bear to do that again.... I can't bear to see you suffer. Please...." His voice broke.

"I believe in you Kaif....you won't hu...."

"Look at what I've done to you Naila!" He turned towards me frustrated and touched the side of my neck with shaking fingers at the marks

"Like a monster... I..." He sighed.

"I don't deserve to be loved."

He stormed out of the room, I ran after him and hugged him from behind letting my tears on his back.

"Don't ever say that. You deserve all the love in the world. Do you know how lucky I am to have you? You're my whole world Kaif, when everyone abandoned me....you stood by me, you held my hand....you loved me. You think I can't suffer a bit for you. I would even die for you if I have too. So please....

Don't give up on us Kaif..... I beg you. Even if you hurt me by mistake I'll take it all, but if you walk away from me like this.... I'll break, my love. Please..... don't break me.... don't end our love.... I need you Kaif..... I love you...." I cried.

He unwrapped my arms from his waist and turned around with tears in his eyes, then cupped my face gently kissing me......