It was cold. Very cold.

After telling Harry to go back to school to find Draco, Y/n apparated to Godric's Hollow.

She landed with a hard thud on some snow. Immediately she could feel her skin burn from the bitter cold winds, and the snow underneath her jacket was seeping through. She stood up and brushed the snow off her coat, scarf and bobble hat.

It was difficult to see with it being so dark, but she could make out a row of houses in the distance. Dimly lit orange street lights flickered, giving a small amount of light. Snow was fluttering down, not too heavy.

Y/n closed her eyes and tried to steady her racing heart. There was no noise whatsoever, just the crunching noise of snow beneath her boots. She decided to walk down the path that was up to her ankles in snow, trying to find where it all happened.

She brushed the snow off the branches as she walked past, mesmerised by it. Y/n didn't often see snow, she was never allowed to go play out in it her Father would say. Instead, she'd sit on her window sill and watch, imagining what it would feel like.

After the snow had started to turn into sludge at the end of the road, she saw a house. It wasn't an ordinary house, it was smaller than the mansion by a mile, but it looked...unordinary.

It was white, with wooden frames. The windows had an old fashioned pattern on them. It was dirty and run down, covered in soot and the house itself was slanted. Y/n definitely didn't recognise it, she knew she'd never been before.

When she looked up, the thud in her chest hit harder than before. Half of the roof was missing. The wooden panels were sticking out, some hanging down above the window.

This is where it happened.

A tear couldn't help but slip out, but she quickly wiped it away with her coat sleeve. Two days ago, she didn't even know Lily was her Mother. Now, she realised she'd lost her mum a while ago without realising it.

And she'd lost Draco. The one thing keeping her together, the one thing who kept her heart full.

The one person who knew her.

Y/n cracked there an then, in the middle of the street, no longer caring who would see her if anybody was there. She sobbed hard. Her eyes were sore and red as she choked up the past few days. She realised how much she was hurting in that moment, stood in the snow.

She closed her eyes and steadied her breathing, when she heard a whoosh noise.

A noise she'd heard yesterday, when her brother showed up at The Burrow.

Her eyes were kept closed when she heard muffled noises behind her. Some footsteps in the snow were growing louder and louder, but she still kept them tightly shut. Not wanting to open them.

They were closed until the sound of footsteps were replaced by soft breathing.

He's here. He's here next to me.

She slowly opened her eyes but looked straight ahead.

"It happened here" She croaked out, her voice full of agonising pain.

Draco's steady breathing stopped.

"She-

He took a deep breath before continuing.

"She would of loved you, you know."

Draco was equally as drained looking. His white hair was damp and across his forehead. The usual twinkle in those grey eyes had faded into a foggy mist colour. His black neat suit was under his black coat, the coat y/n bought him one Christmas.

She scoffed. "You don't know nothing about love, Draco." She turned to look at him. The second she caught a glimpse of his eyes, she melted. All she wanted to do in that moment was wrap her arms around him so tight, whisper in his ear is was all going to be okay and that she loved him terribly.

"You don't mean that" He mumbled. Not once did he take his eyes off her, desperate for her to look back a little longer.

"How could you do this to me?" She turned to look at him. Draco looked like he was about to crack too.

"I didn't know-

"Don't. Please, just don't lie to me."

Draco tried to grab her hand but she pulled it away and rolled her eyes.

"Y/n, I swear to you I didn't know anything. I knew fucking nothing about what-what he said I was doing!"

"Then how did you know what I was talking about when I saw you last?" She asked impatiently.

"I thought you were talking about the deatheater situation! I-god, I swear to you I didn't know about his plan."

She turned to him with tears misting up her eyes. Draco looked deeply desperate for her back. He was panting with red rims around his eyes.

"I promise you. I love you for you, I didn't know about his plan. I-I guess I just love you."

She didn't couldn't remember who leaned in first.

Draco kissed this girl like it was the last thing he would ever do. She matched his energy by passionately kissing him back, both opening and closing their mouths. She missed his taste. The way his tongue felt, how his lips were so much sweeter than before. Draco slid his hand under her ear on her neck and carried on kissing her. Gently she moaned in his mouth.

She had to do it, had to kiss him one last time.

Y/n pulled away leaving them both with swollen pink lips. He looked almost relieved to have her back in his arms. Without hesitation, Draco dived in again for another kiss, moving their heads around. He snaked his arm around her waist and started kissing her neck in a sloppy manor.

"Fucking love you" He mumbled into her neck. Y/n had her arms around his neck, letting him kiss her.

"I know."

"Mhm?" He carried on licking and kissing her neck.

"That's why it's hard for me to leave you, Draco."

He ripped his mouth away from hers and wiped his mouth with his sleeve. He stood still for a moment, looking at her, making sure she actually say that.

"Leave me?"

She gave him a devilish smile. "Mhm, leave you."

"W-wha-what? You just let me-you just kissed me y/n like it was your last fucking breath?" He exclaimed with a frown. She took a step back.

"You lied to me. You led me to believe I knew everything about you!"

"Are you forgetting you worked for the fucking order behind my back all throughout last year?" He spat, now filled with rage.

"I had to! How could I let you lot carry on?"

"Us lot? This is exactly why we argue. You're selfish and you're a fucking bitch. You're a nasty vile bitch y/n!"

"You're a twisted sick minded deatheater who has daddy issues!"

Draco scoffed loud and looked to his left before speaking. "At least I have fucking parents. At least my Mother isn't fucking dead!"

"You know what? Fuck you Draco Malfoy. I guess you didn't mean what you wrote in them letters about me. You didn't mean it when you told me you loved me. You just wanted to fuck me so I could have your child and you'd get away with your plan! Maybe I'll just go fuck Theo again!"

That hurt him. He hated to think y/n thought he was using her for Voldemort's plan. He didn't give a witty comeback, he didn't hurt her with more words.

Simply, he held his hand out and wiped the frustrated tears off y/n's cheeks and took a step closer to her. Y/n sighed and put her head on his heartbeat whilst he put his arms around her neck and kissed her ear gently.

"Yet, I can't stay away from you, and you can't stay away from me" He said in a low voice.

Draco pulled away and crouched slightly so he was level with her. He took his left hand and placed it on her chest.

"This. This is what is keeping me alive." He patted twice on her heartbeat.

There was no point in fighting it. Y/n loved this man with everything she had. Draco loved her just as much, even though he'd rarely show it.

"You don't lie to me anymore, you don't keep anything from me" She said as she looked up at her lover with red puffy eyes.

"I never meant to lie to you. It was to protect you and I never knew about V-You-Know-Who's plan" He repeated again.

"Okay. I believe you."

"Why would I lie to the woman that's going to be the Mother of my kids one day?" He asked, causing y/n to blush and giggle like a little girl.

"I love you, truly. Even if you're the biggest prick."

"I love you, I always will" He replied, and put his hand under her ear again to kiss her.

They were interrupted by the sound of Church bells ringing. The pair turned to look at the Church, but nobody was there. Y/n grinned to herself when she realised why they went off.

"Merry Christmas Draco" She whispered. He didn't respond, he put his arms around her neck and placed his head on her shoulder.

*

Y/n was asleep, draped across Draco's thighs with her head rested on his chest peacefully. She was breathing deeply, whilst Draco was wide awake, making sure she was warm enough.

It was around four in the morning on Christmas Day, and the pair were still in Godric's Hollow. After speaking for a few hours on what happened, she fell asleep on him, and there was no way Draco was going to leave her.

He sat there wide awake, often looking over to her. He didn't stroke her hair or kiss her forehead or cuddle her tight, that's just not Draco.

The birds started to tweet and the sky was turning lighter. Draco sat at watched the snow drip from the roofs of buildings, slowly melting away like the sky's dark colours.

"Y/n" He said. She mumbled as she started to wake up.

"We have to go y/n before somebody sees us."

Y/n sleepily rubbed her eyes, pecked her boyfriend on the lips before sitting up right on his thighs.

"Where are we going?" She asked.

He sighed. "I have to go. You need to go somewhere else. I have things to do and prepare for, you need to go home."

She sat up fully and got off his legs. "Wait what? We aren't spending Christmas together? Why-

"I know. I know. I have things to do. Things that are out of my control" He said, looking guilty.

Y/n wanted to scream and shout and be selfish. How could he leave her on Christmas? After everything they'd been through the past week? Instead, she bit her lip and decided arguing wasn't worth it.

"I'll miss you" She whispered looking down at her boots.

"It won't be long until I see you next, you know that." He lifted her chin with his finger and kissed her deeply, moving their mouths and kissing her harder.

She pulled away and stroked his shoulder. "Write to me?" She asked.

Draco nodded, gave her one last long kiss, then apparated quickly, not looking back at y/n to see her reaction.

Y/n was upset she wouldn't be going back with him, but she knew he had things to do.

With that, she decided to spend Christmas at the Weasley's because it would be too difficult to go home. She imagined what sort of food Molly would have prepared for her back at The Burrow.

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