LIAM

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"And then i fell down!" A blonde girl giggled beside me. I didn't say anything back. She had bright green eyes and short platinum blonde hair. A lot of makeup on. She was also a stripper. She wasn't like Violet.

"What's your name?" She said seductively as she licked her lips.

"Ryder. Wanna get out of here?"

"Back room number 5. Meet me there in 5" she said as she got up and went to the back.

Violet has been talking to Braydon and Jules. I don't know where Holden is but i bet he's coming back soon to fuck Violet. I'm pissed about it.And I've been away from them at the bar talking to a stripper whose name i don't know.

"Dude" i heard Alex say behind me.

"What?"

"You want Violet back don't you?" He said taking a seat next to me.

"Of course i do. Why?"

"You can't possibly want her that bad if you're gonna fuck that whore" he said back sounding annoyed. Surprisingly, Alex and Violet have been becoming friends. I know he has a soft spot for her, like Holden and Braydon do.

"Look, she's clearly busy with Holden. I don't wanna watch that shit. I gotta go, I'll be back in 20." I said as i got up.

"Liam, holden l-"

"Shut up Alex" i said as j walked to the back and into the private room.

And i fucked the stripper. The whole time I fucked her from behind. I couldn't look at her face. She didn't have dark hair and grey eyes. She didn't have freckles. She wasn't the most gorgeous girl ever. She wasn't Violet lilac.

The whole time i fucked her, i thought about Violet. And what she looked like tonight. So sexy and hot. Her ass and her tits. Her piercings. Her long hair. Her long legs.

Fuck.

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"I know right!-" i heard Violet laugh and then stop. "Liam? Where were you?"

"Nowhere" i said i sat down.

"Liam, you have messy sex hair, did you just come back from fucking someone?" Colton asked.

Violet snapped her head to back to me.

I looked at her. Her eyes were glossy now and a little watery.

Where Holden?

"Where's Holden?"

"He left a hour ago, had to go somewhere. Where were you?" Braydon said.

So she hasn't been with him this whole time?

I fucked up.

"Oh i uh i-"

"You fucked someone!" Jules laughed obnoxiously.

"Dude! No way! Congrats" Colton said. He said no idea about about me and Violet.

Violet looked at me with her watery wide eyes.

"W-what?"

"Violet- you cant be mad"

"Why can't she be mad?" Braydon asked now growing angry.

"Well she's been flirting with Holden-"

"No she hasn't. He flirted with her. He even asked for her number and she said no" he said as he put a arm around Violet.

"I- i didn't know i wouldn't have-"

"Jeez liam, get your shit together." Braydon said as rolled his eyes, "guys we're gonna head out see you later" he said as he and Violet got up and walked away.

What did i just do?

I didn't want to do this.

Why did i do that.

I thought she liked Holden.

All i can think about is when she looked at me. With those glossy watery eyes. Was she hurt? Did i hurt her? Again? I'm no good for her.

I don't deserve her.

"You okay?" Alex asked.

"I- uh i gotta go-" i stuttered and walked outside and saw Braydon and Violet walking to her car.

"Wait braydon-"

"What?!" He snapped back.

"Can i talk to her? Please?"

"I- no- fine. I guess. Don't fuck it up more then it already is." He said as he whispered something in violets ear. She nodded and he got in the car and waited.

"Violet. I'm sorry. I'm so sorry. I didn't know. I thought you and Holden-"

"You could've just said something. Asked. Anything. But you went with someone else-"

"I felt nothing for her. I didn't feel what i feel with you when i was with her. I didn't feel the sparks. Or butterflies. I was thinking about you, the whole time Violet. I swear I'm so sorry. Violet?"

"I- i don't know. I mean i want to believe you but-"

"Please believe me."

"I don't know."

"I thought you and Holden were gonna leave together. I got scared. I got jealous. I made a mistake- god i made so many mistakes these past couple of days. Im sorry Violet. I lov-like you. A lot. I like you so much. It hurts sometimes. And I'm scared. I don't know what I'm doing. Im so clueless and stupid. I really care about you Violet lilac. And i got scared and i let it get the best of me. Again. And if you forgive me-"

"Liam-"

"If you forgive me. Or at least try to, I'll try so hard to never hurt you again. It breaks my heart seeing you like this Violet."

"Liam you're drunk"

"Kind of. But these are sober thoughts. I like you so much. I care about you. I always want to protect you. I don't even like when guys look at you. I want you all to myself. I'll prove it to you. How sorry i am. I will everyday."

"Liam I'm not mad- I'm just hurt." She said quietly.

"Violet."

"Just- we'll talk tomorrow okay? When we're both in the right head space-"

"I am in the right headspace!" I yelled as i felt rain starting to fall. "This is all what i feel whenever I'm around you- and when you're away i feel like i can't breath. I always want to be with you wherever you are. I want to know everything there is to know about you. I want you to talk to me. I want it to go back to how it was. When it was easier-"

"But it's not. It's different now."

"And that's okay. We can still be together Violet." I said stepping towards her and moving a wet curl out of her face.

"Together?"

"Together. Violet- will you be my girlfriend?"

"I-"

"I know it's scary. I'm scared too. And i don't know if I'm doing the right thing. But i do know i want you. Forever. And always. All the time. I want you Violet. All of you. You when your happy, sad, mad, hungry, angry, laughing, crying- i want all of it." I said as rain poured down more and more.

"I want that too." She smiled back.

"Is that a yes?"

"Yes Liam I'll be your girlfriend. Now can we kiss because you look really hot right now" she giggled.

I grabbed her hips and pulled her up. She put her legs around my waist, and her hands in my wet hair. Out mouths closed the gap and we kissed. Our first kiss. It was breath taking. The way her mouth moved against mine. The way she tasted. The way her tongue felt against mine. It was amazing. She's amazing. We're amazing.

Even with everything that happened this past week. We got past it. We got through it. Together. This is a dream come true. I'm kissing my dream girl. My mom always said that you know you found the right one when you kiss. And it feels like they kissed your soul, not just your lips. I never knew what that meant until now. She kissed my soul. And my lips.

We stayed like that for a few minutes. Mouths moving in sync. When we parted we both gasped for air. And she giggled and i smiled.

"Best.kiss.ever." She chuckled.

"I agree" i smile.

I think i love Violet lilac.

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