VIOLET

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I woke up in liams bed. Again. Except there wasn't arms around me, i turned to my side and saw a empty bed.

I got up went to the bathroom, crushed my teeth, with the toothbrush i started to leave here, along with my hair.

"Liam?" I said as i walked into the living room, "there you are."

He was sitting on his couch reading a book.

He looked up at me , i could tell he didn't get much sleep. His eyes were red, and there were dark bags under them. His hair was all messy and he had on black sweats and no shirt. I could see all his tattoos. I didn't know he had so many.

"Violet, can we talk?"

"Uh yeah" i said as i sat down beside him. Well actually on the opposite side.

"Violet-" he said as he pulled me by my waist and put me next to him and he turned to face me, and rested against the arm rest, as he put his book down.

"Liam I'm sorry-"

"Violet. I'm not mad. Don't be sorry." He said as he tucked some hair behind my ear.

"You're not?" I asked tilting my head.

"No, i just want you to talk to me. I want to help you, but i can't if i don't know what happened. I promise i won't judge you, I'll be here for you."

I smiled, "okay, i think I'm ready. So you know the guy there? He was my ex. From a couple years ago."

His jaw got stiff but loosened as i ran my hand up his arm.

"His name is Jacob. He was super sweet at first, i really thought i loved him- but after a couple months he um- he- i-"

"It's okay, you don't have to it's okay-" he said twirling a piece of my hair in his fingers

"No i want to tell you, it's just hard." I've only ever told 1 other person.

"And uh- he started getting angry at me. At first over reasonable things, and i thought it was just part of a relationship. But then he won't get mad over the tiniest things. Like if i wore the wrong clothes, or looked at other guys- or even if i wouldn't have sex with him"

Liam started using his thumbs to wipe my tears away that were now falling down.

"And he would just yell at me. He was really mean- but then one day he pushed me. I thought it was one mistake. But it kept happening."

He nodded and took my hand and started rubbing circles with his thumb as he held it.

"One thing led to another. And he started to hit me." and when i said, Liams jaw tensed and breathing picked up, "He was push me, shove me. He would hit and punch. Slap me sometimes. And the thing was, most of the time he wasn't even drunk. He was- i don't know. Himself?" But that wasn't him. Or the him i thought he was.

"And after almost a year- i left. In the middle of the night. And i haven't seen him in years. I thought i got rid of him. He lived a couple hours from here, but i guess he's here now. He-he found me-" i said as i sobbed.

"Oh Violet- it's okay. I won't let him hurt you anymore." Liam said as he took me into his chest, and carefully rubbed my back.

"I-I'm so sorry Liam- i should've-"

"Violet- it's okay. Don't be sorry" he said as he rain his hand through my hair.

I felt so stupid. Sobbing into his chest. This isn't me. I'm happy. I look happy atleast. I'm not supposed to show this side of me. Jacob said it made me weak. And right now i felt weak. Liam shouldn't be doing this. Here i am ruinfing his day. He probably would rather me somewhere else, not listening to my sob story.

After about 20 minutes of just sitting there and crying i calmed down, and was about to fall asleep.

"So- is that where the scars are from?" He said as he lifted my chin to meet his eyes.

"Y-yeah."

"Do they bother you?"

"Sometimes."

"Well Violet, for what it's worth, i have always thought, and still think you are the most beautiful girl. You're gorgeous. Your face, every freckle on your cheeks, your personality, and your body is just a bonus." He said as i rubbed my hips with his thumbs.

"Thank you liam. I'm serious- for everything. I'm sorry about this too."

"Violet i told you, i care. I want to hear and know everything about you. The worst stuff, and the best stuff. What makes you smile, what makes you cry. What music you hate, and what music you would scream at the top of your lungs. Your earliest memories to your latest ones. Everything Violet lilac."