"Fuck, don't fuckin stop Doll" Kai groans from underneath me as I ride his hard dick in the front seat of his car. While I straddle him we both keep an eye out making sure no one comes into view of the car. Not that I could stop riding him even if I wanted to, my hips were moving on their own. Today we didn't even make it out of the schools parking lot before Kai was dragging my panties off. By the time he pushed me in the car I was completely bare from the bottoms up. He quickly pulled the car over to the corner of the lot before tugging me in his lap.

"I need more. Please. Harder. " I moan as I try to slam myself down harder. I squeeze my walls hard around him as I come down. Kai reaches down and begins to roughly rub my clit. The pressure making my eyes roll to the back of my head. Kai had been fucking me savagely any time or anywhere that he could since the break up. It's like we're pouring our feelings into the act.

"Fuck yes!" I scream as I finally feel a life shattering orgasm on the horizon. I clench my walls around him harder determined to milk him for every drop.

"Cum for me baby. Right fuckin now" Kai growls pulling me close and holding me tight while he empties his cum deep inside me. I can feel it as it mixes with my juices inside me. His orgasm sets mine off and I cum hard rocking my hips on him as I ride it out.

"Fuck I needed that" Kai says as I crawl back into my seat. His cum dripping out on to his leather seat underneath me. I grab one of his tshirts from the backseat and clean up the best I can. I definitely need to start carrying wipes if we're going to do this in the car.

We have been at it like this since everything went down that night between all of us. It's unhealthy and we know that but we've pretty much been trying to fuck away the hurt. It had been 2 weeks since Roxie broke up with us and a week since the last time we saw here. Other than the text message that same night she hasn't tried to reach out again. Rumor around school was she was skipping out on prom and graduation and heading to get settled for college early. Could she really do that without saying goodbye? I didn't want to believe she would do that to us.

Roxie came to school for finals week. She tried her hardest to avoid both me and Kai no matter how hard I tried to run into her. I missed her and just wanted a look at her even if it meant I couldn't touch or speak to her. Kai was still pretty upset so her avoiding him wasn't a problem for him. I think the fact that she gave up so easy and didn't even try to make things work even if that meant long distance hurt him. Kai would have made anything work for her and I would have too.

I was hurt too but I knew we couldn't change her mind but I still hoped we'd have the chance to try. She didn't give us a choice to begin with. She wouldn't even look at us finals week and after that she hadn't been back to school. I thought about showing up to her house that first week but I promised Kai I would try to accept her decision. So I've been giving her space hoping that one day soon she comes to her senses and comes back to us.

"Hey" Kai says pulling me out my thoughts. "I know it's not easy Doll but you have to try to stop thinking about her. If she wanted this she would be here. We need to move on and focus on us and our relationship."

"So you never think about her? Not one day in the last two week?" I asked because there could be no way. I thought about her constantly.

"Of course I have but I try not to. I need focus on my woman that does want me." He say starting the car and heading toward my house.

"I think we should have told her Kai. She needed to know we love her." I try to reason with him.

"What would it have changed Doll? She still planned to leave for London. She spent months with us and forgot to mention that bit of information and when she decided to end thing she didn't even ask what we wanted. We fuckin loved her and that's all we got." he say tighten his grip on the wheel clearly still angry.

He was right about the London fact though. I cried for days at the thought of her actually packing up and leaving the country. She made her decision without us in mind and it was heartbreaking. And if she really was gone she left without saying goodbye. My mind sometimes tells me this was really just sex to her but my heart tells me it was more.

We rode the rest of the way with only the radio playing while we were both lost in our thoughts. When we pull up to my house Kai parks in the drive way and shuts the car off. He reaches over lacing his fingers with mine and tugging them to his lips. He places small kisses on every one of my fingers.

"I don't want this hurt to drain us. I need us to move on from this." he says with a shaken voice. "I'll always love Roxie and I know you will too but I need the old us back. We can't keep hoping for her to come back to us because what if she doesn't. We have to continue to build us and move on. She planned her future and we need to plan ours." he kisses my fingers again. I can't wait to move in with you and start our lives together and that's the only thing I want to focus on right now" he says kissing my fingers again.

Kai was right. We tried and we failed. We wanted her and she didn't want us back. Roxie planned her future and left and we needed to do the same. As much as I didn't want to I knew I would have to try to let her go. Kai was only trying to protect me. I needed to be grateful that I still had him next to me.

"Your right baby. I'll focus on our move and I'll focus on us. I love you" I say reaching over to peck his lips. "Let's get inside I could use a round two" I say smirking at him.

Kai and I would move into our new apartment at the end of the summer. Both our dads helped pay for it and promised to pay the rent on the condition that we finished school and didn't make them grandparents before we graduated. Kai and I easily agreed. We both got accepted at the same college and would commute from the apartment.

As I race Kai inside I hope wherever Roxie ends up she's happy. I'll be happy with Kai.