"I know this is old but it belonged to my wife. I am giving this to you as our blessings. Please don't ever lose it." He said and wiped his eyes. "Now tie it around her neck." He said and gave it to Sid. I looked at him. His eyes held pity and helplessness but deep inside his dark orbs I could see something else. Some strong emotions crossed his eyes when he tied it around my neck and his eyes never averted from mine which gave me a strange feel. My heart started to fill with warmness and for a moment it made my inner storms calm. I closed my eyes offering a silent prayer to the scared fire in front of us. A lone tear slide down through my left cheek.

The memory came rushing to me when I looked at the black beaded chain in the thin wire of gold. My gaze moved towards Sid. His jaw was clenched and his eyes looked scary. A cold shiver of fear ran down my spine.

Slowly I got up from the ground and stood on my feet. I gulped down and pursed my lips. Knots forming in my stomach and with each step he took towards me the knots tightened. I was nervous as hell and my hands were becoming ice cold. My breaths became laboured.

He stopped right in front of me. I crane my neck up to look at him. My inside went cold in an instant when his burning stare fell on me.

He lifted his hand and brought the chain in front of my eyes. I looked at the two small gold plates pendants separated by a big red bead and two small black beads on either side of them.

"Speak." His voice came as whisper but it held anger and authority. I lowered my gaze and looked at my feet. I fisted my fingers to stop them from trembling.

"Cat got your tongue?" He asked with his heated gaze.

I didn't dare to look up. "SPEAK UP DAMMIT." He screamed at my face. I flinched and stepped back. I looked at him startled.

He was already a mess and now he was fuming. My mouth went dry and I gulped in fear. Not a single word came to my mouth as if my tongue got tired. I just stood there with my heavy breaths.

He took another step towards me and I took a step back. I saw him clenching his jaw and his eyes filled with rage. He took long strides to me and before I could do anything he gripped my shoulder and pinned me to the pergola pillar.

"OPEN YOUR DAMN MOUTH AND SPEAK UP." His voice was cold and thunderous. Gritting his teeth he hit the pillar near my head with his fisted fingers. I gasped in fear and my eyes started to sting again. I looked at him with my pleading eyes. But he was a complete different person. His nostrils flared and his eyes wrapped in a miserable black.

"Is this what you were searching?" He asked holding the chain in front of me again. I stood silent.

"Are you going to tell me that this is not yours? That I am mistaken again? Han?!!!" He asked furiously. I didn't know what to tell. Nothing came to my mind that could handle the situation. I was too startled and scared. We stood there rooted for a few moments.

His gaze held mine, demanding answers. But I was too terrified to open my mouth. Slowly he moved away from me. "So you are not going to speak right. Fine. Then I guess this does not belong to you." He said while tossing the chain in his hands. An evil smirk appeared on his face and suddenly he turned around and throws the chain away.

"NOOOOOO." I screamed and ran to him. "Why did you do that?" I shouted at him. Now I am the one who was fuming. Anger was building up inside. "How could you throw that away?" I asked and pushed him back. He stumbled back but maintained his balance.

"Why? Does it hurt?" He asked. His voice was so cold and his usual gentleness was not there. My lips were trembling and I was at the edge of breaking down. He doesn't know how much it means to me.

"You shouldn't have done it. Why did you throw that away?" I shouted and started to hit him on his chest. My eyes were streaming and my heart was breaking into pieces.

Suddenly he held my arms and pulled me into his chest. "Why? Why is it hurting you this much?" He asked. I looked at him and his eyes were softening. I looked down sobbing.

"Aami?" His voice was soft this time. He held my chin with his thumb and index fingers and lifted up my face. I looked at his eyes and it held the love. I closed my eyes tight. No it can't happen. I have to be strong. I can't be with him. I have to let him go. I took a deep breath and opened my eyes.

"You are right. It shouldn't hurt me. I'm sorry I over reacted." I said firmly. His jaw clenched again and his grip on my arms tightened. He closed his eyes and took a deep breath.

"You are doing it again. Stop running away from me, Aami. Why can't you give us a chance? What is it that you are hiding? Please tell me so that I can help you. I know you feel the same way towards me like I feel towards you. I can sense it from you. Then why are you fighting it. Just tell me what is wrong? Please give me a good reason to let you go." He pleads.

It was breaking my heart but I can't tell him the real reason, the truth about me. The demons surrounding me are too strong that they will destroy everyone close to me. I can't do that to him. I can't drag him with me to my hell.

"There is nothing to talk sir. I am sorry to disturb you. It's getting late and I should really go home now." I said trying to free my hands from his grip.

He yanked me close by holding my waist. I gasped and looked at him. He was shaking with anger. His 6 foot height was towering my small figure and anger curled hot and unstoppable in his gut.

"What do you take me for? An idiot?!! You are not going to escape this time Aami. I deserve answers. You can't just barge into my life whenever you want and leave as you wish. You left me broken on that mud road on that day and came back after four months acting like you were someone else. Do you know how I felt? Do you know how does it feel to battle yourself with confusion? Do you know how much I wanted you to be the same person I wish you were? And finally when I came to know you are Aami, you are again leaving me on a cliff hanger. At least give me good damn closure. Don't I deserve that much?" He screeched and his grip on my hand and waist tightened. I winced in pain. I looked at him and a look of bitterness swept across his face.

I know what I am going to tell is going to break both of us. But I don't have any other options. I have to do it. Letting him hate me is the only thing I could do for him to move on even if it breaks my heart beyond fixing.

The more he goes away from me the better his life will be. I tried to stop the tears and took a deep breath. "What happened that night was a mistake and you too know that. We were in a difficult situation and we had no other options. That was not supposed to happen. So there was nothing you had to be so mad about it. We came out of that situation and I left. It was not like we were in love and all. So please just take it as it is. And about coming back, I didn't know it was your company. So when I saw you I didn't want to go through all that meaningless things again so I just pretend it was not me. It is not my mistake that you started to have feelings for me. You should have kept your heart yourself so don't blame for your feelings." I said trying to hide my cracking voice.

The pained look on his face was hard to ignore. It was so difficult to maintain my firm poster in front of him. A small mistake, I will melt down in front of him. It felt like thousand needles were piercing through my heart and making it bleed.

"So you don't have any feelings for me right." He asked furiously. I looked away. "Then why does it hurt you when I throw away the chain? If you don't feel anything for me then why were you searching that chain frantically? Han!!" He asked again.

I gulped hard to stop the sobs. "Be strong Aami, you can do this." I said to myself. "Tell me Aami, why were you crying like you were in so much pain? I am talking to you AAMI. LOOK AT ME." He roared.

I flinched but looked at him. "Don't you love me?" He asked again his voice beginning to sound weak. I blinked away the tears came into my eyes. "No. I don't." I said trying to make my voice strong. I didn't dare to look at him. He pulled me closer to his body. "You don't? Then look at me and say that again." He whispered in my ears. My breath got stuck in my throat because of our closeness. I tried hard to control my heavily beating heart. "What? Now you feel difficult to find the right words?" He asked again rubbing his nose on my ear lobes and down to my neck.

I gasped and my mouth went dry. A heat spread through my body and I pressed myself more to him. My legs were becoming jelly and my grip on his shirt tightened. "You are saying that you don't love me but your body is saying the opposite." He scoffed and whispered in a husky voice.

That's when the bubble popped and I came out of the trance. I pushed him hard on his chest and he stumbled back. He looked at me startled. My breath became heavy and my eyes started to sting again. "You want me to look at you and say it right. Fine then hear it loud and clear Mr. Aryan. I don't love..." Before I could complete his lips came crashing on mine.

I was so shocked that I stood there like a statue. It took me a few moments to come out of it and when I realised he was kissing me, I tried to push him away. But he was nowhere near to stop. His hands snake around my waist and he lifted me up and pinned me against the pillar again. My legs automatically went around his torso.

He held my both hands above my head with his one hand and his other hand held my waist firmly, our bodies were pressed close. He nibbled on my bottom lips asking me to open my mouth but I didn't allow it. I struggle to get out of his grip but it went in vain. He gripped my waist painfully, I groaned and I know it is going to get bruised.

Once he heard my painful groan he bit down my bottom lip. He bit so hard that I even started to taste blood. I stopped struggling and gave in. I started to kiss him back and he deepened the kiss. The kiss was nothing like our first kiss. If that was a soft gentle and lovable one this was the total opposite.

He kissed me hard. I could feel all of his scattered emotions in the kiss. He let out all of his hurt, frustration, desire, anger, lust and desperation in the kiss. I could also taste the saltiness of the tears in my mouth. I know we both were hurting and there nothing we could do about it.

After what felt like an eternity he broke the kiss and rested his fore head against mine. His grip around me loosened and I brought down my legs around his torso. He slowly put me down and we looked at each other. His eyes were a whirlwind of emotions. My eyes started to get wet again. He slowly pulled away from me and turned around. He left the roof top without looking back at me.

The sobs started to come back to me. That's when I realised I was holding something in my fisted fingers. I opened and saw the same black beaded chain resting in my palm. My sobs became heavy and I cried loudly falling on my knees.

I'm so so so so sorry Sid. I can't let you in. You have a good future awaiting you but as for me there is only darkness in front of me. I don't even know what will happen to me in the next day. My life will be over when they find me. I don't know when they will appear in front of me and take me away or worse, kill me. I can live my life knowing that you are there somewhere out in the world, but it will kill me every day for the rest of my life if something happens to you because of me. So please forgive me for giving you this pain. I'm doing it because I love you Sid. I love you so much.

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