I didn't see that coming.

Maybe I was just too aggressive. Confused? Maybe I was just driven by the idea that I felt something for him.

I'm still clouded.

"Hey, you're zoning out..." napalingon ako kay Tremor when he holds my hand. Nasa loob kami ng coffee shop. Inaya niya ako after noong sa bridge.

Hindi ko napansin na natulala na pala ako at lumalamig na ang kape sa tasa ko.

"Sorry," Tremor sighed, but he chose to give me a warm smile and remained silent. Nagpapasalamat na lang ako na ramdam niyang marami akong iniisip kaya pinili na lang niyang huwag nang magsalita pa. After a few minutes, nagpasya na rin kaming umuwi. He sent me home, hindi na rin siya nagtagal dahil may dadaluhan pa siyang event, kaya nagpasalamat lang ako sa kaniya at hinatid siya ng tingin.

Abot-abot ang kaba ko ng sandaling tumapak ako sa loob ng bahay.

Andito na kaya si Hunter? Kasama pa kaya niya si Amari?

I tried to shrug that thought away, and chose to walk upstairs. Papasok na sana ako sa kwarto ko ng bumukas ang kabilang pinto. Iniluwa noon si Hunter na magulo ang buhok at nakasuot lang ng simpleng muscle shirt at jogging pants.

"Saan ka galing?" malamig na tanong niya. Hindi ba dapat ako ang magtanong sa 'yo niyan?

"Kimmy's house," tipid na sagot ko. Handa na akong pumasok ng tuluyan ng pigilan niya ako sa braso.

"Are you sure?"

"Yeah, and I went out with her brother, Tremor. My friend." I saw how his jaw clenched. He's being like that again. Hindi ko naman alam kung bakit. Napapaguran akong tinalikuran siya at pumasok na sa kwarto ko. Ayokong tagalan ang pag-uusap namin dahil hindi ko na gusto ang inaakto ng sarili kong katawan. Kailangan ko itong pigilan bago pa ako mas lalong masaktan.

Tinawagan ako ni Kimmy kinagabihan, pagkatapos ay bumaba rin ako to prepare myself a dinner ngunit naabutan ko lamang si Hunter na nagluluto. He was simple, wearing his pj's. Magulo ang buhok at tutok sa kaniyang ginagawa.

Naalala ko, noong bagong kasal pa lang kami. Galit ako sa kaniya, I hate him...I despise him. Walang gabi ang hindi ako umiyak. Hindi ko matanggap ang ginawa kong desisyon pero sa tuwing naiisip ko si Damon ay bumabalik sa akin ang lakas upang panindigan ang naging desisyon.

Hindi ko inasahan na darating ang oras na mahuhulog ako sa taong dahilan kung bakit nagawa kong magdesisyon, kung bakit nagawa kong isakripisyo ang kalayaan ko kahit wala akong alam sa kung ano ang nangyari noon at tila galit na galit siya kay Damon.

"Maupo ka na, malapit na 'tong matapos," pinuno ng malagong niyang boses ang pandinig ko, dahilan para mapaayos ako ng tayo. Noon ko lang napansin na sumulyap na pala siya sa akin.

Tahimik akong naupo at seryoso siyang pinanood mabuti naman at hindi na oyster at scallops ang niluto niya ngayon. It's a chicken dish, but I don't know what to call it. Siya lang ang nakakaalam no'n, hindi kasi sa akin pamilyar. Marami pa naman kasi akong hindi alam na dishes.

"Why are you so quiet?" kunot-noong tanong niya matapos sumandal sa counter.

"Hindi naman tayo madalas mag-usap, bakit ngayon ka pa magtataka?" mahinang tanong ko na mas lalong kinalukot ng mukha niya.

"Didn't we talk, that we were going to try to work this marriage out? Now why does it feel like instead of trying to get close to me, you're distancing yourself?" kailangan pa bang itanong 'yan? After that, ako iwan kanina kasama si Amari? Isinama mo ako sa opisina mo pero umalis ka ng wala ako? Gago.

"Yeah, pero mukhang okay lang naman sa 'yo kahit hindi na mag-work ang marriage na 'to. Hihintayin ko lang kung kailan mo idedeklara na bayad na ako sa atraso ni Damon sa 'yo nang makapag divorce na tayo." malamig na sabi ko huli na para bawiin pa.

Nakita ko kung paanong dumilim ang mukha niya. Gumalaw ang kaniyang panga at inalis na rin niya sa pagkakahalukipkip ang kaniyang mga braso. He turned off the stove and walked closer to me. He propped his hands on the table. Yumuko siya, habang ako naman ay naninigas na nakatingala sa kaniya. Ilang inches lang ang layo ng mukha namin. I can feel his warm breath against my skin. I gulped as I closed my parted lips. Bahagya na ring namimilog ang mga mata ko at malakas na ang kalabog sa dibdib ko.

His hawk gray eyes were now a darker shade. They pierced me, staring at me intensely.

"No one's going to sign a divorce paper. I won't let you go Dimaria. Hear me? Akin ka lang. Hangga't nabubuhay ako...walang makakakuha sa 'yo mula sa akin. At kung mamamatay man ako ng sisiguraduhin kong kasama kita." kinilabutan ako sa sinabi niya. I could see in his eyes that he wasn't joking. Mariin, matalim, nagbabanta ang mga mata n'ya. Halos sunod-sundo akong napalunok ng umangat ang kaniyang kamay. He cupped my jaw, making my lips part. Mula sa mga mata ko ay bumaba ang tingin niya sa mga labi ko.

Akala ko'y wala nang mas didilim pa sa nakikita ko sa mga mata niya, I was wrong. Halos hindi ko na alam kung ang pakikinggan. Binibingi ako ng malakas na kalampog sa dibdib ko dahil sa kaniya.

"H-Hunter..." In one swift movement, I felt his lips again against mine. Bahagyang nanlaki ang mata ko. It wasn't the first time he kissed me like this, but the reaction of my body felt new to me. With a swift gradation of intensity, my hand gripped his shirt on his shoulder. His insistent mouth was parting my shaking lips, sending wild tremors down my nerves, evoking from my sensations I never knew I was capable of feeling. Before, a giddiness spun me round and round.

I didn't have a chance to monitor everything that was happening around us. I just found myself sitting on the table, with Hunter between my thighs, as we kissed each other hungrily. His right hand went to hold the back of my neck, pressing me closer to him. A moan escapes my lips when his hand slips inside my shirt. I can feel its warmth every time he grips my waist. Gumapang ito pataas dahilan para makaramdam ako ng init na kailanman hindi ko naramdaman noon.

I could hear our violent and fast breathing. I could hear the sounds of our kisses. I can hear his soft groans and low grunts. Every time his body presses against mine, I feel the thing between his thighs. It was hard to poke at my sensitive parts. And it gives me a kind of strange sensation I can't name. He's driving me insane. I nearly lost my sanity. His tongue explored the insides of my mouth as he began removing my bra from inside my shirt. He did that in a swift move. My hands reach for the hem of his shirt and help him remove it, breaking our kisses in seconds.

His kisses trailed down on my jaw, neck, and the valley of my shoulder after one deep kiss. He made me lie as he remained towering over me. His one hand reached for my wrist and pinned it off above my head while his other hand was busy massaging my mound.

Loud moans started to escape my lips.

The possible shame I would feel has now gone. All I want is to get this through and reach for something with Hunter's help.

"H-Hunt..." I cried his name when I felt his hand caress my sensitive part inside my shorts.

Bahagya siyang lumayo to remove my shirt. Mabilis niya lang iyong nagawa at bago pa man ako makapagsalita at makabalik sa sarili'y muli na niya akong siniil ng halik. My hand was grasping onto his hair as he started to play with my femininity. I arched my body and almost bit his lip. I shut my eyes and when his kisses went down in between my br*ast. His tongue runs over my skin down on my lower abdomen, his left hand massaging my left mound while his right hand continues to play with the thing between my thighs.

I started to breathe heavily. Hindi ko na alam kung ilang beses kong nabanggit ang pangalan niya.

He pulled down my shorts, leaving me wearing nothing at all. Huminto ang mga labi niya, near my private part and looking up at me. Sinalubong ko ang tingin niya, with my parted lips and half-open eyes. I can imagine how erotic that expression is, but I don't care anymore. Bahagya siyang umahon mula sa pagkakayuko, holding my waist. Desire and lust were all over his face, as he licked his lip, still staring at me, surveying my wholeness.

Gusto kong mahiya, but with admiration in his eyes, agad iyong nawala. I am confident he likes what he sees.

Does that mean I am better amongst women whom he has hooked up with?

Pumait ang pakiramdam ko at ng sandaling hahalikan na niya ako ulit ay kaagad akong umiwas. I placed my hand on his chest, creating distance between our bodies. Kumunot ang noo niya sa ginawa ko.

"What's wrong?"

"Dinner... k-kumain na tayo."

"Aren't we already having dinner?"

"Hunter... let's stop." He chuckles before kissing his neck and nibbling his ears sensually.

"You know, we both can't stop. Can't you feel how wet you are for me? Can't you feel how hard I am right now because of you? Hmm? Dimaria?" namamaos at nangaakit ang boses na sabi niya still kissing me.

May kumawalang luha sa mga mata ko, dahil kahit alam kong bibigay ako sa kaniya, ay nasasaktan ako sa katotohanan na marami kaming nakaranas nito mula sa kaniya. This is how he is with his women, right?

Sinubukan kong bumangon at nagawa ko pero malapit pa rin kaming dalawa at nasa pagitan pa rin siya ng mga hita ko.

His dark eyes pierced into me, with confusion written on them. When he saw tears in my eyes, para siyang binuhusan ng tubig na kaagad lumayo.

"Why are you crying?" umiling ako.

"Wala."

Itinulak ko siya ng konti at sa pagkakataong ito hindi siya nagmatigas. Pinulot ko ang mga damit at sinuot ito lahat sa harapan niya. Hindi ko naman na kailangan pang itago sa kaniya ang katawan ko dahil nakita na niya. After that, I immediately left the kitchen, at kahit tinatawag niya ako ay hindi ako bumalik, sumagot o lumingon man lang. I can feel my heart twisting.

Bumalik sa alaala ko ang pag-iwan niya sa akin kanina, ang pagsama niya kay Amari at ang nakita kong pag-uusap nila sa kotse niya.

I was so sure he wouldn't go after me. Pumasok ako sa kwarto ko at pinatay lahat ng ilaw bago sinubsob ang mukha sa unan. Inside the dark, I cried the pain, and jealousy.

"Wife, the dinner is ready. Let's eat." narinig ko ang maamo niyang boses na mas kinaiyak ko. Nang hindi ako sumagot ay naramdaman ko ang paghukas ng pinto ng kwarto ko. I heard his footsteps.

"D-Don't turn on the lights." I warned him. Kinabahan ako ngunit ng maramdamang nakaabot na s'ya sa gilid ng kama ko ay saka ako huminga ng malalim at sinubukang palisin ang mga luha.

"Matutulog na ako, kumain kami ni Tremor kanina, busog ako kaya lumabas ka na."

"What's wrong?" naramdaman ko ang pagyakap niya na halos kinakislot ko sa gulat. Hindi ko namalayang nakahiga na siya sa tabi ko.

"Wala."

"Hindi mo ba nagustuhan 'yong kanina?"

"Hindi." pagsisinungaling ko, kaya agaran siyang natahimik. Narinig koa ng marahas niyang pagbuntong hininga at paghigpit ng yakap sa akin bago iyon unti-unting naging maluwag.

"Sorry, hindi ko na uulitin."

"Just leave. Matutulog na ako Hunter, marami pa akong photoshoots na tatapusin bukas." hindi siya kumibo.

"Can I sleep here?"

"No!" agap ko at bahagya siyang itinulak. Hindi pa rin siya natinag hanggang sa tumunog ang phone niya. Dahil madilim ay mabilis kong makikita ang screen ng phone niya ng sandali niya iyong tiningnan at halos pumait ang pakiramdam ko ng makitang pangalan 'yon ni Amari.

Huwag mong sagutin. Papayag akong dito ka matulog sa tabi ko.

Just please. Don't answer her call.

Agad akong napangiti ng mapait sa gitna ng dilim, the last thing I know...he left my room habang kausap si Amari. At hindi nagtagal narinig ko ang pagkabuhay ng makina ng kotse niya at agad iyong umalis.

He chose to leave me here alone with Amari, again.