"Mommy!"

I looked around to find whose voice is it. But I found no one in this vast field of daisies...

'Where am I?'

"Mommy!"

Turning around, I found a boy with white hair and pale golden eyes. It's familiar but I can't put my finger on it...

"Child, are you lost?" I asked but the boy just smiled at me before hugging me.

His warmth was transferred to me and it feels so comfortable like the gentle rays of sunlight.

"I love you mommy, thank you." For some reason I just found myself crying.

"Huh?"

"Thank you for holding onto me mommy. Please wake up soon and make daddy happy again."

"D-Derrick?"

He just smiled.

"I will protect you, so you don't need to worry at all mommy! Hihi!"

Before I could touch him again he suddenly ran away from me.

"Wait! Derrick! My baby! Please come back to mommy! Please!"

The world full of daisies crumbled down, then I was suddenly sucked into the abyss...

"*Gasped!*"

I opened my eyes, the familiar ceiling of my room greeted me.

Suddenly I hear a sound of a vase shattering.

"M-Madame!?" I turn my head to my side and saw Jennie with her eyes wide open.

"I-Is this a dream? Madame has finally opened her eyes?" I smiled, I opened my mouth to speak but nothing came out.

I mouthed to her that I need a pen and paper, thankfully she understood it and she went away to get it.

[How long has I've been unconscious?]

"The madam has been unconscious for almost three weeks."

Three weeks?!

[Then, my child? Where is he?]

Jennie's body trembled as she stared at the words that I wrote on the paper. She just looked down but she didn't said anything.

No...

This is not happening...

"W-Where is R-Regan?"

"H-He's in the room that both of you used together."

I didn't care if I have strength in my legs or not, I don't care if I crawl just to get there myself.

"M-Madame please don't be like this!"

"I-I n-need to g-go!"

Maybe because she's so worried, she lift me up and assisted me to walk. When we arrived in front of the room. I let her hands go and went inside myself.

There inside, I saw Regan standing in front of the window.

He looked back and his eyes widened when he saw me.

"Cressi--"

Before he could finish my name I fell down when I ran to him.

Now the scene was me on my knees in front of him. Tears started to come out of my eyes.

"D-Didn't I tell you to choose him!? Why!? Why did you do this to me!" I shouted and sobbed at the same time.

"Cressida, let me explain..."

"No! Answer my question! Why did you let our son die!? I hate you! I really hate you! I don't want to see you! I want to get divorce! I... Why did you let him..."

I can't anymore... I feel like I'm done...

As I'm sobbing I felt him hug me and kisses the top of my head.

And then, I heard something...

"Uwaah~"

My eyes widened and I stood up and looked at the bed where I heard the noise. And there, a tiny white thing wrapped in a golden color cloth is wriggling.

Slowly I walk towards it.

My eyes shook as I saw a pale golden eyes looking at me.

"Oh..." My tears fell down. Relief washed over my system as I look at the child that I have in my womb not too long ago...

I gently touched him which made him make a noise.

Indeed, this is him... My baby.

Regan put his hands on the baby's nape supporting it's head and the other one on the baby's butt.

"He's so beautiful..." I murmured as my eyes kept on watching the child's movement.

Now the baby is silently staring at me. I traced the shape of his face using my finger. His warmth, it's the same gentle warmth that I feel in my dreams.

I can't help but to cry again.

"You're alive... You are such a clever child." I said as I recall him saying things that made me misunderstood him.

"Have you calmed down?" I looked at Regan, his eyes contains longingness.

"Yes... I'm so sorry. It's just I had this strange dream before I woke up."

"A dream?"

"Yeah, in the dream, I met him in the field of daisies, now that I think about it, daisies looks just like the both of you."

Regan smiled and he kissed my forehead.

"He talked to me in the dream, saying such as thank you for holding onto me. I easily misinterpreted it when Jennie didn't say anything when I asked her about the baby."

"That's because I told everyone to keep their mouth shut about the baby. I want to surprise you, but instead you're the one who surprised me."

I stared at the baby, he really looks like Regan...

"Do you want to hold him?" He asked. I shook my head.

"I can't, I might drop him."

"Silly, I know you won't do that. Come on, I'll teach you."

Regan told me to form my hands like I'm a monk and so I did, then he put the baby inside of my arms. My heart started beating as I feel my baby's warmth.

"I love you so much." I muttered as I stare at the child in my arms.

"And I love you too aswell."

Regan smiled and hugged me from behind. "I love you too Cressida..."

"Hmm Uwaah!"

I started rocking the baby back and fort but he just won't stop crying. "Regan? What's wrong?"

"Oh, it's because it's time for him to eat."

So I need to feed him? I looked at Regan blankly.

"Uhm, you should get out."

"Huh? Why?"

"Because I need to breastfeed?"

"Yeah, you can, go on."

"Yeah so go out."

"I already seen all of you, every nook and cranny." I blushed.

"Ugh, do what you want!"

Even though it's embarrassing for me to do this in front of him, I still need to feed my baby! And he's my husband so it's fine.

Since I'm wearing an off shoulder nightgown, it's easy for me to let out a boob for my child to suck on.

I supported his neck and head, since he's already whining a lot, it's easier to get him to suck on my breast.

To be honest it feels both uhm, good and weird. Probably because this is my first time. But most of all I feel relieved...

"Can you please stop staring?" I said.

Regan was watching our baby as his chin is on top of my shoulder.

"Hmm I wonder---." Before he could finish his sentence I cut him off.

"Oh just get out!"

A/N: I'm not heartless

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July 26, 2022

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