"Ah-ah fuck. Don't stop. Don't stoop",she moaned and Roman bucked his hips even harder making sure his length was deep inside her, making sure he would savor the moment and groaning while he reached his peak.

And as immediate as the whole spectacular thing was over, he toppled over Lisa's back laying on top of her naked body.

"That was-" he started and Ms Carter precisely, Lisa cut him off,

"Amazing. Exhilarating",she smiled while Roman got off her laying next to her.

She gathered the white sheets using them to cover her chest. Roman also got under the covers with Lisa planting her body on his chest. When they went out for their fifth date that too to eat sushi, sex was the last thing on his mind. He had already told Lisa that he wasn't ready for any commitments or entanglement yet when she came with a sequin dress that revealed her cleavage the entire time they dined, he simply couldn't take it. He had to take off that white sequin dress and see what lay beneath.

"I haven't done that for ages",Roman said his hand on her waist.

She raked her fingers on his chest, more like exploring his abs, his pecks, his arms. He didn't want to think about Mikaella at the moment, at such a wonderful moment. Yet all his thoughts went back to his dead wife. The sex most especially. How they would do it, with her straddling him and her brown orbs staring into his grey orbs. How much love she had in her eyes for him. Something about looking deep into each other's eyes while having sex made it enjoyable.

As if it wasn't just sex but making love, being one, consummating your marriage. Not that, sex with Lisa wasn't good. It was amazing and exhilarating as she had said, most especially because she let him take charge in the bedroom. But could he call it making love? Or was it just sex? Something he needed for a very long time.

"You, Mr Cervantes have a talent. What other positions are you going to surprise me with, tonight?"

He chuckled. Lisa was a minx, when it came to matters of the bedroom. He recalled how after one kiss in the elevator she was already touching his waist trying to undo his zipper so that his pants would fall off. And when they got to the hotel room, she had already started to undress and like any man in his situation he had followed her to the bathroom. Bent her over while the warm water drizzled on their heads and had sex.

It didn't just stop there, from there they went to the bed going at it like horny teenagers. Lisa was hot, beautiful even, had strong morals plus a strong personality and yet like a coward he felt the need to remind her that he wasn't ready. That maybe he would never be ready for a relationship with her right after they had just had sex. He was a prick, wasn't he?

"I-I'm afraid that's all for tonight. I would like to stay but unfortunately I have a rowdy teenager at home and a lot of work tomorrow"

Saying that was better than trying to act like a jerk and telling her that maybe whatever they had going on wasn't going to work. He wasn't technically lying, Seth was at home, God knows what ideas he had in his head, what if he threw a party or worse, called Tessa and they ended up doing something they would both regret. He certainly wasn't ready to be a grandfather. And work, there was a lot to do too at work.

"It reminded you of her, isn't it?" Lisa pulled from his embrace.

"What? No"

"You don't have to lie, Roman. Maybe I pushed you too hard into being an relationship with me. I get it, it will always be her in your heart...in your thoughts. I don't know, was it crazy that I thought you would fall for me? That all of those dates meant something? I guess I imagined it all, huh?"

"Lise-its not like that. Every moment we spent together was incredible. I haven't had this much fun since-she died-"

"And here comes the but. But you can't move on. It was nice knowing you Roman",Lisa stood up gathered her things from the ground, wearing them one by one before she got out of the door banging it on her way out.

"Nice going, Roman. You really nailed it this time",he said sarcastically, scratching his head and acknowledging that he was indeed an idiot.

Many men out there would kill to have Lisa in their lives. She was funny, kind, honest, a great cook, had a booming personality and just like that with a snap of his finger, he had let her slip through his hands. After minutes of groaning, self-blame and cussing, he got out of the Milton hotel, getting his car and driving straight home.

The thoughts of driving by Lisa's house crossed his mind but he was the last person she needed to see. He figured that she needed space and that he really needed to apologize for being a first grade asshole.

Twenty minutes later, he was pulling up in his driveway, parking his car and getting his keys. Turning the knob slightly he heaved a hallelujah that there wasn't a party going on in his house.

"Dude, are you really trying to tell me you think the first movie was better?"

"Yes, I mean the CGI was a little shabby but it's still a classic"

The voices of Seth and his bestfriend, Bryant came from his living room and he took off his coat heading to where they were seated.

"Mr Cervantes", Bryant stood up with a bowl of popcorns in his hands.

"It's alright. How many times do I have to remind you that you can call me, Roman?"

"A force of habit, sir. I mean Roman"

The kid said nervously, Seth stood up parting Bryant's back and telling him to start the movie and that he would be back in a few.

"Wow, you look like shit. The date didn't go well, huh? And if you've come home this early it means you guys haven't hooked up yet",Seth whispered and Roman's brows creased.

"What? There's no more hooking"

"You broke up? Come on, Aunt Marga and I were rooting for both of you. Dad, if you are worried about me, I'm totally down with Lisa being my step mom. She's a nice woman"

And that's the thing with his son, he acted more mature than his age. Their conversations were like how he and Kevin conversed back then.

"Why don't you get back to the movie and we'll talk about it tomorrow. Goodnight and don't stay up too late, you know how Marga is"

"Goodnight, dad"

Precisely how Marga was with time management. While he ascended the stairs, he thought about getting Marga a boyfriend. It was high time she had a family of her own, having stayed with them for too long and having acted like a mother figure to his son.

xXxXxXxX

Approximately six hours sitting in his office chair having had no lunch break and he could already tell that talking to Lisa would have to wait till the next day. His secretary brought file after file, document after document that needed signing.

"Are you sure these are mine? Kevin's in charge of matters with the landscape designers",he flipped the documents again, reading them.

Some of them were supposed to be taken care of by Kevin not him. Or was Kevin trying to put all the load on his hands?

"Sir, his secretary handed them to me under orders by your grandfather, Sir Niccolo"

"Why? Where's Kevin?"

"As from what I heard, he's in New Zealand. For personal reasons "

What personal reasons? Roman questioned as far as he knew, Kevin had no businesses in New Zealand. Come to think of it, they had no vacation homes there but he didn't want to dig deep in the matter. Roman had stopped meddling in his brother's life because at the end of the day, there would always be trouble.

Trouble that followed everyone involved so whatever Kevin was doing in New Zealand, didn't matter to him.