What a day! Broken fibulas, two surgeries, three broken toes, six follow-ups and four cast placements and I was pooped. I laid down on my sofa in my office taking a deep breath trying to collect my thoughts. Turning on my I-Pad I brushed my hair back, closing my eyes.

A slow smile crossed my face when old school Jon B and Babyface smooth voices radiated through the speakers singing, Someone to Love. Sean and I were both seventeen and seniors in high school. It was one of my favorite songs but also the song we lost our virginity too.

Although we dated other people in high school, no one was ever good enough to give our virginity too. We both wanted our first time to be special and with someone we cared about. So for weeks Sean and I discussed it and decided that we would do it with one another the night of homecoming. Unknown to anyone, I watched my mother's porn videos just to know what to do.

The day had finally come and I was so nervous. All day images of us screwing up entered my mind. Would it be nice and sweet or would it be rushed, or would it be the most horrific night of my life. Sean gave me no clues and I was at his mercy. I didn't like surprises, I wanted to control every aspect. Maybe I would be the one that ruined everything and he would go running out the door in complete shock, never wanting to see me again but then I would be crushed because losing my best friend would kill me. Hopefully there weren't any expectations, promises, hell I had no idea. For all I knew it could not even happen. Maybe if it was so awful we would laugh and watch movies all night. We would never have to talk about it again since we got accepted to different colleges and we could chunk it up as a bad night.

That night I wore a long purple satin dress with beaded pumps. My hair was pinned and I splurged at the mall's makeup counter to have my make-up done. Sean looked so handsome in his tux. He had saved his Christmas money along with his money he made working at his Uncle Jeff's garage to pay for a limo and hotel room.

We were both on cloud nine as we had won King and Queen over Peter Roberts and Karen Taylor. We had lied to our parents telling them that we were staying with friends so they wouldn't find out exactly what we were doing.

When I opened the door to our suite, rose petals were on the floor, the lights were dimmed and he took my hand leading me to the living room. He had pushed all the furniture back and created a small dance floor. Michael Jackson's, You Are Not Alone, was playing in the background while we slow danced. I giggled as he pulled me close and sang the words in my ear. As the song ended he dipped me slowly pulling me up for a kiss.

He deepened it, causing butterflies in my stomach and looking into his eyes it felt right. I had always thought about my first time. I wanted it to be special and Sean had pulled out all the stops. The closest he had seen me naked was when I wore a bikini but now there would be nothing left to the imagination.

He led me to the bedroom where there were fresh strawberries with chocolate, a bottle of wine and a small box on the nightstand. He sat on the bed and brought me to stand in between his legs.

"Are you sure you want to do this Lizzy Bear?"

"I'm not going to lie, I'm so nervous, but yes. How many people can say that their first time was with their best friend?" I could feel my heart beating so fast in my chest while it echoed in my ear.

"It's me Lizzy. There are no expectations. I just want it to be special for you. You deserve it," he said intertwining our fingers.

"I'm scared Sean."

He stood up and cupped my face. Leaning in he kissed me on the side of my mouth. Moving slowly he unpinned my hair and kissed me down my neck before the straps to my dress were down my shoulders. He walked behind me and unzipped my dress and I watched as it pooled at my feet.

"Lizzy there is no other person I would want to share this moment with than you," he said with sincerity in his eyes and with that knowledge I knew I had nothing to fear. I heard the Jon B song playing in the background and at that moment I decided to let go of my anxiety. He was right, there was no other person I would want to give myself too because I knew I could trust him.

I undressed him. I had seen him half naked before but usually it was sweaty from practice. Now I was surprised that Sean looked the way he did. He was lean, muscular and I couldn't help my eyes from widening when I saw what he was working with. It was no way it would fit. He must have seen my face because he brought my face back up to his.

He laid me down against the big puffy pillows dipping the berries into the chocolate. He tried to feed me the berry but we ended up laughing as the chocolate seem to spill down my mouth and across my chest. He didn't waste any time cleaning it off. His warm tongue against my skin had me running my fingers through his hair. His tongue started to cause my skin to heat up leaving unknown delightful sensations sweeping through my body.

Closing my eyes I let him take the lead and I wasn't disappointed. Before long, my legs widen as he kissed between my thighs and then to my most buried treasure. Slowly he slipped off my panties and he mumbled something naughty. I couldn't stop myself from pulling on the sheets. My body arched as the feeling of pleasure took over. It was nothing like I had ever felt before.

I remember moaning his name, pushing his head and feeling his tongue taking me to new heights. This was a whole new experience for me and I loved it. He didn't stop until this deep undercover sensation in me that once sizzled turn into something that exploded. He raised up for just a moment putting on a condom before his attention came back to me.

I tried catching my breath while he kissed his way up and he unbuckled my bra in the front. He played with my breasts as my eyes tried to focus and I felt him at my entrance below.

I held my breath as he whispered words of encouragement. He raised my arms above my head and intertwined our fingers. We looked into each other's eyes and I felt water running down mine. He kissed the corner of my eyes and the pain started to slowly fade away.

"It's just you and me. You're doing great."

I leaned up and kissed him. I could taste myself against his lips causing all my emotions to go haywire. This was really happening and there was no turning back. The pain finally subsided as his covered thickness entered me to the hilt and my body began to relax. He kissed me trying to sooth the pain away and then our bodies finally found their rhythm and we both found our pleasure. Moments later we laid in each other's arms staring at the ceiling.

"I love you Lizzy. I always have and always will," he whispered to me.

"I love you too," I said turning my attention to him.

"I have this for you," he said reaching over to the nightstand. I remembered seeing the box when I came in. The little black box had a red bow on top and I quickly untied it. I opened it to find a charm bracelet. I looked from it to him.

"It's just a little something. Call it an early graduation gift."

"You didn't have to do this. Thank you."

"I know, but I wanted you to have something to remember this day. I wasn't going to give it to you if I sucked but I think I came through don't you think?"

I started to laugh. He was already getting the big head. I held out my arm for him to put the bracelet on. On the charm bracelet was a basketball, a crown, a caduceus and charm with a girl and boy hugging with best friends engraved at the bottom.

"I'm assuming you like it?" He asked as he hooked the clasp.

"I love it Sean. You know me so well."

Once it was hooked I caught him off guard by rolling on top of him.

"What's this, someone's got some courage."

"I can't let you get a big head," I said leaning down pecking him on the lips and then down his chest. "Round two," I said and we enjoyed the rest of the night.

It's amazing even after all these years I can still hear him saying how much he loves me when I'm all alone or if I need a friend. Although it was a wonderful night, we never slept together again. His friendship was worth more to me than anything else and I didn't want to give that up.

I opened my eyes to feel unexpected tears rolling down my face. I raised my arm to see the bracelet I wore like a badge dangling from my wrist. When I heard this song, or a memory or just staring at the tons of pictures I have of us, something inside makes me miss him so much and lately it's been getting worse.

My phone rang and I looked down to see it was Aries. Wiping my face and getting my thoughts together I answered.

"Hey there."

"Hello sweetheart. I was calling to tell you camp is running a little over and I will be late getting to your place."

"Actually I have some paperwork to finish up here before I can even think about going home."

"I see we both had busy days."

"I guess so."

"I will call you when I finish up here at the field."

"Okay."

We hung up and I got up from the sofa. I walked up to the tall windows and touched the glass. It was cool against my fingers as the sun was beginning to set. Sometimes I wondered if Sean and I would have gotten married how life would have been. Would we both be successful, have kids or would we had ruined each other lives?

It didn't matter because I wouldn't risk losing a friendship for a sexual one. That one night was just two friends consummating their love and friendship for one another. There were no strings attached. We had agreed because we wanted our first time to be with someone special as it connected us for the rest of our lives. There were so many ifs, but for now I was happy with things.

Aries was a good guy and hopefully he would accept Sean's and I relationship and things could go smoothly.

Could Aries and I be happy together? I didn't know but who knows things could change. If things were to go deeper, he would have to find a way to get along with Sean. Sean and I had history and we both helped each other through the hard times and were there doing the good ones too. Sean and I were like peanut butter and jelly, we were good together. We could also be separate but not for long.

I had been in deep thought until I heard my phone ringing. I saw Sean's picture pop up on the Facetime screen.

"Hey Sean," I said watching his face come across the screen. "How was practice?" He still looked a little red in the face.

"Good. I'm actually headed out to hang with a few teammates. I don't want to go home to an empty house."

I knew the feeling. My house wasn't as big as his but sometimes it seemed bigger empty.

"Did you get a chance to read the article?"

"No. I just got out of surgery."

"You okay? You look tired. Did Aries keep you up all night?"

"I'm fine. I have been running all day Sean."

"Are you sure?"

"Yes."

"I have the date for my awards banquet. It's next Saturday. It's formal and you will never guess who the entertainment is?"

"Biz Markie? No, let's see...Two Chains," I said laughing.

"Hell no!" he said laughing to himself. "It's a female you absolutely adored growing up."

"That could be anybody?"

"True, but I think I am going to keep you guessing. By the way I just sent you your ticket confirmation for next Thursday. I figure we could hang out, go shopping and you could cook your shrimp creole."

"So you did all this so I could cook for you?"

"No...but I miss your cooking. No one can cook like you. Plus I miss you and being home. It's the closest I will get to coming home anytime soon," he said with those big puppy dog eyes that seem to squeeze the heart strings.

"I swear you are going to be the death of me."

"I love you too Lizzy Bear. Oh I just emailed you the article."

"Why are you so gunho about this article?"

"Because you need to be prepared. Just in case it's not you he is talking about. He's probably cheating on you right now. I don't trust him and you shouldn't either."

"Sean you have never given him a chance. I swear sometimes you act like my Uncle Rick."

"Uncle Rick is cool, Aries is not. I don't want to see you get hurt."

"Aries and I are just friends. You need to be worried about your love life."

"I don't have one anymore, so I can focus on yours."

"Hahaha very funny."

"Friends to lovers, then a couple to oh... marriage. I don't want that to happen Lizzy."

I looked at his face across the screen, did he really mean that?

"Look Liz I love you. I always have, always will but you can't go falling for him. You are too good for him. You need a man that can give you the world that can comfort you when you're sad and someone to be there when the lightening hits."

"I'm not five."

"So you are no longer scared of lightening?"

I bit my bottom lip. I was but I couldn't confess that. Sean knew all my quirkiness. He could even tell when I was lying. He knew so much about me until it was scary at times.

"That's what I thought," he said with a chuckle.

"Not funny. There are other things that occupy my mind off of it." I looked down at my bracelet.

"If you say so...liar!"

"Goodbye Sean."

"Fine, Sassy pants. Just read the article. Call me later and we can discuss it."

"Bye Messypants," I said ending the call. I went to my email and sure enough there was a link. I clicked on it and there Aries was posing with the article below.

Tapping on the link was a video feed of him getting interviewed by some commentator. Aries was clean shaven, that suit and tie he was wearing was on point. He looked so handsome. I was so caught up in watching his lips, I missed half of the video.

Aries: "Yes and to tell you the truth I think I found that needle. She keeps me grounded and we are friends first which is really important to me. I've known her for about a year. She's smart, very attractive and who knows she could be my happily ever after."

Reporter: "You heard it here first on SportsTime."

Was Aries referring to me? Or maybe Sean was right, was he being shady seeing other women? I never asked for a commitment from Aries. It was fine that we had an open relationship but I wanted to know if he was messing with other women to protect myself. He guaranteed me he wasn't. Hell I'm not even the jealous type but I didn't like drama and now I was wondering who he was talking about. I tried calling Aries but his phone went to voicemail. Looking at my watch it was almost eight pm. Damn it! I had let Sean in my head!

I took off my white coat and grabbed my purse. Too many questions and not enough answers. I knew there was only one way to get them and if everything went according to plan those questions would be answered by morning.