"Excuse me?" I coughed on my water. He motioned me over to the corner and pulled out his phone. He opens the OnlyFans app and went to my account. He was subscribed to my account and everything.

"This you right?"

I just stared at the phone. My mind was racing as I tried to think of what to say. I couldn't even deny it, he had the evidence right here in my face.

"Ion even gotta ask you does he know cause I know if he did y'all wouldn't even be in a relationship. Look I fucks with you, you cool people. This is why I'm coming to you about this first and not Q." He said stuffing his phone in his pocket.

"How long have you known?" I asked looking at him.

"I forgot I had an account until the other day. I get on the app and I'm scrolling and then you pop up."

"Look it's not what it looks like. I'm only doing it to put myself through the school." I told him.

"You explaining this to the wrong person." He chuckles shaking his head. "Imma give you the chance to tell him but if you don't I definitely will."

I knew I would have to tell him at some point that I was on OnlyFans but I didn't think that shit would be this soon. I didn't plan on telling him until after I deleted my account.

"What y'all over here talking about?" Q asked as he walked over to us.

"I was just asking her who idea it was to put me on with her friend" Jalen laughed and gave me a look. "She's cool as hell."

"Y'all over here sneak dissing?" Michelle says as she approached us.

"Jalen said yo ass weird as hell" Q teased.

"Boy fight me" Michelle laughed rolling her eyes. "Paris what we finna do? You staying here and I'm going back to the hotel?"

"Nah I'm gonna go back with you"

"I thought you were staying with me?" Q furrowed his eyebrows at me.

"I just remembered that we have an early flight in the morning" I replied. I really didn't want to spend the night with him because I knew I would be feeling guilty all night.

"I'll get you to the airport on time" Q told me.

"Yeah spend the night with ya boy. Y'all can stay up and talk all night, or whatever the kids are doing these days" Jalen adds in looking at me.

"Well could you take me to the hotel so I can pack up my stuff?"

"Yeah that's cool" He nods his head.

"Alright bro I'mma head out. I'mma get up with you later" Jalen says dapping up with Q. "Imma call you" He says to Michelle.

We waited around for everybody to leave before Q took us back to the hotel. The entire ride back to the hotel I was silent and trying to collect my thoughts.

I have no idea how this man is going to react to me telling him I'm on onlyfans. I really like him and I don't want him to break up with me but when it comes to this line of work, men are super insecure and refuse to be girls doing this kind of work. It's not like I was on there doing full blown porn. I was still keeping things PG-13 but I know just the stigma around Onlyfans was enough for him to be pissed at me.

"I'll be right down" I said to him as he put the car in park. "Ight" He reclined his seat and Michelle and I got out the car.

"Bitch" I instantly said as we walked to the door. "Bitchhhh" I said again trying not to freak out.

"Girl what? Spill it" She said as we walked through the automatic sliding doors.

"Bitch" I said a third time.

"Say bitch one more time and I'mma beat your ass" Michelle said as she pressed the elevator button.

"Jalen knows I'm on onlyfans"

"What?!" She exclaimed very loudly. I looked around and everybody's eyes was on us luckily the elevator doors opened so we quickly got on.

"How do you know? What did he say?"

"He came up to me at the party and was like 'Did you buy that painting with your footlocker money or onlyfans money'"

"Bitchhhh!" Michelle said drawing out her words "Why is everybody recognizing your ass?"

"I don't fucking know!" I replied "He told me that if I don't tell Q that he will." I said as we walked into our hotel room.

"So what're you finna do?" Michelle asked me.

"I have to tell him. I would rather him find out from me than his friend." I say as I started to stuff my clothes into my bag.

"His friend is a fucking lame. He just needs to mind his damn business" Michelle said "How he in your business like you his bitch or something?"

"Exactly" I reply. My phone vibrated in my hand and it was a text from Q telling me to hurry up.

"So what you're gonna wait until the morning?"

"Yeah" I took off my jumpsuit and changed into a t shirt and some sweats.

"No you gotta tell him right now. If you wait until you're finna leave he's gonna be even more mad at you. You can't just drop a bomb and run away"

"Welp, wish me luck" I huffed. I slipped on my slides and grabbed my keys so I could get back upstairs.

As I got onto the elevator heading to the parking garage, my mind was just racing. I didn't know where to start or how to explain anything.

"Wait" I said as he started up the car. I could feel his eyes staring me down but I didn't say anything I just stared straight ahead trying to think.

"Ummm wassup" He finally says.

"We need to talk"

"Umm okay. What do we need to talk about?" He questions turning off the engine. "You breaking up with me or something?" He adds in.

"No" I reply back. I leaned my back against the door turning my body towards him. "It's about your friend Jalen"

"What about him?" He frowned at me.

"Well you know how like when we first started talking and you asked me what I did and I told you I how I work at FootLocker and I'm a student right?"

He nods his head slowly. I could tell he was trying to understand where this conversation was going.

"I umm kinda left out that I do OnlyFans too" I finally say. He furrowed his eyebrows at me "That's that porn shit people be talking about?"

"It's not porn. Well I mean there's people that do porn on there but it's more than just porn. You can do anything"

"So what you be doing on there then Paris?" He frowned at me.

"Nothing really"

"Lemme see your account pull it up"

"Huh?"

"You heard me. Lemme see your account"

I could tell he was pissed at me. I put in my password wrong a couple times hoping it would eventually lock me out.

"Use your fucking face. Quit playing" Q tells me.

"Sorry my finger slipped" I replied. I unlocked my phone with my face and swiped through my phone slowly just trying to give him time to calm down. I opened the app and handed it over to him. I watched him as he scrolled through my page clicking on every single video shaking his head.

"Bro yo ass-wooow" He says still scrolling through the page. "Look what they're fucking saying to you"

"You've been doing this shit since we've been together?" He looked over at me and then back down at the phone. I could hear my moans and my voice talking as he clicked on various different videos.

"What's private facetime calls? Fuck you be doing?" Q questioned with a frown upon his face. I know he didn't actually want the answer to that so I just stared back at him blankly. "I only did one"

"Here man take this shit" He smacks his lips and tosses my phone onto my lap. He covers his face with hands and sighs loudly. "I can't even look at you right now. That's what you like to do? Show your body on the internet for thirsty ass niggas?"

"Look at the end of the day I'm grown as fuck and what I do to make my money is none of your concern." I replied with a shrug. "My tuition gotta get paid somehow and fucking footlocker ain't cutting it"

"So what does Jalen gotta do with this?"

"Remember that night at his party he said that he recognized me. Well turns out it's because he's subscribed to my page. He told me that if I didn't tell you about my page that he would. I knew you would rather hear this from me than him."

"You should've told me this from the jump"

"It was none of your concern"

"None of my concern?" He scrunched up his face at me "You've been on my phone everyday for the past what? 5 months like everything all cool and normal. So what we get off the phone and you go play with your pussy for random niggas? I halfway understand you not telling me while we were just talking but we've been together for two months now. If Jalen never said anything were you ever gonna tell me?"

"Yeah"

"When?"

"Whenever I was ready"

"Does your parents know about this? They mad at me cause I flew you out meanwhile you on the internet doing strip teases and shit."

"No"

"You sitting up in my face questioning my relationship with my ex whole time you talking random niggas through a nut." Q shakes his head.

He sat back in his seat and stared out the windshield not saying anything.

"I really don't see the big deal. The most I've shown was my boobs"

He still didn't say anything so we just sat there in silence for what seemed liked forever. I tried to read his face but he wasn't showing any type of emotion. I totally understand him being upset that I kept this from him but at the end of the day, I can do whatever I want. He does not own me. I am not his property.

"You're right, you're grown and you can do whatever you want, it's your body. I just don't feel comfortable being with somebody that's doing stuff like that on the internet and who doesn't respect themselves. I'm cool with the feet shit, but I can't get behind the other shit." He finally says.

"I don't respect myself? What're you saying?"

I absolutely do not regret my decision of being on OnlyFans. I've made more money doing this than I would working 9-5 for 2 years at Footlocker. I'm not doing anything illegal, I'm not hurting anyone I'm just making money. I don't see why there's such a negative stigma around OnlyFans. If I was out here cracking cards and stealing money from people's bank accounts no one would even care but me showing a little titty is the upmost terrible thing I could ever do.

"Can you delete it?"

"This is the way I pay for my tuition. So no, I can't delete it."

"Well we're done"

"What happened to 'I want you Paris' 'It's me and you'" I questioned. He put his elbow on the door and rested his head on his hand staring out the windshield just ignoring the question. "So we're done?" I repeated his statement.

"Umm hello I'm talking to you"

He sucks his teeth and glances over at me.

"That's what I said didn't I?" He said looking down at his lap.

"Wow" I scoffed nodding my head "Fuck you" I got out the car and slammed the door behind me.