♡︎𝑌𝑢𝑎𝑛 𝑆𝑜𝑙𝑒𝑖𝑙 𝐹𝑜𝑟𝑡𝑢𝑛𝑒♡︎

"𝚈𝚘𝚞'𝚛𝚎 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚌𝚑𝚒𝚕𝚍 𝚝𝚑𝚊𝚝 𝚕𝚒𝚔𝚎𝚜 𝚝𝚘 𝚙𝚕ay 𝚠𝚒𝚝𝚑 𝚏𝚒𝚛𝚎 𝚞𝚗𝚝𝚒𝚕𝚕 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚏𝚒𝚗𝚊𝚕𝚕𝚢 𝚕𝚎𝚊𝚛𝚗 𝚢𝚘𝚞𝚛 𝚕𝚎𝚜𝚜𝚘𝚗 𝚜𝚝𝚎𝚊𝚍𝚢 𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚛𝚎 𝚍𝚊𝚗𝚌𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚠𝚒𝚝𝚑 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚍𝚎𝚟𝚒𝚕 𝚊𝚜 𝚒𝚏 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚍𝚘𝚗'𝚝 𝚔𝚗𝚘𝚠 𝚢𝚘𝚞'𝚛𝚎 𝚖𝚊𝚍𝚎 𝚝𝚘 𝚋𝚎 𝚊 𝚋𝚕𝚎𝚜𝚜𝚒𝚗𝚐"

-𝔸ℙℝ𝕀𝕃 𝟘𝟝-

Walking around the house I started looking for Makai, he wasn't anywhere he usually was and I hate to say it I really do...but I've become clingy. Whether I wanted to admit it or not. I honestly loved being under him.

"Bubba!!" I pouted going into his bathroom hoping to find him in there even though I checked in there already.

"Kai"

"Ky'lan I'm not playing with you I know your here because all of your cars are there and you don't like taking ubers if you decide to scare me...ima cry."

Slowly walking around the corner knowing he was going to pop up somewhere, I groaned because I hated being scared.

"KAIIII." Screaming when he tackled me into the rug.

"Why. Would. You. Do. That. Stupid!!!" I mugged him punching him in his shoulder.

He looked into my arms still having having my wrist in his hands, straddling me.

"But it was fun ainnit." Knowingly he smirked at her.

"No it wasn't now move." I tried to get up, but he didn't budge

Stupid big bitch.

"Ky'lan move." I tried to be strict. But he still was acting like I wasn't talking to him at all .

Thinking I got a way to get up not liking the feeling in my stomach "I gotta go peepee." I smirked knowing he was going to let me up.

Looking me dead I'm my face "pee then." He mumbled not moving or hesitating once.

"You want me to be R Kelly soooooo baddddddd." Raising an eyebrow. We both started laughing.

...

Seeing Kai laying down in my bed with my led lights I made him buy me earlier this week.

I got happy and smiley. Then scolded myself for it. Because the fuck you so happy for.

Standing there for a while I noticed him staring at me.

"Come hea, why yu just standing over dea looking dumb..."

he opened his arms and I hesitantly went in. "Why yu so scared fa, like we don't do this allla time..weirdo. Stop acting weird."

And I honestly didn't know, we cuddled every day. Especially at night I never had a problem with it. Never thought twice. He was the first person I ever cuddled with. The first person that I had willingly let see my naked and the first person I felt comfortable around. The fuck is up with me.

"I don't know Kai." I mumbled into his neck, feeling weird again.

I felt drained....again.

"Mmm.. it's gone be okay sappy ass.. let's take a nap." He turned us on his side. Still as I wrapped around him.

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Waking up. I felt that Kai wasn't in the bed with me.

Sneaky bitch.

Walking into his room rubbing my eyes, still holding one of the Kaylani, one of the teddy bears he got me from Sea world.

We stared at each other for a calm minutes till he said my name. But he said it different this time.

Sitting in his chair he was smoking a wood. Looking like he always did. He ain't never been weird looking or ugly but it was different.

Taking another pull from his wood, he sucked it in for a second time.

"Yuan." His voice was deep and husky from the smoke he had just inhaled. Sounding sexier than he had ever before.

"Y-yes." I mumbled looking down. Feeling my cheeks burn.

"Come hea." Sitting back in his chair he finally looked back up at me with hooded eyes.

Walking to him with a whole bunch of thoughts running through my mind. When did I become this shy around his boney ass. And why am I just listening to him instead of talking back.

I couldn't understand what was happening to me. My stomach was flipping out of control as I walked slowly across the room to him, not daring to look away from him. Feeling like if I broke eye contact I would regret it.

"Mmcht stop playin wimmie and come hea Soleil." He raised his voice but still kept his cool demeanor.

See this is where he knew he fucked up.

"Bitch. I will leave this whole fucken room. I was trying to comply but yo- you know what no." I walked out backwards with my middle finger up.

Before I could make it to the door I was snatched up. And thrown over his shoulder.

"Whea yu think yu was going." Chuckling he threw me on his bed. "Hmm?" Tilting his head to the side he straddled her again.

In my head somewhere I knew he was only acting like this because he was high. Well yea, we cuddled and stuff but this was different he was acting different.

Usually when he gets high he goes straight to bed. And sleeps not really bothering me. Or he's really chill and dumb. I don't know what type of weed he was smoking but I like I like.

"Moooovvveeeee." Whining I tried to pry him off of me.

"Nooorrrrr." He giggled? Cus that wasn't his normal ass chuckle.

"Kai." I mumbled but I didn't get shit but a snore in return.

"Stupid bitch gone fall asleep on me the fuck. Shit like this not supposed to happen what if he would've suffocated me or something. Big lanky ass bitch." I mumbled trying to get comfortable under him but I couldn't move. So I got irritated.

"Dumb long neck lightskin as shifted face built bitch. Stupid ape built bitch, big footed big head skinny bodied bitch, ole no growing pubic hair assss bitchhhhhhhh." I talked about him as I played with the back of his hair.

After about 20 minutes I fell asleep with his big ass on top of me.

...

Waking up from my forced nap I tried to get up so I can use the bathroom.

"Kai."

"......"

"Bubba."

"......"

Every time I called out his name I got nothing in response.

"Ky'lan!!!!!!." Screaming in his ear he didn't even jump, taking his head out of my neck he just looked at me like I was dumb.

"Shut the fuck up n go back ta sleep." I could barley hear him because he put his head right back into my neck.

"Stupid bitch I have to go use the bathroom. "

"Do it look like I care cus I don't."

"I'm finna pee on your bed."

"Get the fuck away from me bro." He let me up, but not before grabbing my leg and yanking me back "yu betta come back too"

"Yea yea." Kicking his hand away from my ankle I stood up speed walking to my room.

Grabbing my phone I rushed into my bathroom closing and locking the door. Immediately I pressed on Jordyns contact,

"Bitch what do yu-" before she could even finished her sentence I blurted out.

"I think I like Ky'lan." Clapping my hands over my mouth.

Bitch this niggah kidnapped yu and yu like him. If it ain't nothing wrong with him...it's definitely something wrong with you.

Jordyn looked at me blankly on the other side of the phone. "Well I would hope yu like him y'all live together."

"No bitch I, I think I like him like him." Saying it slowly because sometimes she could be you know... Jordynish.

"You don't have to say it like I'm slow, I understand now damn."

"Ok but like, what do I do."

"Well you could tell hi-"

"NO-" I yelled a little to loud because Jordyn mugged me. I shut up and let her finish knowing she hated being interrupted.

"Or you could wait and see if he likes you back, yu could ask him, try to kiss him." She was stating these things like she didn't know I was bold but I wasn't bold when it came to shit like this. Especially feelings. But ESPECIALLY bo- men.

"NOOOO." Yuan whined sliding down the wall in lightskin motion. "I'm too thuggish for any of these ideas. Im a real ass niggah how you expect me to do this shit."I twisted my face at my screen.

"Baby girl-your helpless, honestly." Then she hung up on me.

"Ok I know what im going to do, play it cool. And see any signs that he wants me. If I don't then oh well I'll move on, because me chase or run after a niggah tuh....... might do a little joggity jog but that's it." I mumbled to myself. Agreeing with what I was saying.

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"Come on we going to da hospital." Kai mumbled peeking his head in my door.

After I noticed I blah bla him I went to sleep in my own room. And haven't talked to him sense.

"Why." Sliding off the bed I looked at him strange.

"Bro I'm not inna mood right na. Put on your fuccen slides and let's go."

I straight faced him not liking how he was talking to me. But did what he said after he straight faced me.

Getting into the car the whole drive was silent, but not the silent we were used to this shit was dead ass awkward. He looked upset, but numb to what ever was happening and I felt weird for caring about how he felt.

Once we got there he went straight to the desk.

"I'm hea for Xaviyon Deandre Anderson." He spoke urgently as the woman didn't even look up at him

"I can't let you in without and ID, or tell you his current state of condition,"

I could tell he was getting overwhelmed even though his face still held the nonchalant expression it did most of the time we were in public.

"Ok look ma'am, either your going to let us in here or... I could beat your ass...then you could let us in." I smiled politely.

"Do I need to call security." she finally looked up. And by the way she was looking at Kai I could tell she knew him.

"Hey.....K." She tried to smile and be flirty.

Welp couldn't be something to serious bitch don't even know his nickname nickname lol.

"Bitch this isn't the time for this.."

"K who you talkin to like that."

"Just because you got a new bitch."

And this is where she knew she fucked up.

"First of all DONT call her out her name- yu know what." Kai paused.

"Bro yu stupid ass peanut butter jar built ass bitch needa leave me alone. That why yo mama dead and yo daddy a drug addict that'll get one put in his ass just to get a hit. Yo walls loose as hell yo lace lifting and yo teeth shifting in the same way looking like Nannie mc fee before she glew up. Yu built like an improper fractions and yu got 1 too many chins. Yo sisters don't love yu Nomore and yo car be sounding like it's singing Nicki Minaj "boom ba boom boom. Now if yu don't let me in ima shoot up yo momma house with that baldheaded cross eyed bastard baby in it."

Looking at her intently then throwing his hands up at the woman as to tell her to hurry the fuck up.

"O-o-ok, um he's still in surgery, room 104 on the E.R unit, fifth floor. When they ask who let you in show them these bracelets,"the nurse bitch mumbled.

Grabbing my head leading me to the elevator it was nothing but that unwanted ass silence.

Once we got up there, everybody was already here. Jordyn, Wyoni, and Amari, two older people I guessed to be his parents and a younger boy sat together mugging us as we walked in.

I shook his hand off of mine and went straight to Jordyn.

"The fuck happened." I mumbled to her.

"Dre got caught lacking, thet shot him twice in the stomach once in the arm and neck, he went into surgery 3 hours ago and we haven't heard from his baldheaed ass doctor yet."

"Oh.." I didn't want to talk but now I felt bad for giving Kai a hard time.

"This is all your fault." The woman in the corner spoke quietly.

"THIS IS ALL YOUR FAULT." She started screaming in Kai's face.

"You took my babey into this 'street life' all because he wanted to be LOYAL, now look at him," she spat bitterly at Kai.

But Kai didn't even flinch. He just stared straight ahead.

I sighed, it was nod going on 9 pm don't nobody got time for the whole angry black mom speech. Like guh go sit Donne some where. Wobbling all over the damn place.

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At 11 PM Dre was announced Brian dead.

They said he had not one functioning brain cell left.

At 11:10 PM Dre woke up with the quickness.

"Shut that shit down" he mumbled. "And turn off them bright ass lights looking like Kai skin color in this fucken room." Groaning he turned his head into the pillow.

"I can still hear his voice" Mazi cried harder. "It feels like he's right here with meeee."

"You stupid dumb fuck." Mari slapped the back of his head. "That's because he is."

We were all shocked but happy as hell.

"You wanna he 50 Cent soo badddd." Jordyn chuckled mushing his head.

"IM NOT GOING NO WHEREEEE". His voiced cracked but I don't think he cared.

Tuning everybody out I looked at Kai. He was staring at the wall in silence.

"Y'all I'm going to uh, take Kai home it's been a long day....happy your alive bitch," I rushed out now grabbing ahold of his hand.

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When we got home he went straight to his room.

Honestly I'm horrible with emotions. So I didn't know what to do at this point. I was never really around anybody but me.

Going into his he looked at me then looked back at his phone that was highlighting his dark ass room.

Well bitch I'm trynna help yo traumatized ass out the hell.

Breathing out I went to him.

And pulled him in for an unexpected hug. Feeling him relax completely.

"I'm okay." He tried to pull away lazily but I held him there.

"It's something that I've had to go through since I was little, watching or hearing about people I care for die. The streets ain't loving. Don't no body give a damn bout if you got kids or a wive or a family to feed. It's either eat, starve, or be eaten. I won't even fight when my times coming." He laughed at the last part I guess as an intent to make it more happy.

"No, I'm not super preppy about life but don't be dumb live that shit." I was still holding him. Trying to make him understand.

"Naw..I can't kill but expect not to be killed. That's not how the world goes around."

"Kai, no matter what your a good person. Your not the nicest person but your a good fucken guy. And you can still start over.

"Your so weird. No matter what way yuh put it. Ima killa, I done robbed people just to make sure I ate, beat niggahs have to death for money, I'm just as guilty." He shrugged his shoulders.

I didn't care that he didn't care it was just the blatant disrespect on life, people that wanted theirs are gone but yu have yours.

"Everybody just leaves anyways." He cackled. "Ima monster, or people get to sick of staying around because I'm difficult, and heartless yu will too."

"I promis you, I'm not going no fucken where." I kissed his forehead like he does mine. "No where." I mumbled rocking him back and forth.

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"Yuan." Kai spoke in a shaky voice.

"Yes bubba." Giving him my full attention putting my phone down.

"Yu promise?"

"Promise what?" I questioned honestly confused.

"Never mind" mumbling I could see his look of disappointment.

Boy if you want to tell me something just say it PUSSY.

"Boy what?"

"Yu promise yu ain't gone leave meh?"

"I wouldn't have said the shit if I didn't."

I shrugged "you stupid all the time and get on my nerves. You hurt my feelings all the time and don't know how to be mid honest and nice. But I wouldn't leave you...your my bestfriend."

I cringed like hell saying that shit. Bestfriend bitch if you don't tell tell himmm.

"I know outside of the house you have to be somebody with a cold hearted ass demeanor. And do dumb shit....but as soon as you walk in those doors. Your not K, K3 Killa or none of that. Your Kai, my Bubba my bestfriend I don't care if you want to cry your eyes out. Or vent about how you didn't want to kill somebody. Even if you tell me all the gore about killing somebody. I don't give a damn man. As long as when you lay down to go to sleep you can actually rest and not give a damn almost as much as me."

He didn't talk back so I thought he was sleep and I just wasted a bomb ass ride or die speech.

"You hear me." I poked his cheek.

"Yea I heard yuh mama." He put his face deep inside my chest.

Weirdo.

I just thought this was funny. Instead of him spooning me or holding me I'm holding him. And I noticed I honestly didn't care if we were friends lovers or enemies. As long as I had a place in his head I would probably be okay.

This was weird for me to think of because feelings and me don't mix. But damn he be making me feel like a real deal bitch.

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