Analise's POV

Yes!

I will tell him and whatever the outcome is, I will face it like the bad bitch I am!

"So......after I was born, some stupid seer told my family that I was special or something like that. Actually looking back at it, I think he was referring to me being well, a black wolf but whatever. After that, my family's opinion changed. From even before they heard of what the seer said, they never really like me and just treated me as a burden but after the words of the seer, it just seemed to have increased. I don't know what passed through their mind at that time but they thought of me as an abomination even if they did not know anything about what he actually meant by what he said. My siblings, well they were just jealous."

"Fast forward to when I was 5. The palace was under attack by the vampires. As you read in that letter, they had come for me that night."

"It was probably near midnight when they attacked. They had come straight to my old room and had tried to get me but the guards outside my room were able to come in just in time. I did not know anything about my powers or anything so I was completely helpless there and I could do nothing but hide and watch the guards sacrifice their lives while trying to protect me. Then from out of nowhere more vampires came in and the guards were soon outnumbered. But I guess the commotion was heard by everybody in the castle since everybody came to my room, including my family." I took in a deep breath before continuing as the memories came rushing to my mind.

"While fighting and trying to protect each other, many people lost their lives including m-my gr-grandfather. He had died when a vampire was about to get to me but he jumped in between. He was severely injured as the vampire had stabbed him with a dagger containing wolfs bane. While the guards took out the vampire, I still remember rushing to my grandfather's aid. That night, holding my grandfather as he took his last breaths in my lap, surrounded by his own pool of blood as I watched with terror the light that slowly faded away from his eyes, I lost a part of myself. I still remember his last words 'Be happy princess' but no matter how hard I tried I seemed to have been failing miserably at being happy. Maybe I will never be."

Now I know why Alexander had tears in his eyes while talking about his own experience because it hurts as hell to remember these painful memories. Even though we don't know, there are many scars created by these memories and they are deep.

"My parents had found us in that position and they took it as I was the reason for his death which was half the truth. He did die and he died while protecting me but they made as if I killed him. At first I thought that they were just taking out the frustration for the loss of their family member on me but I soon found out that they actually took it as an opportunity to get rid of me. They did not bother to hide their hatred for me as they sent me away from them. I will never forget that night. The blood on the walls of my room, the countless bodies laying on the floor, the body of my grandfather, the hatred in my parents eye, everything. I just can't seem to forget about it." My voice broke at the end and I felt a tear slide down my cheek. Alexander wiped it away with his thumb before cupping my face.

His looked straight in my eyes and I was feeling nervous. What was he thinking about me? Did whatever I just said actually bring us closer or not? "They don't know your worth Analise. That is their mistake and their loss. I have not know you for long but I know that you would never do anything to harm anyone. Especially not those who you love." A sense of relief passed through me.

"Wow. I think that is the longest sentence you ever said to me" I joked around, trying to get my mind off of these memories

"I am serious Analise."

I smiled feebly at him as I leaned into his touch. "Your nightmare. Is it about that night?"

"Hmm"

"Do you get them often?"

"Kind of. It's like the memory has been engraved in my mind." After all these years of keeping this memory to myself, I finally felt better to get this weight off me. "Do you miss her? Your mom."

"More than I thought I would. Sometimes I see her in my dreams but they do not last long."

"I'm sure she must be proud of who became today." I grinned at him to which he actually let out a chuckle. "Oh my god. It must be my lucky day to say the Alexander laugh." I said in a fake fan girl voice which made him smile at my antics.

"Are you bipolar or something?" He asked me and I raised an eyebrow at him. "One time you are sad and the next you are joking around." I just shrugged in response

"So, how did you feel when you finally became king?" I changed the topic.

"It was a mixed feeling but in the end it was for the good. Where were you all these years when your parents sent you away?"

"Well, I was first sent to the city under the care of some woman who did not care about me. Then one night, I met a guy, Malcom. He had saved me from an attack and took me to a school for supernatural. He talked to my parents who agreed and I spent the rest of my life there until this year, I was called back for the war."

"Was it not boring? To stay in the same place for so long."

"Not really. I had Evelyne there with me and since I loved reading, I used to spend my time in the library. We could also go out in the city, so it was not that bad actually. For me at least. By the way, did you know we have the same eye color?"

"Yours is purple and mine is blue how are they the same?"

"Not now but my wolf form and when you are in your demon form. We both have silver eyes."

"How is that possible?"

"I guess it is another thing that moon goddess had something to do with. The other time too, I don't even know how the demons actually listened when I spoke. Like I am supposed to be a werewolf and not a demon."

"But you are supposed to be their leader. You are my mate which makes you the queen of the demons. As for the eyes, it may have something to do with the fact that you are a black she wolf. Your power is kind of equal, if not, maybe more than the leaders so you have equal authority over the demons as me."

"Kind of makes sense. Do you want someone who has same amount of authority as you for a mate?" I voiced out my thoughts

"Why would I not want to? Having someone equal as you ruling beside you is a good thing. In case you are doing something wrong, the other one can help. Thinking about it now, I don't think I would want someone who would just give into my demands and not voice out her own thoughts."

"Alexander......... Can we not give our relationship a chance? I mean can we at least not try? If we are not going to try and keep being like this, it would be better we rejected each other. I really want to try. Please" I finally said what has been bothering me from the start. Now that we both know what happened to each other, I can only hope for it to help us get closer. He seemed to be in deep thought.

Is he going to reject me?

Is he not going to give us a chance?

Am I going to get heartbroken again?

Judging by the look on his face, I can't say anything.