《Never with Me (Book 1)》[16]: Goodbye
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I woke up to the feeling of sunlight filtering through my window, caressing my cheek. Warming it with its rays. I could hear the sounds of birds chirping in the background. Slowly waking me up from slumber. I opened my eyes and turned my head towards the window, viewing the tops of the trees and the crystal blue sky. That's when I realized there were no more days left for me. No more time left. All the time I had left, were to experience my lasts, not my firsts.
My last sunset
My last breath
My last heartbeat
My last smile
My last tear
And last, but not least. My final goodbye.
I felt tears slowly seeping from my eyes and sliding down the outer corners, only to be absorbed by the sheets of my bed. Little spots in the fabric that were darkened by the moisture from my tears. The house was still quiet, since it was just past dawn. I knew that I had to get ready fast, before anyone could see me.
I got out of bed, fixing it for the last time. Hoping to at least make it easier for whomever came, to clean out my room. I walked to the shower, and bathed one last time. Taking my time to enjoy the feeling of warm water cascading over my body. After about fifteen minutes, I stepped out and dried my body off. Stepping out of the bathroom, I walked over to my closet and pulled the black dress my brother had bought me for Damien's engagement party off of its hanger. I let my fingers touch and caress the fabric, loving how soft and delicate it felt. Placing it on my bed, I ran my hand over it to smooth out the wrinkles. Wanting to make sure that I didn't ruin its perfection for this day. I hadn't known a little less than three weeks ago, that this beautiful dress would eventually be what I was shrouded in as I took my final breath.
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I then padded to my dresser, feeling the thick carpet as it cushioned my feet. For a second in as I stood in front of my dresser, I just stood there as I sunk my toes into its softness. It is interesting, how your senses seem to heighten when you know death is coming. It is like I am hyper aware of everything around me, and I am absorbing even the smallest of things that most people take for granted.
Pulling open the top drawer of my dresser, I grabbed out a pair of black lace underwear. I bent over, placing my first foot into the underwear, then my second. I pulled the delicate fabric up my legs and over my hips. Turning back to the bed to retrieve my dress, I caught my reflection in the mirror. My hair hanging loosely around my shoulders, with the morning light streaming in behind me. It cast an Angelic glow around me. Nearly naked, I took in my body silently wondering in another universe, if Damien would have liked to seen me like this.
Shaking my head out of reverie, I continued on to my bed. Picking up the dress, I dressed for the final time in my room. I ran my hand down my body once more, before walking back into the bathroom. I ran my brush through my hair, making sure to get the tangles out. After I was satisfied that I had, and walked back out towards my vanity. I looked up to the mirror again. Being this close to it, I could see every detail of my face. I noticed I did not look as terrible as I had felt, but not as good as I had when I had worn this dress last.
I put the same red lipstick on my lips, and then walked over to my night stand. Taking the letters I had written to Damien and Alex out, as well as the silver blade knife my demon has used on my flesh. I placed the letters neatly lined on the top of my pillow on my bed. I ran my hand over both letters one last time, before taking in my room for its final time. Seeing the picture of my family, I placed a kiss on my fingers and then rested it on the photo.
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With that act, I opened my door and padded barefoot through the house with the dagger in my hand. I heard the first stirring of movement in the house, as I crept down the stairs. It wouldn't be long before the house came alive with activity. Not long before people would be awake. I needed to leave as quietly and quickly as possible.
As I exited the back door of the house to head to my meadow, I took one last look back as tears streamed down my face. The soft wind causing my hair to filter across my face, as my feet sunk into the morning dew ladden grass. I felt my tears slide down and drop off my chin. I looked up to Damien's office window, envisioning he was standing there, smiling down at me. A smile crept on my face, and I turned around and began my final walk through the woods.
"Goodbye my love." I whispered, as I walked away from the only man I would ever love.
And then I left, to find my destiny.
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Terminal
My heart was shattered that day. It was on that day that I realized that life had an end, and that mine was coming. It was on that day that I realized that I was going to die. Leukemia, they told me. It's almost over. I didn't know what to do after that. I thought that maybe it would be best to die right then, get it over with. I thought that I could push myself away from all my friends, all my family, stop them from missing me after I was gone. I thought that I could handle it on my own, that perhaps the world was better off without me. I was wrong. So please help me, I'm dying. Save me, I'm falling. They tell me I won't survive. Please catch me, because if you don't, I'll shatter. I can't grab on anymore, I can't keep fighting. It's going to swallow me up. My name is Alyssa Gray, and by the time you finish reading this, I'll be dead. ________________________________ A few warnings and things to note: -I've put up the tramatising content tag due to a lot of mentions on death, dying, illness, and a mother who tends to be rather cruel. I know that I take a perspective that many will strongly disagree with, and I'm okay with that. Just be warned that this isn't lighthearted stuff. This is real, and death is real, and this part streaches beyond the fiction into reality. -I'm going to say a minor spoiler, but I don't want it to take you unaware because it is something to be aware of. At one point, my MC attempts suicide and fails. It's a very violent scene and I will put up the gore tag after writing this, and it's also just really depressing. If this will be triggering, you need to be aware of this before you read it. -This is a christian book. It may go against some of your beliefs. I hope that you can read and comment anyway even if some of it does not sit well with you. Credits for the cover go to the user 'Media in Sanity'. Your help and assitance has meant so much to me, God bless you in your writing and your endevours. A proud member of WriTE. I've promised to finish this fiction and update it at least once a month. My schedule is very irregular, and I'm working on that, but I'm going to do everything I can to make sure that this book stays out there. I'm not ending it until it's done.
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Miss Edwina Sharma finds herself without a husband by the end of the 1814 season and she could not be happier-truly, she is happy. She now knows that if she were to ever marry, it will only be for true love like the one shared by her sister, Kate, and her husband, Lord Anthony Bridgerton. Dr. Lucas Blakeley hasn't the time to find a wife, though, clinically, he knows a wife would solve many of his problems, including someone to keep his bed warm at night. However, when he receives an unexpected letter, he knows his life will be forever changed and he will need to re-enter the world of glitz and glamour that he left behind years ago. Netflix's Bridgerton fanfiction. Takes place immediately after the events of Bridgerton Season 2.
8 139Finding My Luna (Sequel to ICBTAM)
Today was supposed to be one of the happiest days of my life. The day when I say 'I do' and join myself to my mate for the rest of our lives. However that's drowned out by what's still missing. Myself.I stare at my reflection in the mirror and it's almost like I can see the part of me that's missing. Rafe has claimed that he doesn't care that I can't reach my wolf, that it's a problem that we will solve, that everything will be alright. He can't help me with this though. The Moon Goddess told me it was up to me and me alone, she's given me clues, only I still have no idea what to do.I feel like my soul has been lost along with my wolf, and even though Rafe smiles and kisses me and tells me it's alright, I can't help but think that he's somehow disappointed in me. Disappointed that I can't be what he needs. He needs a Luna, and right now, that's not who I am. And I'm worried that the pack sees that too.I won't give up hope though. I won't stop trying until I've found Kali, until I've found my Luna.********************The dust has settled following Rafe and Katarina's recovery. However, neither one of them have been able to relax. Rafe is still on edge about Nolan and the other rogues still running free, and Katarina is consumed with the dread of her missing wolf.She's scared of the unknown and at the moment, the unknown surrounds her. Her child, her wolf, what she and her mate are. All of it is new to her and none of it is normal. Whatever that's supposed to be.Katarina has decided that she won't rest until she finds her wolf again. She will search for her no matter the cost, but when that cost could be her child or mate, will she truly do whatever it takes?Maybe the Moon Goddess has a twisted sense in fate. Or maybe it's other forces working against her.Find out in Finding My LunaCover inspired by @_iiiinfinity_
8 238Heartbreak..
Poetry, romance, heartbreak All different stages that I personally went through and turned into poetry
8 265The Charming Billionaire.
| ZAEEF BOOK I |-UNEDITED- "So destiny huh" he said and I looked away. Destiny. "It was all Allah's plan. Guess my prayers got answered" he said, looking at me as I stared at his blurry reflection in the steel walls. "You prayed for me" I said and he chuckled. "You don't want someone in your life so much until you begin praying for them each day"________Amyrah Saleh liked to think she was an independent young woman with a great big world to explore. Well she was one, no doubt. But with everything she had, she felt something lacked. Kayan Zaeef was the billionaire everyone was fond of. From being nice and friendly to being the most charming person at any event, he brought light to everything. They met by chance, He fell in love by choice. And he was determined to make her feel the same. After all, he was the charming billionaire. Join the fiery Amyrah with the gray eyed charmer, as they take on the unknown journey most like to call love. copyright scopian_16 2017
8 127what about angels?
A story about a boy who reincarnated to an other world , what kind of fate is waiting for him?(!!!WARNING : BL /YAOI, CONTAINS SMUT AND INCEST!!!)[A/N: editing.]
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