Emily

"No, no, no..." are the first words that leave my mouth when I see it in front of me.

"Oh, Em..." Bella hugs me sideways, rubbing my back; after the fight I had with Mateo, I decided that I needed to go, just somewhere I feel safe...That place wasn't at the penthouse but here, with Bella; she's the best! Now though, we're sitting in the bathroom and yes, a pregnancy test in hand, and yes, two lines...AKA positive...

"This must be wrong! I need to do another one" I stand up and walk over to the sink where already 3 positive pregnancy tests lie. These test are wrong, they need to be! Hearing Bella sigh behind me, she stands up as well, taking the other pregnancy test out of my hand. I see her sympathetic gaze. And I know what she's thinking.

"Sorry, Em, but you're really pregnant..." How in the world could this happen?

2 hours ago...

The front door closes with a loud BANG, startling me. Guess Mateo just left. How dare he to leave me like this? That asshole...Oh, no, not now. My stomach takes the overhand and I run to the bathroom like I did these past weeks and vomiting my meal out like it was nothing; how can I puke this much? I barely eat anything. Wiping my mouth, I stand up, strolling over to the sink and I notice my make-up is a mess; shit, I look terrible...where is my make-up remover again? I guess in the cabinet behind the mirror. Opening it I spot them immediately but when I reach for it, something else falls as well...My pills...Fuck...panic rises in my head and I prepare myself for the worse; I can't be pregn- I don't even dare to think about it. Taking the packet, I turn it and check the date when I last used them...two months ago...how in the world could I forget it? I admit, sometimes I forget it but not this long...AND we had sex without condoms...I bit my lips. Am I pregnant? That at least explain the morning sickness; god, I'm stupid, why didn't it came in my head that I might be pregnant. When was my last period? I take out my phone and look at the date...10/06/20**. Normally I have it now but guess not. Tears prickle my eyes and my hand reach under my shirt to touch my belly...Bella! I pull my phone up again and call her; I need to talk to her right now.

"Yes, Emily? How are you doing?" she asks and the tears fall. "Emily, what is wrong?" I sniff loudly but answers.

"I-I'm freaking out right now" I sniff again. "Can you do something for me?" she doesn't response immediately but I feel her nod through the phone. "I need you to buy all the brands of pregnancy tests you can find" and I hand up.

Now...

"What am I suppose to do?" I sink to the floor, my head between my knees and tears are streaming down; damn hormones!

"Emily, look at me" Bella says and I refuse. "Emily" ugh, fine. She gives me a reassuring smile. "Are you going to tell him?"

"I don't know..." I think about all the conversation Mateo and I had; every time when we came to the subject 'children' he changed it or just refused to answer. It's like he's scared or maybe he doesn't want children at all... "If he knows, Bella...He-" my voice cracks, my eyes watering even more.

"Shh, everything will be alright, look at me" she points at herself. "After everything I went through, I never thought I would be here where I am now" That makes me smile a little more; what Bella has been through indeed isn't something I want to be in.

"I'm too young for children" I confess honesty; I want kids, yes, but not now, not with this relationship...I won't lie when I love him but he'll never love me back so why should I have kids? Having children is for me to have with someone who loves me, someone who cares about me and will go through fire for my love, which will be likewise but Mateo isn't that kind of person. "I know for sure when he finds out he will either want an abortion or hoped it will be a boy so he can take over the Business" I put extra stress on the last word. I can't even think about that...My child raised to be a murderer.

"Emily...Don't think like that" she sighs and pulls me up. "C'mon, I'll make the cookies you like so much" she says and to that I can't say no.

Its evening and Bella is in the shower, singing her lungs out. This night was exactly what I needed; watching movies, eating cookies and ice-cream and of course some more puking. Staring out the window I notice Tyler's SUV in front of the house and in the corner two others. Why can't I just be free for one day? One day!? I feel rage boiling in me but I control myself; hormones, Emily, hormones. So I really have a little human growing in me? I smile, rubbing my belly. It's still not showing, thank god, but I feel the little bump and I read online that I will feel the baby when I'm in week 20 but if I calculated right then I'm about 6 weeks.

"Oh, I've been shaking

I love it when you go crazy

You take all my inhibitions

Baby, there's nothing holdin' me back

You take me places that tear up my reputation

Manipulate my decisions

Baby, there's nothing holdin' me back

There's nothing holdin' me back

There's nothing holdin' me back" Bella sings loudly and I smile but it soon fades when I think what I should do...Tell Mateo or not?

Mateo

"Boss, I think she will stay the night here" Tyler report to me through the phone.

"Guard the house all night if needed" and I hang up, taking the corner too sharp and my tires squeak. Why is Emily so stubborn? We had our first fight and somehow I feel fucked up...I won't lie that I treated her wrong in the beginning but now? Now I treat her better, right? Why are you even thinking about this holly fucked-up thing? C'mon, Mateo, focus! I park in front of a warehouse where we hold her.

"Boss" Kevin greets me when I enter the building.

"Where is she?"

"Downstairs" he answers, opening the door to the basement. "She's been refusing to eat" he adds.

"We need her alive" I reply angrily, frowning my brow when I see her fighting with James but she doesn't win.

"Fuck you!" she says to him when he holds her tight against his body. "I'll demand to speak to your Don!" she squirms in his hold.

"You're lucky" I say and enter the room, grinning.

"Mateo El Ricci" she snarls and I motion for James to let her go.

"Chan-Juan Bai Cheng" I reply back, giving her my devilish smile. "We need to talk..."