these critters will be the end fo me

i cant sleep properly anymore. have you ever stayed up due to noise? cause that has been me for the past few fUCKING DAYS NOW. ill just lie in bed listenignt to their little feet crawl up and down the concrete floor and they keep messing with shit

i keep losing rations because they keep knocking it over

youd think theyd care to perserve it considering how its keepiong all of us alive but no

they rather throw the glass everywhere

speaking of which, i had to build a glass pile in the corner of the room. made the mistake of not doing that and so now my foot is sort of bleeding?

had a nasty piece of shard that i stepped in. thankfully there was a med kit from whoever was last in here so it was all bandaged but i need to figure out something for the critters.

if i have to spend one more night (? day?) listening to their fucking scurrying im going to throw myself outside. im worried theyre going to start eating the wires

to be honest i dont know whether the outside is a better place to be in right n ow or if i should stay in here. ill just have to wait till after i finish opening up the files

the other locations got to be in the end right? it has to be

i don't think i can handle it if its not

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is it weird that feeling pain is giving me relief...?

its almost like its a reminder that im still alive and living and breathing and conciouss

is it so bad that i feel that way?

maybe i am starting to lose it

but the pain i feel in my foot is just comforting

i think my brain is starting to melt from having nothing to do for so long. not to mention the fact thhat i cant tell time anymore. it could be days since m y last log date. or cycles. hell maybe even years! ill be honest, i dont know how long i was outside for.

everything looked the same so who knows. maybe its been hours since i left the building block. or years.

every so often ill find myself staring at the ceiling and wondering if time even passed. if anything im doing even mattered. each time the power goes out or my progress gets deleted on the files is another step closer to my mental break down

i swear

its like im stuck in a loop of doing the same things over and over and over and over and over and ovER AND OVER AND OVER AND OVER AND OVER AND OVER AGAIN

was this why the outpost project failed? too many people off by themselves and talking to themselves into insanity?

its been so long that ive talked to anyone that i started actually s a y i n g stuff to myself. all to convince myself that my voice, my vocal cords, are still working yet how do i even know if what i hear is what is true

im just alone in a concrete box

how am i going to continue everyones legacy if i end up insane...

...

just got to finish off the files

i have to finish off the files

just finish decoding it and then ill leave. ill get to go outside again and find a new building block and then be able to make all this worth it.

ill be able to make these cycles of being alone worth it

i just got to keep calm.

i just got to keep my mind straight

please oh please me just... finsih quickly...

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